Re: need insight - asking 4 help

[Guest guest]

Hi Lynn,

Welcome.

You haven't had a very good hand delt, to be sure.

Are you suspecting that you are also having problems with your thyroid or

adrenals and are wondering how to explore that? Or have you just found a

need to find some folks to talk to?

Do you have additional symptoms that cause you worry?

We're pretty good listeners.

I like your dream... Dreams are what keep us going, I think.

Grab a cup of coffee or tea, or your drink of choice, mine now is

filtered water - used to be a Mountain Dew addict.. but have FINALLY

weaned myself off of it..... and visit with us for a spell..

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On Sat, 17 Jul 2004 22:38:10 -0000 " Lynn (Paduch) Sheldon "

writes:

> Hello. I am new here. My name is Lynn, or I go by PatientSpirit. I

> really need guidance and clarification. I turned 56 on 02/14/2004

> (02/14/1948). Prior to my 53rd birthday I was really healthy and

> strong all my life.............

> In August 2001, as a result of poor contact lens hygiene (my fault)

> I

> acquired a rare eye disease called Acanthamoeba Keratitis. This is

> a

> very rare and extremely painful disease which erodes the cornea and

> lasts for months. Got over it. Have had a corneal transplant and

> many other eye surgeries since. Can mostly see now with glasses.

> In April 2002 I was diagnosed with metastatic breast cancer -

> invasive ductal carcinoma, stage three: 5 out of 14 lymphnodes from

> my armpit was positive. I went to sleep in the OR anticipating a

> lumpectomy and woke up without a left breast due the 8 cm tumor my

> surgeon found while I was under anesthesia. I submitted to lengthy,

> radical chemotherapy and radiation treatments over the next 12 +

> months.

> Less than a month later I was diagnosed with thyroid cancer and had

> TWO MORE surgeries!

> On April 1, 2004 I had an emergency appendectomy. On May 2, 2004 I

> had my (no longer used) sub-clavial chemo port removed as it had

> caused me a DVT (deep vein thrombosis) in my upper right arm.

> It is now July 2004. I am so frigging depressed I don't know what

> to

> do or what the future holds. There are not too many body parts left

> to fall off. I grieve for my breast. I used to be a sexually

> active, sensual person who now feels like a freak. Every time I get

> out of the shower and look in the mirror I cry.

> My husband and I used to have our own business - an assisted living

> home for people with Alzheimers, within our own home. When I got so

> sick we had to close it. This past September, my husband went back

> to his old job as a radio engineer at a local station. We barely

> get by.

> We have a dream............our dream is, since we have just a little

> equity in our home, we may be able to (after figuring out how to

> settle some tax issues) sell our house. We would like to settle on

> a

> few acres with our dogs and parrots, in a little house and finally

> be

> debt free. We would like to run an animal rescue operation. We

> also

> would like to know our physical and fiscal health will be ok. Can

> anyone address these issues and give me some input?

>

> I thank any and all for your input,

> PatientSpirit

> sville, MI

[Guest guest]

Welcome, Lynn.

Jan

Lynn (Paduch) Sheldon wrote:

>Hello. I am new here. My name is Lynn, or I go by PatientSpirit. I

>really need guidance and clarification. I turned 56 on 02/14/2004

>(02/14/1948). Prior to my 53rd birthday I was really healthy and

>strong all my life.............

>

>In August 2001, as a result of poor contact lens hygiene (my fault) I

>acquired a rare eye disease called Acanthamoeba Keratitis. This is a

>very rare and extremely painful disease which erodes the cornea and

>lasts for months. Got over it. Have had a corneal transplant and

>many other eye surgeries since. Can mostly see now with glasses.

>

>In April 2002 I was diagnosed with metastatic breast cancer -

>invasive ductal carcinoma, stage three: 5 out of 14 lymphnodes from

>my armpit was positive. I went to sleep in the OR anticipating a

>lumpectomy and woke up without a left breast due the 8 cm tumor my

>surgeon found while I was under anesthesia. I submitted to lengthy,

>radical chemotherapy and radiation treatments over the next 12 +

>months.

>

>Less than a month later I was diagnosed with thyroid cancer and had

>TWO MORE surgeries!

