I'm sorry everyone

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Hey Everyone!

I'm sorry that I've kinda been keeping pretty much to myself lately.

There are an extreme amount of things that are going on. My

depression is in the worst stages as it's ever been. They are on the

verge of putting me in a program. As for the DS, I want to do it

really bad. I really do. I wish I'd NEVER have done RNY at all, and

now they want to do a revision??? I don't think. I need to do this

bad. I feel like I'm losing life. Going back to being fat (Not to be

offensive to anyone, I love you all here)it's killing me, both

mentally and physically. I would love to do the DS as my revision,

but I don't think that I'll be able to afford it. Plus there would

be no one at all to help me after wards. No matter how much I

exercise or anything I'm not losing anymore weight. I've gained

almost all the way back up to my Pre-RNY. I'm at almost 125 pounds

the last time I weighed and I start at 243 Pre-op. I've been

extremely depressed and cry almost daily because of it. It all

happened and it wasn't even my fault. I had to start eating the

special diet for my Chronic Bladder Disease and it was completely

the opposite of my GB diet. I would love to do the DS but I'm afraid

that I'm not gonna be able to afford it. I have no friends anymore

(for the most part outside of myspace and you guys). I have no

clothes anymore because of my weight. I also found out the other day

when I went back to Sansum that I have a severe Gastric Ulcer and

moderate Hemmroids.I need this surgery and I just don't know. I'm

sorry that I was bitching guys, that wasn't my intention I just am

hoping that maybe someone can help me or give me some guidance. I'm

sorry if I've ever offended any of you here. I consider you my good

friends and not only that but all that I have. If you can find any

answer to all of this, please contact me. If you'd just like to

talk, feel free to contact me anytime. I've also got Yahoo Messenger

if you'd like to reach me there Rdhdblueydcwgl02@...

appreciate you taking the time to read and hopefully you can lead me

in the right direction. Also, do any of you know how to get a

medical card and stuff for Tulare County? If you know something, get

back to me and you can talk to me in more detail.

Thank you all very much,

Dani