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Hi :

I read your post -- I could " handle " the pain of it, because I knew

you needed support!

I know you are in tremendous pain over all this -- so am I.

I want to do the same thing -- I even want to put people who KNOW

about abuse and don't report it in JAIL.

I think certain states have actually started doing that. If a parent

KNOWS the other parent is abusive, and doesn't report it and make the

parent get professional help, etc. they put them in JAIL! They

should do that with relatives too! And neighbors! I've had it too!

It makes me soooo angry I could personally beat the cra & out of them!

I'm concerned about your crying though.

Have you considered asking your internist for a prescription -- an

antidepressant? I have heard great things about many of them:

Paxil, Wellbutrin to name a few.

Maybe the antidepressent could help you to keep from feeling worse,

and worse and worse! That's what they do. They allow you to sort

of " stay in one place " with your pain and not decline into despair.

Are you taking any meds now? If so, maybe you should switch to a

different antidepressant.

Please write soon.

Barb

> OK, here is my disclosure: I have had Nada contact today, I have

> been tainted. I feel like I dangled my toes into some really yucky

> sludge. I don't want to spread it around. So much yucky stuff

going

> through my head. So, just so I don't feel guilty, I know that you

> will stop reading if you have had your fill of nasty feelings

today.

> There now I don't feel bad about pouring all of this out here.

>

>

>

> We literally have had people, aunts and uncles mostly, look at us

> straight in the face and say " well we/I didn't want to make your

> mother mad at us/me...She is scary. " Oh, oh ok then, that's ok

we'll

> just go on back HOME WITH HER!! Thanks for the support uncle

> spineless and aunt cry-baby. I think I just realized this

recently,

> well I started to realize it when my sister had her first baby. I

> felt like I had an obligation, really privledge, to be close to her

> and love her. More recently though, there have been so many cases

of

> horrendous child abuse in the local news. (I live in FL) And every

> time they would interview a neighbor or a " family friend " or

> relative, they would all say the same thing: " we knew he/she was

> being beaten/abused/neglected etc., but it is still a surprise to

> hear that he/she got hurt THAT bad. " I spent at least two weeks

just

> wanting to strangle those people and grieving over those kids. How

> can people turn thier backs on innocent children? I can't stand to

> see a bug suffer, but everyday all the time people stand by and

watch

> kids being mistreated.

> If I think about it too much, I just feel so...utterly depressed

and

> like I want to do something. Like I want to tell everyone shame on

> them if they ever have turned thier back on child abuse. I know

> people don't want to make trouble, be nosey or wrongly accuse and

all

> of that, but how, how do those feelings override what I think

should

> be an instict. ugh.. my stomach hurts and my eyes are so puffy

from

> crying all day. I am afraid I will have permanent damage to my

tear

> ducts if I don't figure out what to do to feel at least a little

> better about it.