IE hiccup

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Okay, so the last few days my mind has been preoccupied and I find

that I find it harder and harder to enjoy and be present while

eating. Then I struggle with the idea that having french fries and

cookies are okay. I still feel like I'm going to be " ah ha!'d " at

some point, tricked, bamboozled, led to fat....It's like I can't

honestly believe that Eating without baggage exists.

So today I'm slowing down, checking in with you all and gettin back

to EI. You know in the book it says that one woman who binged was

asked to list her foods that she loved...and only came up with a

couple. I think that I'll only come up wiht a couple too.

When I'm dieting, I can fantasize about the restaruants and goodies.

Now that I've allowed myself the restaurants and goodies, I don't

even have the thrill and I find myself bored with eating...which

might SOUND good except for the fact that I have no motivation to

cook or go out and end up eating fast food/junk b/c it's easy and I'm

now starving. Hubby and I spent 2 hours trying to decide where to

eat one day! PfT!

I feel like I'mm losing an important part of myself. My food

identity.

V