>

>On April 1, 2004 I had an emergency appendectomy. On May 2, 2004 I

>had my (no longer used) sub-clavial chemo port removed as it had

>caused me a DVT (deep vein thrombosis) in my upper right arm.

>

>It is now July 2004. I am so frigging depressed I don't know what to

>do or what the future holds. There are not too many body parts left

>to fall off. I grieve for my breast. I used to be a sexually

>active, sensual person who now feels like a freak. Every time I get

>out of the shower and look in the mirror I cry.

>

>My husband and I used to have our own business - an assisted living

>home for people with Alzheimers, within our own home. When I got so

>sick we had to close it. This past September, my husband went back

>to his old job as a radio engineer at a local station. We barely get

>by.

>

>We have a dream............our dream is, since we have just a little

>equity in our home, we may be able to (after figuring out how to

>settle some tax issues) sell our house. We would like to settle on a

>few acres with our dogs and parrots, in a little house and finally be

>debt free. We would like to run an animal rescue operation. We also

>would like to know our physical and fiscal health will be ok. Can

>anyone address these issues and give me some input?

>

>I thank any and all for your input,

>PatientSpirit

>sville, MI

>

>

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

We would like to settle on

> a

> few acres with our dogs and parrots, in a little house and finally

> be

> debt free. We would like to run an animal rescue operation.

============================================================

That is awesome! I belong to a lab rescue and also got my first show dog (a

miniature pinscher).

Have you been diagnosed with thyroid problems too? It sure seems that you have

had a streak of bad luck.

[Guest guest]

Many of you have been very kind to me. I appreciate your caring comments and suggestions. Thank you for your thoughtful feedback.

This post-illness depression is overwhelming to me. I read your comments and suggestions, but feel powerless to act. The books – well, I used to be an avid reader. The library is across the street. I no longer read. The support groups – well, other than online groups, I am not a joiner type.

Lately I am more and more reluctant to leave the house. I feel safe here. I never used to be like that. I am a prisoner in my own mind. I feel like I am in a deep, dark hole. I can look up and see light. I can see life going on above me. I can remember living and laughing and loving. I used to be a very upbeat, productive, helpful, nurturing and loving person. I used to embrace life!

I want it back. I want Lynn back. But, right now I feel totally emotionally crippled by the untoward health events of the last three years. I am frozen in time. I cannot lift this dark veil around me.

I am simply appealing to you for compassion, prayer, and healing powers, whatever you can do or say to help me fight this and lift this ugly blanket of sadness.

Thank you again,Lynn (aka PatientSpirit)

[Guest guest]

Lynn

You do have my prayers, and I've been where you are, not wanting to leave the house and such. I've talked about it before on this forum and others. You need proper treatment, physically. The reason I mentioned my inability to leave the house (while my mind was planning to go here and there, but I just couldn't. I barely dragged myself to work), was because we were discussing adrenal issues also. I believe that exhausted adrenals, along with the undertreated thyroid, is the main cause. You must get tested for this one also. My opinion is that I feel that it is more of an adrenal issue, leading the way for the other stuff, like extreme depression. I've not had mine tested yet either because of money and no insurance. Are you able to do this financially, or is it just getting up and doing it? There is a scripture that says "The violent take it by force".

Re: need insight - asking 4 help

Many of you have been very kind to me. I appreciate your caring comments and suggestions. Thank you for your thoughtful feedback.

This post-illness depression is overwhelming to me. I read your comments and suggestions, but feel powerless to act. The books – well, I used to be an avid reader. The library is across the street. I no longer read. The support groups – well, other than online groups, I am not a joiner type.

Lately I am more and more reluctant to leave the house. I feel safe here. I never used to be like that. I am a prisoner in my own mind. I feel like I am in a deep, dark hole. I can look up and see light. I can see life going on above me. I can remember living and laughing and loving. I used to be a very upbeat, productive, helpful, nurturing and loving person. I used to embrace life!

I want it back. I want Lynn back. But, right now I feel totally emotionally crippled by the untoward health events of the last three years. I am frozen in time. I cannot lift this dark veil around me.

I am simply appealing to you for compassion, prayer, and healing powers, whatever you can do or say to help me fight this and lift this ugly blanket of sadness.

Thank you again,Lynn (aka PatientSpirit)