Guest guest Posted February 12, 2003 Report Share Posted February 12, 2003 In a message dated 2/12/2003 10:58:45 AM Pacific Standard Time, Zimmermankaren@... writes: > My mother was finally diagnosed with LBD , I'm sorry to say this will be a ride you will never forget. The " monster " (LBD) has all the cards and knows all the tricks of the trade. Most of us are holding on the best we can. Is your Dad still with her? If so is he still able to handle the daily finances? You may eventually have to take this on yourself. Keep reading the messages -- it's amazing how much you can learn. And, don't worry, there are a lot of folks who will read your message and reply with very " sage " advise. By the way -- being " more observant " probably wouldn't have helped you a whole lot. Most of us thought the odd behavior was the result of just getting a little older. No one EVER spots the beast before some 4-8 years have already passed. Do not blame yourself for not seeing a problem. Not your fault. Take care -- you're no longer alone in this fight -- we're all right there with you. Be well and stay strong. Joni Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 12, 2003 Report Share Posted February 12, 2003 Welcome to the LBD Caregivers Group. I wish I had some type of definate path your mom will follow but as you will see in the posts, this disease fluctuates and changes so often it is tough to pinpoint. I have learned that Alzheimers affects a certain area of the brain, Parkinson's affects another area of the brain...LBD affects the whole brain. So, some of what you may expect is symptoms of both AD and PD. Along with those symptoms, other struggles can be agitation, depression, hallucinations, stooped forward posture, drooling, mood swings...the lists are almost endless. Some even experience tremors, my dad did not. Keep in mind the LBD patient is most likely sensitive to neuroleptics meds...mainly anti-psychotics. Also know that giving meds. for a PD symptom can throw the AD side off and reverse. So, a grim picture but not a run ride of a disease. Please ask specific questions, maybe we can help. Post when you need to and also keep us informed. You are added to my prayer list! Sandie Des Moines, IA Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 26, 2003 Report Share Posted April 26, 2003 Debbie, What part of California do you live in. I live in ez. (Bay Area). Shirley > Hi! > After a year of testing, my 51-year-old husband has been diagnosed with > LBD. I'm glad there's a group out there to help me when questions arise. I > know there will be a lot. > Debi > California > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 26, 2003 Report Share Posted April 26, 2003 Debi I am not sure if I welcomed you to the group. So, please excuse me if I have, and if not...I am now officially welcoming you. There is so much hands on experience and support that you should never feel totally alone. Please keep us posted. Also, you are welcome to stay with this group yet there is another group that may be more suitable to your needs as a spouse. If you click onto http://www.lewybodydisease.org an area to the left will come up saying something like 'email groups' or 'LBD email groups' - click on that and it will take you to the 2 types of email groups. This one - LBD caregivers and Caringspouses group. Best of luck. Sandie Des Moines, IA Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 27, 2003 Report Share Posted April 27, 2003 hello Debbi, your husband is very young to have this illness, you will find this group very helpful, even comforting when things are bad, I am new here too, but I bid you welcome. Gudrun in Georgia Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 27, 2003 Report Share Posted April 27, 2003 > Hi! > After a year of testing, my 51-year-old husband has been diagnosed with > LBD. I'm glad there's a group out there to help me when questions arise. I > know there will be a lot. > Debi > California > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 28, 2003 Report Share Posted April 28, 2003 Hi! I'm in Ventura County, northwest of LA. Debi Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 29, 2003 Report Share Posted April 29, 2003 --- Debi - I am so sorry to hear about your husband. He is very young, my father was also recently diagnosed, he is 69. Can you tell me a bit about your husbands symptoms? I just feel like I need to know more myself. Thank you, In LBDcaregivers , ryono4@a... wrote: > Hi! > After a year of testing, my 51-year-old husband has been diagnosed with > LBD. I'm glad there's a group out there to help me when questions arise. I > know there will be a lot. > Debi > California > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 29, 2003 Report Share Posted April 29, 2003 I was asked about my husband's symptoms. He's 51 and has been having problems for several years. I first thought he was getting withdrawn and a little dense with " old age, " but a year ago it became evident there