Re: Help! Emergency

[Guest guest]

You said it girl! I've been through these desperate attempts myself. Just

ignore them. You'll get better at it the more you do it.

Help! Emergency

>

> Hi Gang,

> I really don't want to go back into the dark whilpool of self-loathing

> right

> now, but my psycho family is really acting out. I was NC with my mom for 5

> years, but I would give in to my dad's demands that I see her once a year

> or

> so - but I still considered that to be NC because I did not look at her or

> speak to her.

>

> At Christmas this year, I had a confrontation with my dad because I told

> him

> that I had decided not to see the BPD mom (his wife) but I would be glad

> to

> see him. He told me that I had to see her, and so I have gone NC with him.

> I

> am also NC with my brother and have been for 5 years. I have no interest

> in

> my brother at all he was a di#k to me my whole childhood. I don't have a

> single happy memory of my mom - not a one - and not any of my brother

> either.

>

> About 10 days ago I bought a book about BPD on a whim and I felt Like I

> had

> found Jesus. Now I know what the problem was and that I wasn't the one

> that

> is crazy. I don't know how my family knows that I did this. Anyway, I just

> got this e-mail from my boyfriend who I live with. Help! This is really

> scaring me and tripping all of my guilt and self-loathing.

>

> Baby, this will probably trip you out considering the timing and what

> you're

> going through but..

>

> Your brother just came by the house and dropped off some things (box of

> christmas stuff and yarn, with just a quick glance.. probably other crap

> though). He was only here for a second and he handed me the stuff and was

> off down the road. He did give me a card and asked me to have you call him

> for coffee

>

> If you dont want to deal with the things he dropped off, I can just throw

> them out and we dont even have to look through them. I thought I'd leave

> the

> choice to you though. My tendency was to throw them out, but then it

> seemed

> wrong for me to make that choice for you...

>

> Love you baby

>

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