OT : For those who fear emotions will never even out.... a bit of personal achievement..

[Guest guest]

I have to share this....

It's been about three and a half years ago, now, that the love of my life

dumped me to run of with my friend Jeff... No... my love was not a

woman... but a man... Anyway.. the point... all this time I've not been

able to listen to music... it made me burst into tears.. for a very long

time I thought it was from the hurt of the betrayal... and most likely

for a while it was.. but it continued far longer than it should have and

I started to believe it had more to do with my hormones than it did my

broken heart...

I'm on the computer longer than I usually am.. I skipped Bedxercises

tonight.... The movie I was watching finished and an 1/2 hour 'buy or

stuff' show started... love songs.. the oldies... Elvis, Andy ,

Charlie Rich... All songs that I adored and always sang to.... I was

fifteen minutes into the show, responding to emails when I realized that

I was singing along to the clips on the tv of the songs available in this

package they are selling... for the first time in over three years I did

not scramble to change a station to avoid love songs....

For those that fear your emotions will never even out.. for those that

fear you will never be able to go through the day without crying about

something so stupid that you can't understand what the heck is wrong with

you....

IT DOES GET BETTER!!!!

I used to sing along to my favorite songs all the time... My love used to

sing many of them to me... I've really missed that.. but just couldn't

handle bawling... hehehhehe.. I can sing along again!!! I can sing along

again!!!!

..... and if you're wondering about what I think about what he did..... he

should have been drown at birth... he not only betrayed me, the woman he

claimed to be the love of his life, he betrayed me with my best friend

(besides him) and that friend was a man! And when my friend told me about

it and I confronted him - he denied it! And do you know how I found out

that it was true???? I created an alternate identity online and got into

chat with him and he told my alter all about it!!!! There is more to the

story.. but it doesn't belong here... I just had to vent a wee bit....

now I'm off to sleep.... nitey nite!

Topper ()

[Guest guest]

Dear ,

thank you for sharing this personal story, it really does give us strength

when we think we can never survive... but a very wise person once told me...

the thing about feelings is that they don't last... not to the same

degree... so don't make any big decisions when in a bad state... give it

time..

But I guess one thing I think of when I am up to my ass in aligators... is

at least its not being plastered all over the papers.... small mercies..

Happy singing..

Jane

> For those that fear your emotions will never even out.. for those that

> fear you will never be able to go through the day without crying about

> something so stupid that you can't understand what the heck is wrong with

> you....

>

> IT DOES GET BETTER!!!!

>

> I used to sing along to my favorite songs all the time... My love used to

> sing many of them to me... I've really missed that.. but just couldn't

> handle bawling... hehehhehe.. I can sing along again!!! I can sing along

> again!!!!

>

[Guest guest]

Oh.. but I was being plastered all over the papers... the job I had after

the betrayal... they'd played the radio there all day, every day... I was

in tears from start of shift to end.... they thought I was nuts... and

when the gal that played the radio had the day off, no radio, no

crying.... then when she got fired... no radio at all.. no more crying...

Nothing like the people that you work with thinking you are insane.....

.... oh.. I need to add.. the friend that he was messing with.. worked

with me at that job.. he's the one that got me in... that's why I linked

all the crying back to my personal issues.... not to messed up

hormones... I got dumped just two weeks before I was to go on his

insurance and get to the doctor for my prescription to be refilled... so

I also ran out of my thyroid meds at the same time!

Topper ()

On Sun, 18 Apr 2004 12:06:01 +0100 " Jane White "

writes:

> Dear ,

> thank you for sharing this personal story, it really does give us

> strength

> when we think we can never survive... but a very wise person once

> told me...

> the thing about feelings is that they don't last... not to the same

> degree... so don't make any big decisions when in a bad state...

> give it

> time..

>

> But I guess one thing I think of when I am up to my ass in

> alligators... is

> at least its not being plastered all over the papers.... small

> mercies..

>

> Happy singing..

> Jane

[Guest guest]

Hi Everyone,

I'm new to the thyroid group and have learned a lot of new things .

I just started on Armour about five months ago and do feel a bit better.

I was on Synthroid for eight or nine years and kept trying to go up

with my endo's

consent but I always felt more tired and had serious brain fog. Now,

when I

try to go up on the Armour (I take 1.25 grains) I get the same symptoms.

Also, I started on Isocort, went up to two per day and got a sour

stomach

and a bad taste in my mouth (I'm very sensitive to medication).

The symptoms that are most bothersome are tiredness (I push through

this and still run a couple of miles most days) and bloating, I swell

all over,(all the time)

but my abdomen is the worst. I am allergic to wheat and all grains

other than

rice (only since I was became hypothyroid) - and also dairy. Lots of

other foods

don't agree with me. My LDL cholesterol has gone up in spite of a good

diet

and my M.D. is talking about statins.

My last blood test which included free T3 was in the very low end of

the range. I don't feel cold

(I did most of my adult life) but I do have low temps - usually below

96 in the AM and

never more than 97 . Before I was diagnosed, I kept throwing out

thermometers because

they all showed a low reading and I throught they were faulty!

I just located an alternative M.D. not far from me and I guess I need

further tests (ferritin, etc.)

Does anyone have an M.D. to recommend in upper Westchester, NY???

Thanks,

> Dear ,

> thank you for sharing this personal story, it really does give us

> strength

> when we think we can never survive... but a very wise person once told

> me...

> the thing about feelings is that they don't last... not to the same

> degree... so don't make any big decisions when in a bad state... give

> it

> time..

>

> But I guess one thing I think of when I am up to my ass in

> aligators... is

> at least its not being plastered all over the papers.... small

> mercies..

>

> Happy singing..

> Jane

>

>

>> For those that fear your emotions will never even out.. for those that

>> fear you will never be able to go through the day without crying about

>> something so stupid that you can't understand what the heck is wrong

>> with

>> you....

>>

>> IT DOES GET BETTER!!!!

>>

>> I used to sing along to my favorite songs all the time... My love

>> used to

>> sing many of them to me... I've really missed that.. but just couldn't

>> handle bawling... hehehhehe.. I can sing along again!!! I can sing

>> along

>> again!!!!

>>

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