was something wrong. He fell several times and " forgot " how to get up. He would forget how to put gas in the car or suddenly ask where we were. He had trouble following TV shows and couldn't remember how to perform simple computer functions. Most of the time, though, he was fine. He had a spinal tap in early January to check for NPH, and within 48 hours was in the hospital with an abscess on his spinal cord. He was hospitalized for nine weeks, and during that time the hallucinations set in. He was living half in a fantasy world and half in the real world. The doctors started him on Risperdal (I saw another e-mail on that) and the hallucinations stopped within two weeks. He hasn't had any since starting the Risperdal. He now also takes Aricept. In the hospital, I was told he would need 24-hour care the rest of his life, but thanks to the drugs, he can be home by himself while I'm at work. God has blessed us. Debi Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 29, 2003 Report Share Posted April 29, 2003 In (?) Welcome to the group. You said your dad is 69 and recently diagnosed with Lewy Body Disease. Are you his primary caregiver? Also, may I ask if you are in the U.S. and if so, what state? Does your dad have a neurologist he is seeing? I truly believe it makes a difference to have a neurologist involved in the care of a loved one with LBD, and preferably one that is educated and knowledgeable with LBD. I will add you to my prayers. Please post anytime, about anything or even just to babble. You are not alone in this journey. Hugs of strength! Sandie Des Moines, IA Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 30, 2003 Report Share Posted April 30, 2003 Welcome , Thank you so much for sharing your story with us. It was definately NOT a rambling diatribe. Your mother is blessed to have such a devoted son. You mentioned that your Mother's symptoms had become more pronounced after a trip. Any time we take our LOs (loved ones) out of their surroundings they do tend to do worse. Some bounce back, some don't, so we tend to limit their travels and time away from their home. My father (84, lives with us) had all the symptoms you described and most all have been eliminated with the medication Exelon. I have limited experience with meds so will leave it up to other members of this group to give you their opinions and suggestions on that. Every LBD patient is different as you can see by all the posts. You can use the Search feature to find what kind of experiences others have had with the medications you mentioned. You wrote you have concerns about the future. Is it possible for your mother to live in assisted living (AL) as an alternative to a nursing home (NH)? Please keep us posted and feel free to ask questions or vent. Hugs across the pond. Jan Sacramento CA Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 30, 2003 Report Share Posted April 30, 2003 , Welcome to the group. Your mom is lucky to have such a devoted son. I am glad you found this group. You will find a lot of support here. Just being able to talk to people who actually understand what your going through will be a great help. Take care, Shirley (mom has LBD will be 76 in June.)-- - In LBDcaregivers , " Pearce " <ahuone@i...> wrote: > Hi, my mother, Jo, was diagnosed with LBD mid to late last year as a > result of concerns as to her behaviour and other symptoms. She has > recently turned 74 years of age. > > A bit of background concerning Mum: My father, who had diabetes for > forty years died November 2001. Mum and Dad had been married for 45 > years and, through his diabetes and while he was a farmer, Mum's full > time focus was to look after him and the four children. Shortly > before Dad died, Mum and Dad bought a house in Wanganui, NZ, the > first time they had not lived on a farm for their entire married life. > > In April 2001, Dad fell and broke his hip. He was in hospital for 6 > weeks as a result. During that time Mum stayed 20 min out of > Wanganui with my brother. He reported various conserns regarding > Mum, including bouts of forgetfulness and her not taking her > prescriptions at the right time. The rest of the family did not take > much notice, as we had not seen any evidence of these symptoms. One > morning my brother couldn't raise Mum so he called an ambulance and > she ended up in the same ward as my father. Dad spent a lot of time > at her bedside. I remember one time late in the evening just as we > were about to leave asking Mum how hse was. She asked how Dad was, > and when we told her that he was good, she said, " Well, if he is ok > then so am I " . This comment typifies her dedication to Dad. > > Following Dad's release from hospital they bought the said house, > then went to Auckland seeking alternative treatment for Dad, who was > not feeling at all well. Following their time in Auckland, they > spent some time at our holiday bach in Taupo because Dad did not > think Mum could look after the bigger house in Taupo. We