- not giving up

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Hi : I loved what you wrote! You are very inspirational!

Thank you! I am going to save your post for those days when I just

want to give up! Thanks again!

Barb

you said: I somehow managed to come out of my depression enough to

keep taking my antidepressant medication and keep going to

counseling. I have kept taking two steps forward and one step back,

sometimes a hundred steps forward, then two hundred back. I am not

going to give up, maybe I am deluding myself, maybe I am just setting

myself up to crash down even harder, or maybe I am going to shake off

all of the dysfunction and become a happy, responsible adult and

finally feel like a whole person. I feel like God (or

whoever/whatever someone

> might believe in wanted me to get the very most out

> of life that I can and to become the best person I can, if for no

> other reason than to prove to myself that I wasn't a mistake or a

> waste of oxygen. Don't give up on having a good life and someday

> being all there, whole and free from them. I think in the 12 step

> programs they always say the first step is " admitting you have a

> problem. " Well, everyone here has done that already by realizing

> that because of the mental illness of a parent/s.o./family

> memeber/friend/whatever, that we were affected by IT. I think that

> means basically that each of us that continue to read and post

here,

> wants to be happier and have a better life. So even though I might

> have donated all of my 'self-help' books to charity or even though

I

> don't go outside and look for rainbows and bunnies or join a stamp

> collecting club, that doesn't mean that I am not doing something to

> change. I am, you are too, just by reading here and posting here.

I

> think I have finally convinced myself that it's OK to have a bump

in

> the road and a temporary set-back, that doesn't mean that it's

> hopeless. I am a whole lot closer to OK than I ever thought I

would

> be. >