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Hi everyone, I'm Adelaide and i'm 23. I have struggled with weight issues for approx 5 years. I had always been a healthy weight, never skinny but athletic. I got dumped suddenly and to get back at him, or so i thought, i started counting calories and lost quite a lot of weight in a short period of time. As the dumping began to fade I lost the willpower to stick to the counting as strictly and the weight slowly came back, thank god, and i had more fun. From then until now I had gone back to the counting in times of stress. When I was travelling, through breakups etc. I never went back as strictly as that first time, but it was always in my mind. It was like a secret weapon, i thought, why do people bother with diets when all they need to do is count, it's logic. This year I came off anti-depressants after 2 years and have started overeating. My doc says it's because the

anti-deps suppress hunger as well, and I also used to be a smoker. But now I am a bit heavier than before and this bothers me. what bothers me more though is that i am counting everyday. but instead of sticking to it i go over, feel bad, ashamed, fat and guilty, and then binge. I found IE and tried it for about a week a couple of months back but got so petrified of putting on weight and not counting i stopped. I doubted that I could trust the book, it is still unfathomable to me not to count. The last 2 days i have not written down my calories but they are still in my head. I guess i came here cos i know there's no way I can do this alone. I feel such a societal pressure to be thin, even more so since i'm young. It's unavoidable. When I try to do IE i get upset when i see people who are obviously starving themselves. I think "it's so unfair they get to be skinny and ppl think they look great when really they're

starving themselves." I was wondering if there were any people out there who started off not overweight but didn't put on weight? I'm scared since i'm not overweight i will put on a lot. A lot is going through my mind right now and i'm conscious this is super long. I hope I haven't bored you guys with the autobiography!!! I look forward to chatting with all of you and wish you the best in your journies Adelaide Send instant messages to your online friends http://au.messenger.yahoo.com