dismissed > Dad's opinion as he had always been disapointed with Mum's ability. > > They eventually shifted to the new house six weeks before Dad died. > After he died, Mum was consumed with grief. We stayed with her as > long as we could but had to return to our lives in various parts of > the country. Mum was therefore left alone in her new house, with > various members of the family visiting most weekends. This was for > the better part of a year. > > Durinng that year there were indications she wasn't coping, including > cooking for lots of people even though she was living on her own, and > saying she kept seeing Dad and other people here. She had also been > cooking pots dry. We initially put these problems down to grief. > > The family was getting more and more concerned for her so I decided > to take three months leave from my job and live with her for a > while. This would allow me to sort out some support locally. This > started at the beginning of this year. I am still here, having > resigned my job. Haven't felt I could leave her. > > I took Mum to Auckland for Easter and, on returning noticed her > symptoms had become markedly more pronounced, especially her > hallucinations and her inability to complete sentences as a result of > forgetting words. She has also latterly complained of having a sore > knee and back. She also doesn't understand various simple concepts > that she has had no problem with in the past. > > Mum is now at the stage where she is unable to cook, gets > disorientated easily, has visions of people being here, sees specks > in the carpet as live insects, is argumentative, changes her clothes > regularly, gets up and dressed in the middle of the night, and seems > to be tired and dozes for large periods during the day. Her > Parkinson's symptoms don't seem to be as pronounced as they were. > > Mum takes 50mg of Quetiapine twice daily. This apparently is an anti- > psychotic. She also takes various other drugs, including > Spironolactone, Doxepin, Isosorbate Mononitrate, Atenolol, Somac, > Diltiazem and Cartia. > > I have been looking at various websites and the only care advice I > could find was: > 1/ Modify the environment by reducing clutter and increasing > illumination, > 2/ Validate Mum's concerns then using redirection techniques, > 3/ Get Mum to adult day programmes. > > I have done 1 and 3 but am not sure how to use redirection > techniques. I am also concerned as to what the future holds. At > some stage i will have to return to Wellington and it seems the > optins for Mum are limited, bar putting her into a rest home. > > Sorry if this is a rambling diatribe but I have noticed the care and > support members of this group give each other and the request to hear > about new member's situations. > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 30, 2003 Report Share Posted April 30, 2003 --- Thank you Sandie, and excuse my typo!!! My name is just I live in a suburb of Chicago, IL and my dad lives in Chicago with my mom. He has a neoro. at Loyola University, hopefully a good one??? But who knows. I am not the caregiver, but am very involved. I still do have many questions. I read many of these messages and wonder a lot. My dad has been " different " for about two years now. Nothing to major yet. However, as I stated in my first post several weeks ago, he does fall often. He complains about his legs just giving out on him and he sways back and forth unable to move forward properly. He also cannot complete much of a sentence and acts childlike. I keep waiting and wondering when the bomb will drop (so to speak) and everything will worsen, as it seems to for so many others. In LBDcaregivers , sanclown@w... wrote: > In (?) > Welcome to the group. You said your dad is 69 and recently diagnosed > with Lewy Body Disease. Are you his primary caregiver? Also, may I ask > if you are in the U.S. and if so, what state? Does your dad have a > neurologist he is seeing? I truly believe it makes a difference to have > a neurologist involved in the care of a loved one with LBD, and > preferably one that is educated and knowledgeable with LBD. > I will add you to my prayers. Please post anytime, about anything or > even just to babble. > You are not alone in this journey. > Hugs of strength! > Sandie > Des Moines, IA Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 1, 2003 Report Share Posted May 1, 2003 Debi, I, too, forget when I have welcomed a new member but you and your husband have forged a place in my heart forever. At this early stage in your joining this group, I have a special favor to ask. May I use a few quotes from your post in a letter I am composing to send out? We so often think in terms of " the elderly " when dementia's are discussed. I qualified for AARP this year but still feel such a connection at heart with my young adult sons and their extended relationships. Your situation has touched me dearly and I hope others will relate to your mid-life interruption. I do