PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!!

[Guest guest]

Hi. I am suffering so bad, I can't take it. I think I am toxic to

the valium at 11mg and just want off this poison fast. I know that

it is making me sick. I am feeling terrible and the valium when I

take it just makes me sicker.

I am suffering so bad, I just have to get off this crap or I will

kill myself.

I have such head pressure, high anxiety, shaking, jitters, frontal

forehead pressure, so many palpitations that I feel my heart is

going to come out of my chest, eye swellings, agitation,

restlessness, severe muscle aches and neck pain and so many others.

I want to cut again but like you all know I have NEVER stabilized

and never know when to cut and by how much.

I am taking the liquid valium and no matter what I do, go slower,

stay at a dose for 3 weeks, the symptoms are the same and they are

getting worse.

I know my dad has a gun but can't find it and right now all I want

is to find it and use it to rid myself of this albatrose.

I am so scared, I really am begging for some help here.

The shrink down here in Florida where I am now staying with my

parents only wants to put me on a SSRI to get me off the valium and

I walked out of his office.

My parents don't understand at all and I have nobody who can help me.

I am full of anxiety since I can't stand this anymore.

What dose can I cut to make a safe cut without experiencing seizures?

I was planning on cutting to 10mg tomorrow but am so terrified and I

don't know if I will feel better, ever feel better.

I don't know if this is a toxicity to valium or a paradoxical

reaction.

I can't function and staying with my parents who I thought would

help me more and who are also having their own health problems are

making my situation more stressful since their lives are being

disrupted by me and right now I can't even sleep due to muscle pain

and tightness and just laying down or standing up makes me so dizzy.

I am dizzy all the time.

You should see my eyes in the morning, and most of the day, they are

swollen top and bottom and the pressure in my head and forehead are

unrelentless and so terrible.

If I lose one more pound I know people will think I am anorexic.

Already lost over 45 pounds and down to a size 3 in juniors and I am

a 50 year old woman.

I am also going through my changes but don't know if its the valium

doing it, the lose of body fat or the real start of menopause. It's

been almost 2 months since my last period.

What should I do? I am just like Christi, toxic to benzos, I am

assuming. Why else would I feel so terrible and never have gotten

stable.

Taking it makes me feel worse, and not taking it I feel bad too, I

mean interdose or tolerance inbetween doses. They are NOT covering

the symptoms at all.

PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!!

I think the benzos are going to win this battle.

I just want to die.

Sorry for being so down but I have no prospects of getting better.

To everyone be well,

Thanks for listening again.

Nanci