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Hello everyone,

I joined your group after doing a search for "Intuitive Eating" message boards. I just recently bought the book by Tribole and am about 3/4 of the way done reading it. I read about it in an article about Katheirne McPhee from "American Idol". I'm sure you all saw that.

I am 46-yrs old, mother of one 4-yr-old boy and a professional musician. I am about 40 lbs overweight and have been "on a diet" for my entire life. In fact, I used to tell people that everyone morning when I wake up, I start a diet. I've been on countless diets and always gain the weight back (sound familiar?). My latest diet was "The Sonoma Diet" where I lost 10 lbs. I don't know what triggered it but I started to lose control and couldn't stop eating "bad foods". I've gained all that weight back and a few more pounds (I haven't weighed myself - I'm too scared). Now, I finally got to the place where I can't stand the thought of another diet. I just can't do it. The "IE" book has been really eye-opening for me. I know that if I can really adopt the whole mind-set of IE, I will be happier and healther for the rest of my life. And, thinner too. My problem is, I know I'm doing this

because I want to lose weight. I also want to feel good and be healthy, but my #1 priority is to lose weight. I can't seem to get my focus off of that. How can I get past that? It is so difficult to accept myself presently the way I look. I tried on a skirt the other day that used to be loose and it was too tight (probably a bad idea to do that on the 1st day of my period).

The other problem I'm having is not being able to stop myself when eating something I really love that is a "sometimes food". My biggest weakness is cookies. Especially really soft, doughy, sugar cookies. After reading the chapter in the book about allowing yourself to eat whatever you want, I made a batch of sugar cookie dough because that is the thing I love most. I ate most of the dough and only baked about 6 large cookies. I couldn't stop at just one cookie or one taste of dough. It's kind of a scary feeling - an uncontrollable feeling. I decided not to do that again. If I don't have it in the house, I won't eat it. I know that's not the right way to deal with it but I don't know what else to do. Any suggestions?

I'm looking forward to becoming part of your group. Thank you all.

Sincerely,

O.