so look forward to reading your posts. Please stay in touch. Love & Prayers, Betty Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 1, 2003 Report Share Posted May 1, 2003 , As so many others have already done, I welcome you, gladly and sadly, to our group. So much of your story echoes of events with my mother last year. You have given such honor to your mum by taking time away from work. My mothers worst symptoms of permanence began around the time of my vacation to Texas to see my dad last September. Just a few weeks later, I had double foot surgery and was fortunate to be off on disability until the beginning of March when I gave up my management position to work part-time. I am now considering giving that up also. This is not a disease where you can easily plan the upcoming events of life with certainty. My mother, Marjory, lives with me and did before the onset of LBD. She is 79. I just recently joined this group in late February and already I have come to feel it is a great positive in my life. I hope it is also, for you and your mum. You among the many others will be with me today. Please stay in touch, you are important to us. Love & Prayers Betty Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 1, 2003 Report Share Posted May 1, 2003 Wow Russ, Are you keeping a running list? I'm sure Sandie and Shirley among others have a few unique ones they'd love to share with you! LOL, LOL, LOL.....:-} Betty Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 1, 2003 Report Share Posted May 1, 2003 Betty and others Thanks all of you for your welcome. I am overwhelmed by the care and love in this group. I also feel as if the problems I have with my mother are insignificant in comparison with the pain and heartache so many others are going through with their LOs. ps what does lol stand for? ---------- > From: elswittnbrg53@... > To: LBDcaregivers > Subject: Re: New Member > Date: Friday, 2 May 2003 07:16 > , As so many others have already done, I welcome you, gladly and sadly, to our group. So much of your story echoes of events with my mother last year. You have given such honor to your mum by taking time away from work. My mothers worst symptoms of permanence began around the time of my vacation to Texas to see my dad last September. Just a few weeks later, I had double foot surgery and was fortunate to be off on disability until the beginning of March when I gave up my management position to work part-time. I am now considering giving that up also. This is not a disease where you can easily plan the upcoming events of life with certainty. My mother, Marjory, lives with me and did before the onset of LBD. She is 79. I just recently joined this group in late February and already I have come to feel it is a great positive in my life. I hope it is also, for you and your mum. You among the many others will be with me today. Please stay in touch, you are important to us. Love & Prayers Betty Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 1, 2003 Report Share Posted May 1, 2003 LOL = laugh out loud LO = Loved One MIL = Mother-in-Law SIL = Sister-in-Law NH = Nursing Home AL = Assisted Living IL = Independent Living AD = Alzheimer's disease LBD = Lewy Body dementia PD = Parkinson's disease HD = Huntington's disease EPS = Extra-pyramidal signs CDR = Clinician's Dementia Rating scale MMSE = (Folstein) Mini-Mental State Exam Meds = Medications Dx = Diagnosis Hx = History .... No others come to mind at present... -Russ Re: New Member > Date: Friday, 2 May 2003 07:16 > , As so many others have already done, I welcome you, gladly and sadly, to our group. So much of your story echoes of events with my mother last year. You have given such honor to your mum by taking time away from work. My mothers worst symptoms of permanence began around the time of my vacation to Texas to see my dad last September. Just a few weeks later, I had double foot surgery and was fortunate to be off on disability until the beginning of March when I gave up my management position to work part-time. I am now considering giving that up also. This is not a disease where you can easily plan the upcoming events of life with certainty. My mother, Marjory, lives with me and did before the onset of LBD. She is 79. I just recently joined this group in late February and already I have come to feel it is a great positive in my life. I hope it is also, for you and your mum. You among the many others will be with me today. Please stay in touch, you are important to us. Love & Prayers Betty Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 1, 2003 Report Share Posted May 1, 2003 BETTY, THANKS FOR THINKING OF ME. LOL MOPF > Wow Russ, > > Are you keeping a running list? I'm sure Sandie and Shirley among others > have a few unique ones they'd love to share with you! LOL, LOL, LOL.....:-} > > Betty > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 8, 2004 Report Share Posted June 8, 2004 Welcome Di. New Member Hello all! It's great to be a part of this