Guest guest Posted September 24, 2007 Report Share Posted September 24, 2007 Eva: I know for me, you feel like as a woman, you feel like your food intake,like your appearance is constantly being monitored or judged. I think depending on what end of the spectrum you're at weight wise (too thin, overweight) you feel self conscious. Honestly, nobody cares and if they do then THEY need something to do. Seriously. If you " think " someone is scruitinizing or judging what you're eating. Stop, pick it up and do a dance as you eat it, looking right at him or her. " Yeah, I'm eatin' this cookie. It delicious. Screw you! " The only time I ever started to feel self conscious about eating at parties was a few years ago at Christmas party held by my DH's co- worker. I was all happy and feeling so shiny and proud of all the weight I had lost. One of DH's other coworkers, whom I had only met ONCE before when I was " full weight " saw me and said, " Did you lose weight? You look totally different " . That just set off all the " freak out " bells. No one had said anything up to that point about my weight. I didn't eat a thing that night and binged later. I felt like, " Oh my God, if this guy who only met me once before noticed, then if I gain even 1 pound back EVERYONE will notice " . Hence the further slide down the spiral of insanity. After that I either abstained or stuffed. As my weight went back to a normal range I felt like, " Oh, God, they're all happy I gained weight. I can't eat, but if I don't they'll think I'm a freak " T > > thanks for the great advce I will try and remember that I am going to try > very hard to overcome this hurdle. I know that I shouldn't be embarrassed to > eat but I am and I don't know why. Eva > > > > ************************************** See what's new at http://www.aol.com > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 25, 2007 Report Share Posted September 25, 2007 I think my pattern is when going away even if it's for a long weekend is to indulge on forbidden foods. Well, forbidden to me.....I don't want to do this or act on this behavior, so my plan is to eat untill satisfied and will need to focus on my friends, having fun and enjoying myself w/o food. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 25, 2007 Report Share Posted September 25, 2007 I think my pattern is when going away even if it's for a long weekend is to indulge on forbidden foods. Well, forbidden to me.....I don't want to do this or act on this behavior, so my plan is to eat untill satisfied and will need to focus on my friends, having fun and enjoying myself w/o food. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 27, 2007 Report Share Posted September 27, 2007 Interesting how we get into everyone else's 'head' except our own?!? The question ought to be - am I happy with how I look? NOT what do they think of me? > As my weight went back to a normal range I > felt like, " Oh, God, they're all happy I gained weight. I can't eat, > but if I don't they'll think I'm a freak " Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 27, 2007 Report Share Posted September 27, 2007 Interesting how we get into everyone else's 'head' except our own?!? The question ought to be - am I happy with how I look? NOT what do they think of me? > As my weight went back to a normal range I > felt like, " Oh, God, they're all happy I gained weight. I can't eat, > but if I don't they'll think I'm a freak " Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 27, 2007 Report Share Posted September 27, 2007 Interesting how we get into everyone else's 'head' except our own?!? The question ought to be - am I happy with how I look? NOT what do they think of me? > As my weight went back to a normal range I > felt like, " Oh, God, they're all happy I gained weight. I can't eat, > but if I don't they'll think I'm a freak " Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 27, 2007 Report Share Posted September 27, 2007 I agree 100% at the end of the day you need to be happy w/you and the body you are living in. Only you can make that happen. > > > As my weight went back to a normal range I > > felt like, " Oh, God, they're all happy I gained weight. I can't eat, > > but if I don't they'll think I'm a freak " > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 27, 2007 Report Share Posted September 27, 2007 I agree 100% at the end of the day you need to be happy w/you and the body you are living in. Only you can make that happen. > > > As my weight went back to a normal range I > > felt like, " Oh, God, they're all happy I gained weight. I can't eat, > > but if I don't they'll think I'm a freak " > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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