Tired of being.....

November 11, 2004

I am so tired of all of this. I hate doctors! Not all doctors, just

mine. lol.. They think " they " know my body better than I do. I am

getting tired of being passed off as a " mental case " . Right now, I am

on the synthyroid pill, only at 25mil. About a month ago, I was on

200mil. Okay, many questions are running through your head right now,

and some of you angels have answered my posts and possible remember

my pleas from before. Going back two years ago, I turned into

a " mental case " kind of out of the blue. Social phobia, anxiety,

depression.. The doc put me on zoloft without checking blood stats to

see if I had a thyroid condition. After months of seeing things that

were only in my head, and depression so bad that I wouldn't even get

out of the bed , My husband switched doctors for me, and the new doc

took a look at me and said " it's your thyroid " ...... blood tests were

done and yep, that's what it was. I was almost 300 pounds. After

being on the synthyroid for just a matter of a couple of weeks, I saw

a difference. Ok, so a year later, I had stomach surgery. I had lost

120 lbs.. Started with some weird symptoms of passing out and

seizures. Doc again had many many tests done and could not figure out

what was going on. Well, doing research on the puter, I finally

figured out that it has to be one of the many pills I was on. With

process of elimination of medication, I found that seizures were

being caused by the zoloft..Haven't been back on that pill for about

3 months now. No seizures.....Only on one pill, the thyroid pill, I

was passing out all the time. 6 to 10 times a day. Ok, it must be the

synthroid pill. again, I was on the 200mil at a weight of 140 lbs

now. Remember I had the stomach surgery, so now I was at the point to

think that maybe I was getting to much thyroid. Doctors would dimiss

anything I would tell them, still doing tests at my requests, still,

they would give me the feeling that I was making this stuff up. So, I

stopped the tyroid pill all together. Hey.. no passing out! It was

the pill after all.. WEll, this was not a good idea, for then other

things were starting to happen.. I started having " small stokes " . Ok,

this is where my left side of my body would go completly numb for

awhile, my face would even be droopy. Called the doc, more tests were

done on my head and heart. All came back normal...Ok, went to see a

thyroid expect, wanted me to stil stay off the thyrois pill for

another few weeks so he could do a chemical scan on thyroid. Well,

after a week more of not taking the synthyoid pill, I was starting to

see things and hear things again. I would be hitting myself in the

head and would ramble on,even suicide thoughts... hubby decided to

call doctor on his own and demand to be put on low dose of thyroid

meds. Against their judgement and telling him that that is not signs

of thyroid and being really nasty towards him, they put me back on

it. Well guess

what........... after just 10 days of being back on, the seeing thigs

and

thoughts went away, as well as the depression.. Cool right? I would

think. At 14 days taking the med, Anxiety was stating back up, but

only in the evening ( would take the pill on an empty stomach in the

am).. maybe not taking enough to carry me thoughout the day.. Easy

enought to think that anyways.. so I called the doctor only to get a

nasty receptionist telling

me it takes 6 weeks to see a diffeerence. Yes, I agree, but my body

seems to think that maybe it works a bit faster for me.. how about

some blood tests.. easy enough? right? nope, they refuse. So, again,

back on my own here.. I decided to up my own dose to 50 ( this was

just yesterday). Just to see what happens.. Well within two hours of

taking the extra dose, the passing out started again.. Who ever says

this med doesn't work right away hasn't met me, that is for sure.

Althought I was passing out, I had no signs of depression or anxiety.

okay, today I am just on the 25 mil again. Thinking of cutting pill

in half and trying the 25 plus cutting the pill (25 mil) in half and

see where that takes me. Although very scared to try this pigs pill

you guys have told me about because I am afraid of seeing things on

the wall again telling me to kill myself, I am just about ready

to " Go for it " ... Anyhoo, getting back to my ligitimate bitch here

about my doctors, they think I am nuts. I just wish they would just

take a min to hear me out and look into my situation. I feel totally

alone here in this city. My brother had told me our chiropractor, who

I just love to death and admire, said that our " specialist " here in

Erie, PA, are not really specialists.. that I should go to

Pittsburgh, a bigger city and a 2 hour drive away to find help. He

even offered some names of who he would recommend. WEll, what do you

guys think? Am I nuts?? Should I use my chropractors advice and find

a doc in PIttsburgh? or /should I stop taking the synthyroid pill for

awhile then start on the pig pill? I do not have the money to have

own blood test done, but I can't afford to be without any meds for

this thyroid. Doctors won't let me have the blood work done. Should I

just lean back for awhile and take the time into it and if I feel the

anxiety or depression just take a valum and call it a day till they

feel I have had it in my systom long enough for them to finally give

me the blood work I need done? AHHHHHHHHH.... I need some angels here

again... I know you all are not doctors, but neither am I and I seem

to be working on my own here.. Any advice even if it is " get a grip

Liz " advice would be gladly appeciated ..

November 11, 2004

Liz, I've been dx bipolar and I'm beginning to wonder .......... I've

been stable mood wise since taking the synthroid, but I can't seem to

get off the sofa. I feel like my arms & legs are weighted down. I end

up sleeping most of the day away. And my doc doesn't want to see me for

4 months!!!! And I've only been on the stuff for a month!! He did the

initial blood test, said 50mgs seemed to be a good dosage, even though

I was still feeling horrible, then told me he'd see me in a few months.

UGH. I don't think synthroid is the med for me - or the dosage is

wrong.

I think the thyroid is very difficult to dx and get the meds right for.

I'd call your doc over and over & keep complaining about how you feel.