exciting group. I live in Irvine, CA and love to be around people who are continually looking to create more in their life and use their stress to grow. I am always looking for more support and looking to support others in living their dreams and having a fulfilling experience of life. I'm an artist and a life coach. I love what I do and am continually inspired to create more and be more of who I can be. Thank you for allowing me to be a part of this group. I look forward to getting to know you and sharing with you all. Love, Di Di Cohen *Artist & Integrative Life Coach* Support to fulfill your highest potential and Life a Life you Love! www.dicohen.com Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 4, 2004 Report Share Posted July 4, 2004 Hi , Welcome to our group of wonderful people!! The group has been kinda quiet for a few days - but there are times you can't get us to shut up...LOL My name is , I'm one of the moderators and we're so glad to have you here. There's a wealth of information in the archives so don't forget to check that out I hope you're having a great 4th! Smiles, In a message dated 7/4/04 8:23:47 AM Central Daylight Time, sues.greenbank@... writes: > Hi Everyone, > > This might be a good time for me to jump in and introduce myself as I have > just joined the group. I have only recently been introduced to the writing > of Louise L. Hay 'You can Heal Your Life' and being half way through the book > and thoroughly feeling inspired by it I thought the next step would be to try > and locate a group who was familiar with this kind of reading and who > implement the teaching into their daily lives. At this present time in my life I > think I am flatlining, I don't have a direction so to speak and this gets me > down a little as I know I want to move on but for some reason remain a little > stagnant. Anyway, I thought sharing experiences and reading other people's > experiences would serve to encourage, support and motivate me and hopefully I > can do the same for others. > > I look forward to getting to know everyone :-) > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 4, 2004 Report Share Posted July 4, 2004 Hi , Thank you for the warm welcome, I look foward to participating in the group. I'm actually from Scotland so 4th July is just another day here lol, however I shall celebrate anyway, and happy 4th July to yourself and the other members. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 18, 2004 Report Share Posted August 18, 2004 Hi Blue...A big welcome to the group. You know as I was reading your introduction I felt as though you were writing about me in many parts. I am divorced from a 9 yr old after 18 yrs. I will be 46 in Oct, I have clinical depression and anxiety. I have a dysfuctional family with whom I have broken off contact (best move I ever made). I live in Canada, east Coast. Where are you if I may ask. " Situational depression though, as opposed to clinical depression, can be addressed and improved. You can DO things -- both mental and physical -- that can lift you up. " I tend to vary my opinion of this statement you have made. I believe you can change your beliefs, and choices to help improve your feelings. May I also ask if you are on medication? I hope you enjoy being here as much as I have been, and that you find some answers to what you seek. Caring hugs Live Long....Laugh Hard....Email Often I'm thankful to have found this group and am hoping that I'll be able to both give & receive help when needed. It's a bit long, but I think the best, most complete introduction I can give to you is in the answers I gave to our moderators' questions yesterday... Q -Tell us why positive thinking is important to you? A - Well, the short answer is because I've been to the " other side. " I have suffered from episodes of depression & anxiety since the tender age of seven. (I'll be 46 next week.) However, I don't particularly like the term " positive thinking " because it sounds unnatural. Either you are content with your life or you're not. You can't control your feelings. You can't " think " your way out of depression. Situational depression though, as opposed to clinical depression, can be addressed and improved. You can DO things -- both mental and physical -- that can lift you up. Please answer the following: Q - Are you currently under stress & needing tools for handling the stress better? A - Been married for 22 years. Past 10-12 have been more like brother & sister, but I stayed with him until our son graduated from HS (in 2002) so he would have what I didn't have: a mom and dad at home. I have no regrets about this. My h started suffering from migraines about 10-12 yrs ago. Don't know if you're familiar with " rebound pain. " Pain med works for a short time (gets rid of the pain) then turns around and starts CAUSING the pain. Only a good doctor will see this and address it with strictness & compassion. No such luck in our situation. H has gone up the pain med ladder to