- Re: Me again.

[Guest guest]

Oh , I just read your post, and don't want you to have to wade

through another 250 posts to get my answer. I'm sending this to

your e-mail and posting it here.

I'm so terribly sorry your mom and dad are failing so much at the

same time. It's a double wound, a double loss, and you're already

grieving.

You are not to be brave one second longer. Let it all out - scream,

cry, pound your fists. It's not fair, it's not fair, it's not

fair!!! Weep until you collapse if that's what it will take to let

that pain out. And then rest your weary heart in the Lord's hands.

I can't imagine the pain and sorrow you feel, for yourself, for your

parents. But I know that God goes with you down this awful road.

And if you will let him, he will carry you safely in his arms.

With much love and faith,

> I'm still 250 posts behind. Just got to the one I sent on Sunday.

(Hello

> Josie, hello Jan. I'm sorry I didn't reply to you earlier.)

>

> Back with mum again (with MS). I've never seen her like this. She

has always

> recognised me and been pleased to see me but this time there was

nothing. I

> don't think she knows who dad is either. I just got this feeling

that mum is

> gone and all that's left is a body waiting to slip away. I've got

that

> terrifying feeling that this could easily be the last time I say

goodbye to

> her.

> My sister is getting married in 3 weeks. What a wedding present

that would

> be.

> Really want to cry now. Need to hold on another few hours though.

Off to

> take dad to see his brother soon. Then I'm off down south again.

Back to my

> own life.

>

> I hate this. Watching mum screwed up in bed, waiting to die. And

dad by her

> side, not that long for this world either. Dribbling down his

jumper, the

> torture of dementia awaiting him at the next turn. What sort of a

way is

> this to end your lives.

>

> This is too much suffering for me to watch.

>

>