Guest guest Posted December 25, 2004 Report Share Posted December 25, 2004 My history is about the same as 's, Debi's and so on... Extremely abusive childhood (verbal, physical and emotional) from my mother. I was terrified of my mother by the time I was 3y/o. Flinching at her touch by the time I was 8. Sexual molestations by 2 uncles and a neighbor, ending in a "date" rape as a teen. (my virginity) After the rape all the suppressed molestations came back in the form of flashbacks and nightmares. I quit school and moved out on my own at the age of 15. My mother had tried to kill me 3 times by then. Oven exploded in my face at 8 y/o. I started smoking and stealing at the age of 9. I started self mutilating by burning myself as a teen and then progressed to a cutter. Haven't cut in about 2 years. A couple real suicide attempts and a couple "attention" 'suicide attempts'. I was involved with my first husband at 16 and married to him by 18. 10 years and 2 children later, I had grown up, become independent which the X didn't like. He preferred the 16 year old that did anything he said. He was very controlling. Car accident, several back injuries from 1988 to 1996. Minor FMS symptoms. (IBS, Back Pain, and Insomnia) Divorce and 2 year custody battle that I lost in 2000. 11 months of absolutely NO contact with my own children in 2002. Gallbladder removed in 1999. Hip arthritis diagnosed in 2000. Remarried in 2001. FMS diagnosed in 2001 but symptoms had started full force in 1999. Visitation back through another court hearing in Dec. 2002 Hysterectomy in 2003. FMS worsened over the past 5 years. I have always struggled with depression but since my mother has been a psych patient since I was about 6 y/o, I would never go to a psych for dx. She is bipolar and I fear I probably am too. Thinking of asking my PC to run a blood test now, because it could help my SSDI case. Low self esteem, can't take a compliment, find it very difficult to verbally express myself (although I can write my feelings very well.) I have an old highschool sweetheart that has been following me and my life for years now. About every 5 years he contacts me. Kind of scary, he can tell me everywhere I've lived and so on.... Stalker type scary. That's my life in a nutshell.... Alenna----------------------Site Mod alenna@... "There is only one way to happiness and that is to cease worrying about things which are beyond the power of our will." Quote By: Epictetus Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 25, 2004 Report Share Posted December 25, 2004 Alenna: Thanks for the answer's.. I have been reading everyone's answer's and it has really surprised me as how close they all seem to be.. you and I really seem to have a lot of the same.. the only diffrence I have found is I never cut, I always bit my fingers and hand's. Yes I ate my own finger's.. even being on medication's.. that was supposed to help me stop biting myself..so I guess that is sort of a self mutilation.. WOW.. that would really freak me out. to have an old flame keep track of my every move and contact me every five year's.. My 2nd x. stalked me for almost two year's. even after Jake and I got married..But that was thanks to my wonderful sister.. LONG story.. any ways thanks.. Gentle Caring Hug's Marie Marie A. Roomsburg P.O. Box 346 Ava, IL. 62907 E-mail marieava@... or marieava62907@... Messanger. aol. marieava. yahoo. marieava62907 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 26, 2004 Report Share Posted December 26, 2004 I have been reading these letters about sexual molestation and thinking that it didn't apply to me. Reading the letter below made me realise that sexual molestation doesn't have to be all out rape and that I do 'qualify'. A family friend continuously molested me from a very early age, then a teacher. I have cut myself on an irregular basis, once very seriously and have 3 very large scars all acquired at the same time. I don't do this any more at all. Penny UK On 26/12/2004 04:32:08, fibromyalgia_support_group wrote:> My history is about the same as 's, Debi's and so on...> > Extremely abusive childhood (verbal, physical and emotional) from my> mother. I was terrified of my mother by the time I was 3y/o. Flinching at> her touch by the time I was 8. Sexual molestations by 2 uncles and a> neighbor, ending in a "date" rape as a teen. (my virginity) After the rape> all the suppressed molestations came back in the form of flashbacks and> nightmares. I quit school and moved out on my own at the age of 15. My> mother had tried to kill me 3 times by then.> > Oven exploded in my face at 8 y/o. I started smoking and stealing at the> age of 9.> > I started self mutilating by burning myself as a teen and then progressed> to a cutter.> Haven't cut in about 2 years.> > A couple real suicide attempts and a couple "attention" 'suicide> attempts'.> > I was involved with my first husband at 16 and married to him by 18. 10 years and 2 children later, I had grown up, become independent which the X didn't> like. He preferred the 16 year old that did anything he said. He was very> controlling.> > Car accident, several back injuries from 1988 to 1996. Minor FMS symptoms.> (I Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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