the point where he is now addicted to Methadone (synthetic Heroin). In addition we own a failing business (which he refuses to sell) so money is never predictable (a big personal issue with me) AND he is an only child in a co-dependent relationship with mom & dad. They have never let him fail and learn from his mistakes. They ALWAYS bail him out, even tho I've begged them not to. Basically, I'm married to a 9 year-old. One and a half years ago, we separated - my request. I have Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. Have had both for about 10 years. Obviously stress has played a part. I'm divorcing him and going back to college, as much as my health will allow. I wanted work on finishing my BA after our son started first grade, but h wouldn't hear of it. The home we (now our son & I) live in belongs to h's parents. They always told my h it was his, but recently finished their sentence: It IS his... after they're dead. This will greatly impact our settlement. Currently doing the divorce papers by myself (a nine y/o can't handle something like that) and this is my greatest source of stress. Q - What type of group are you looking for, & what do you expect to get out of this group? A - Don't know! Hoping to make some friends and we can share our probs and support each other. Q - What resources, knowledge, or experience do you feel that you can contribute back to this group? A - I have a lifetime of experience in dealing with mentally ill people (members of my family), my own depression and anxiety disorders, divorce, victim of verbal and emotional abuse, my best friend was killed in a car accident at the age of 20, dysfunctional husband and in-laws, step-families (both my parents remarried), and because my family adores my child-like h they are giving me very little support. But I'm proud to say that I raised a wonderful son basically all by myself! I'm compassionate to a fault. Will often think of others first and miss out on what others have to offer me. So that's the end of my " interview " ! :-) As a bit of a post script.... I'm intuitive, sensitive and precognitive. I want to learn more about the nexus between our mind, body, spirit, & the energy that flows between all of us and the world we live in. I lean towards Buddhism but am open to all philosophies that do no harm and have the potential to bring contentment and peace to one's life. As well as being a part of this group, I would very much welcome email friends who have experienced similar life situations. One on one friendships can be very valuable. Looking forward to meeting you & joining you in the process of eliminating negative stress from our lives..... blue Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 18, 2004 Report Share Posted August 18, 2004 Thank you Kay & for the kind welcome. :-) Yes , it does sound like we have a lot in common! How long have you been divorced? I have also broken off contact with most of my family due to their negativity and bitterness. Amazingly I've become much closer to my Dad these past few years and am very happy about that. We were estranged for a long time. I've been on Prozac for about 6 years. It has helped me tremendously. I live in California by the way. Regarding changing beliefs and choices to help one feel better -- yes I think this is true. But so hard to do! Especially when one is under the cloud of situational depression, or stressed-out. Those kinds of feelings can be immobilizing. I can tell myself I should go out for a walk in order to feel better (and know that I WILL feel better) but gathering the motivation can be so hard. Actually, my h just left so I'm feeling a bit drained and am not thinking too clearly so don't know if that made any sense! lol We were working on divorce papers. Kay, we do have a lawyer and she's wonderful. But what we're working on now is all the information she needs, i.e. income & expenses. They are a mess (esp. because of the biz) and I have to keep asking him questions to sort it all out. Will be such a relief when it is over... I keep telling myself that! blue > Hi Blue...A big welcome to the group. You know as I was > reading your introduction I felt as though you were writing > about me in many parts. I am divorced from a 9 yr old after 18 > yrs. I will be 46 in Oct, I have clinical depression and anxiety. I > have a dysfuctional family with whom I have broken off contact > (best move I ever made). I live in Canada, east Coast. > Where are you if I may ask. > > " Situational depression though, as opposed to clinical > depression, can be addressed and improved. You can DO > things -- both mental and physical -- that can lift you up. " > > I tend to vary my opinion of this statement you have made. I > believe you can change your beliefs, and choices to help > improve your feelings. May I also ask if you are on > medication? > I hope you enjoy being here as much as I have been, and that > you find some answers to what you seek. > Caring hugs > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 19, 2004 Report Share Posted August 19, 2004 Hi Blue: I have been divorced for 5 yrs and a previous 2 yr court battle with him. He had this funny notion that he wanted me to get nothing. I said I was entitled to 50% of his pension money, he said no so off to court we went. I fought only for fairness, I wanted or asked for nothing else. I found a very good lawyer who felt sorry for me and knew I didnt have any money but he believed in fairness and he hated the ex for what he was trying to get away with. Well 20 grand later, and so many lies, the judge gave me 50% plus. I was awarded a 5 yr spousal support. That now ends and I am now poor. That is now my next challange. The 20 grand was put into a lean on the house, and there are others...as at the end he went bankrupt and left me with all the bills....I said I have so many leans on the house that it actually leans more to one side..as I look at it. Ya just got to see the humour in that because what do you do when you have no money. Now the real humour to all of this is when he went bankrupt he didnt have any bills or a lawyer bill. If I had of went bankrupt I would of lost all his pension money to creditors. I couldnt touch the money but they could of taken it. NOW all that money was taken by the govt in various years to pay income tax debts. So I ended up losing it all anyway. He ruined all the children, none of then graduated. I have 3. My oldest is 21 and my twins are 18. I begged him to leave the kids alone but he used them to live with them at various times as he got money from my disability pension for having them there. At 13 and 14 they lived with him bascilly alone and brought up themselves. My oldest I had to use tough love and make her go with him at 16 as she was violent with me. The story of my children go on but its just to long. They dont speak with me. My outlaws havent spoken to me since the day their baby told them he was leaving me. I didnt think that was fair but what is. Im glad you are on meds that work for you in helping with the clinical depression. I do so understand very well what you are saying about gathering motivation when you are under the cloud of depression and stress. It does take work and persistence and then sometimes nothing works and I just dont care. But I just keep working on myself. You have had the strength to get to the point where you are now, and even though this challange will be what it is you will have the strength to get though this also. I know the relief you will feel when its all over. Please try to take care of yourself as well as you can, I didnt and it was so hard on me. You are important. Caring hugs Thank you Kay & for the kind welcome. :-) Yes , it does sound like we have a lot in common! How long have you been divorced? I have also broken off contact with most of my family due to their negativity and bitterness. Amazingly I've become much closer to my Dad these past few years and am very happy about that. We were estranged for a long time. I've been on Prozac for about 6 years. It has helped me tremendously. I live in California by the way. Regarding changing beliefs and choices to help one feel better -- yes I think this is true. But so hard to do! Especially when one is under the cloud of situational depression, or stressed-out. Those kinds of feelings can be immobilizing. I can tell myself I should go out for a walk in order to feel better (and know that I WILL feel better) but gathering the motivation can be so hard. Actually, my h just left so I'm feeling a bit drained and am not thinking too clearly so don't know if that made any sense! lol We were working on divorce papers. Kay, we do have a lawyer and she's wonderful. But what we're working on now is all the information she needs, i.e. income & expenses. They are a mess (esp. because of the biz) and I have to keep asking him questions to sort it all out. Will be such a relief when it is over... I keep telling myself that! blue > Hi Blue...A big welcome to the group. You know as I was > reading your introduction I felt as though you were writing > about me in many parts. I am divorced from a 9 yr old after 18 > yrs. I will be 46 in Oct, I have clinical depression and anxiety. I > have a dysfuctional family with whom I have broken off contact > (best move I ever made). I live in Canada, east Coast. > Where are you if I may ask. > > " Situational depression though, as opposed to clinical > depression, can be addressed and improved. You can DO > things -- both mental and physical -- that can lift you up. " > > I tend to vary my opinion of this statement you have made. I > believe you can change your beliefs, and choices to help > improve your feelings. May I also ask if you are on > medication? > I hope you enjoy being here as much as I have been, and that > you find some answers to what you seek. > Caring hugs > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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