" The squeeky wheel... " and all that. I wouldn't play with the

synthroid. Oh, who am I kidding - of course I would. I'd try 1/2 in the

am & 1/2 in the pm to see how that works. If that didn't work, THEN,

I'd call the doc over & over until he listened to me. If he wouldn't

listen, I'd drive to the bigger town to get help!!!!!

hugs & good luck, peg

" Life is like a beautiful melody, only the lyrics are messed up. " ~

Anonymous

>

> I am so tired of all of this. I hate doctors! Not all doctors, just

> mine. lol.. They think " they " know my body better than I do. I am

> getting tired of being passed off as a " mental case " . Right now, I am

> on the synthyroid pill, only at 25mil. About a month ago, I was on

> 200mil. Okay, many questions are running through your head right now,

> and some of you angels have answered my posts and possible remember

> my pleas from before. Going back two years ago, I turned into

> a " mental case " kind of out of the blue. Social phobia, anxiety,

> depression.. The doc put me on zoloft without checking blood stats to

> see if I had a thyroid condition. After months of seeing things that

> were only in my head, and depression so bad that I wouldn't even get

> out of the bed , My husband switched doctors for me, and the new doc

> took a look at me and said " it's your thyroid " ...... blood tests were

> done and yep, that's what it was. I was almost 300 pounds. After

> being on the synthyroid for just a matter of a couple of weeks, I saw

> a difference. Ok, so a year later, I had stomach surgery. I had lost

> 120 lbs.. Started with some weird symptoms of passing out and

> seizures. Doc again had many many tests done and could not figure out

> what was going on. Well, doing research on the puter, I finally

> figured out that it has to be one of the many pills I was on. With

> process of elimination of medication, I found that seizures were

> being caused by the zoloft..Haven't been back on that pill for about

> 3 months now. No seizures.....Only on one pill, the thyroid pill, I

> was passing out all the time. 6 to 10 times a day. Ok, it must be the

> synthroid pill. again, I was on the 200mil at a weight of 140 lbs

> now. Remember I had the stomach surgery, so now I was at the point to

> think that maybe I was getting to much thyroid. Doctors would dimiss

> anything I would tell them, still doing tests at my requests, still,

> they would give me the feeling that I was making this stuff up. So, I

> stopped the tyroid pill all together. Hey.. no passing out! It was

> the pill after all.. WEll, this was not a good idea, for then other

> things were starting to happen.. I started having " small stokes " . Ok,

> this is where my left side of my body would go completly numb for

> awhile, my face would even be droopy. Called the doc, more tests were

> done on my head and heart. All came back normal...Ok, went to see a

> thyroid expect, wanted me to stil stay off the thyrois pill for

> another few weeks so he could do a chemical scan on thyroid. Well,

> after a week more of not taking the synthyoid pill, I was starting to

> see things and hear things again. I would be hitting myself in the

> head and would ramble on,even suicide thoughts... hubby decided to

> call doctor on his own and demand to be put on low dose of thyroid

> meds. Against their judgement and telling him that that is not signs

> of thyroid and being really nasty towards him, they put me back on

> it. Well guess

> what........... after just 10 days of being back on, the seeing thigs

> and

> thoughts went away, as well as the depression.. Cool right? I would

> think. At 14 days taking the med, Anxiety was stating back up, but

> only in the evening ( would take the pill on an empty stomach in the

> am).. maybe not taking enough to carry me thoughout the day.. Easy

> enought to think that anyways.. so I called the doctor only to get a

> nasty receptionist telling

> me it takes 6 weeks to see a diffeerence. Yes, I agree, but my body

> seems to think that maybe it works a bit faster for me.. how about

> some blood tests.. easy enough? right? nope, they refuse. So, again,

> back on my own here.. I decided to up my own dose to 50 ( this was

> just yesterday). Just to see what happens.. Well within two hours of

> taking the extra dose, the passing out started again.. Who ever says

> this med doesn't work right away hasn't met me, that is for sure.

> Althought I was passing out, I had no signs of depression or anxiety.

> okay, today I am just on the 25 mil again. Thinking of cutting pill

> in half and trying the 25 plus cutting the pill (25 mil) in half and

> see where that takes me. Although very scared to try this pigs pill

> you guys have told me about because I am afraid of seeing things on

> the wall again telling me to kill myself, I am just about ready

> to " Go for it " ... Anyhoo, getting back to my ligitimate bitch here

> about my doctors, they think I am nuts. I just wish they would just

> take a min to hear me out and look into my situation. I feel totally

> alone here in this city. My brother had told me our chiropractor, who

> I just love to death and admire, said that our " specialist " here in

> Erie, PA, are not really specialists.. that I should go to

> Pittsburgh, a bigger city and a 2 hour drive away to find help. He

> even offered some names of who he would recommend. WEll, what do you

> guys think? Am I nuts?? Should I use my chropractors advice and find

> a doc in PIttsburgh? or /should I stop taking the synthyroid pill for

> awhile then start on the pig pill? I do not have the money to have

> own blood test done, but I can't afford to be without any meds for

> this thyroid. Doctors won't let me have the blood work done. Should I

> just lean back for awhile and take the time into it and if I feel the

> anxiety or depression just take a valum and call it a day till they

> feel I have had it in my systom long enough for them to finally give

> me the blood work I need done? AHHHHHHHHH.... I need some angels here

> again... I know you all are not doctors, but neither am I and I seem

> to be working on my own here.. Any advice even if it is " get a grip

> Liz " advice would be gladly appeciated ..

>

November 11, 2004