Hi ya'll......

[Guest guest]

Just so ya know I am alive and well, sort of! September 1st you all know I

spent a week in the hospital getting topped off with everything they could

shove in, including a barium enema, real thrill there!!

After I got out, I went to my primary doc for a follow up,. got a diagnosis

of COPD and Emphysema. then the shit hit the fan. My mom went in for an

overnight procedure on Sept 15th, ended up on life support for 2 months and we

pulled the plug and let her go Saturday. That was the hardest thing to ever had

to do.....knowing that at 12:30 the machines go off and we are on a death

watch....it sucked and it still sucks, it has been only 3 days and I wonder if

the pain will ever go away.....................

My youngest,. ,, is having migraines that cause his face and arms to

go numb and Saturday night he passed out face first. Bubba was diagnosed with

Spastic colon and Barretts esophagus, and the damn Depo shot made me BLEED

for 3 solid months instead of stopping it!

Life has been the roller coaster ride from hell this ;last 3 months and I am

done and wanna get off. I have lost 14 pounds in the last few weeks just

because I am too upset to eat, but I did my labs like a good girl even though I

had been on a 2 week fast, I am sure the doc will understand the

circumstances. Eating just hasn't been at the top of my list lately BUT I have

TRIED and

I have remembered to take ALL my supplements, even when I can't eat! I have

to fight the dog over the CitraCal lemon chews - he LOVES them!

I am alive, not completely well.......my bones ache so damn bad I wonder if

the pain and fatigue will EVER go away! But my heart aches even worse.....

Just checking in, will check in again after my follow up with the Doc the

28th, hopefully there is some improvement in my labs, even if my life is total

chaos.......

Willl let you all know

Cindee