posting about regain...

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I am trying to post. The new format returns them all. So now I am

trying again from the website. Here it goes AGAIN:

Hello there.

I was 295 at the day of surgery. (13 August 2002)

I was 132 at my lowest weight. (approx 18mths later)

I can honestly say that at 132 I was not healthy. I was kind

of 'anorexic' looking. My bones stuck out, my skin sagged, My cheeks

were kind of sunken in a bit, I just didnt look good.

Yes...I was SKINNY, but not HEALTHY looking.

I regained to about 150. I stayed there for a long time. Bouncing

around from 142 to 152. I looked good, fit in skinny, junior size

clothes, and felt good.

I had a brush with death due to my own stupidity. I got so severely

anemic that I almost died. That was simply due to not taking my

iron. How stupid is that?

Now I am pretty darn healthy. I take all my supplements. I eat

everything in sight...good for me or not. I try not to eat the

sugars too much...but I dont make myself feel deprived either. I

dont drink carbonated stuff, mostly cuz it gives me painful gas,

except for the Guiness (beer) on occasions. I stay away from pastas

and most breads (again, mostly cuz it gives me the gas and

bloating). As a general rule of thumb, I eat my protein first and

then splurge on all the other stuff. I try not to 'stuff'

myself...but find myself in pain now and then, from the shear joy of

tasting food and wanting more and more, for the taste rather than the

hunger. I still eat for emotional reasons too. Habits dont disapear

just because I had the surgery.

I enjoy myself to the fullest, because every day I am on this earth

is a gift. I try to explore new foods, new adventures, new people.

Life is an adventure...LIVE it.

I dont know how much I weigh right now since I have not been

officially weighed in about a year. I do know that I have gained

again. I know this because my clothes are all tight and I can see it

in my body. I am kinda 'puffy' and bloated looking. My muscle tone

sucks. This change is due to my lack of excersize. I KNOW it is my

need to be active that makes me this way.

When my knee injury is resolved (been on no duty and light duty since

february due to a work related njury) and my lower back will allow me

to (history of horrible back pain that keeps coming back)......I will

start to excersize once again. The weight will go back down.

Guaranteed. I know it. Simply physics.

I know that I will NEVER be morbidly obese again. I know that I am

NOT and NEVER will be 'FAT' again.

(feeling fat and being fat are totally different issues. I always

FEEL fat).

Weight regain is just a part of your body adjusting and your

excersize level as compared to your food intake.

The adjusting part is something you have absolutely NO control over.

It is normal, natural, and perfectly OK! (just need to accept it and

move on with life)

The excersize level and food intake is up to you. You can alter that

and work around your physical restrictions, until you come up with

something you can accept. (or at least live with)

The most important thing: Enjoy your life! That is why you had this

surgery. To SAVE yourself and EXTEND your life, so you could ENJOY

your life and the people you love. (isnt it?)

just my 2 cents.

Anne

in Santee