Guest guest Posted October 25, 2004 Report Share Posted October 25, 2004 I don't seem to be myself lately and I apologize for not being here as much as I want to or should be. I seem to be in a bit of a slump the last week and it's really getting to me. I wish I knew what it was that's getting to me. I feel quite depressed. My period is late again, it's always been flaky and out of schedule. Anywhere from 26 days to 42 days, but this time it's longer... 46 days. I have stomach cramps and feel depressed and sick. I just pray that I'm not pregnant. At my age and with my history of miscarriage, I just don't want to go through this again. :-(I look around my house and it's a disaster area. Looks pretty much like a tornado came through it. Stuff everywhere, in need of vacuuming and dusting... laundry isn't finished or put away, and I have no idea what to make for dinner tonight. I personally don't feel like eating or cooking for that matter. Ugggh. My mood is pretty much down as can be without actually needing any professional help... for now. There is so much to do and I don't know where to begin anymore. These daily jaunts to the gym for my health are taking away the precious time I do have for getting this place in order. I'm behind on paper work, my desk looks like a dumpster for recycling paper. I just want to scream and cry at the same time.IBS has been a major issue that last 2 days. I'm constipated (thank you to codeine) and my tummy is sooo full and painful. I just want to go back to bed Ok I dont know who you are,, or where the camera is.... But how the heck do you know what the heck i am going through and what my house looks like Tooo weird ... wish i had the dinner yummers Huggles, Sophia Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 25, 2004 Report Share Posted October 25, 2004 Hi Everyone, I don't seem to be myself lately and I apologize for not being here as much as I want to or should be. I seem to be in a bit of a slump the last week and it's really getting to me. I wish I knew what it was that's getting to me. I feel quite depressed. My period is late again, it's always been flaky and out of schedule. Anywhere from 26 days to 42 days, but this time it's longer... 46 days. I have stomach cramps and feel depressed and sick. I just pray that I'm not pregnant. At my age and with my history of miscarriage, I just don't want to go through this again. :-( I look around my house and it's a disaster area. Looks pretty much like a tornado came through it. Stuff everywhere, in need of vacuuming and dusting... laundry isn't finished or put away, and I have no idea what to make for dinner tonight. I personally don't feel like eating or cooking for that matter. Ugggh. My mood is pretty much down as can be without actually needing any professional help... for now. There is so much to do and I don't know where to begin anymore. These daily jaunts to the gym for my health are taking away the precious time I do have for getting this place in order. I'm behind on paper work, my desk looks like a dumpster for recycling paper. I just want to scream and cry at the same time. IBS has been a major issue that last 2 days. I'm constipated (thank you to codeine) and my tummy is sooo full and painful. I just want to go back to bed and forget the world and my messy apartment exist. Uggggh... Sorry that I'm throwing this all on you. I wonder if my recent birthday (Thursday I turned 47) may have something to do with my mood. Hubby was so sweet and took me to Red Lobster for the all you can eat Shrimpfest and all I did was pick at my food and end up bringing the rest home. Saturday we drove down to a friends house in western New York for our annual " Daktoberfest " where the members of our Dodge Dakota Truck group got together for a BBQ and some off-roading antics. I was good and didn't go on the trails as my chiropractor, physiotherapist, and massage therapist didn't think it would be wise for my back. So I stayed at the home base and played with my dog. I smoked a couple of cigarettes, and I have to be honest have started smoking again today :-( Yesterday we went to my mom's for my birthday dinner and it was yummy. Tossed salad, Roast beef with roast carrots and potatoes, and mixed veggies followed with a wonderful Mocha birthday cake. I tried very hard to be pleasant and cheerful, but the pain in my legs and hip not to mention my down mood made that a very difficult job. I'm trying to find ways to pick up my mood... any suggestions? I wish I could reach out and hug everyone and cry on your shoulders. Why does life and Fibro have to bring this on so much. It's hard enough to deal with pain... depression really isn't needed when we're trying to cope with pain and make our lives more manageable. gentle loving hugs, Norah -- Norah Bleazard - Burlington, Ontario Canada www.bleazard.net ~ www.janorlites.com E-MAIL= norah.fibroyahoo@... CHAT= MSN = black_dak_98@... Yahoo = drazaelbn AIM = black98dak ICQ = 105346330 Site Moderator for: fibromyalgia_support_group Site Owner for: Fibromites_Fighting_Weight: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Fibromites_Fighting_Weight http://fibromites.ath.cx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 25, 2004 Report Share Posted October 25, 2004 Ok.. Sophia, I'm retracting my telescope from your house ... hehehehe... seriously tho, it's good (even if not for you), to know that I'm not alone in feeling like this. My house is making me ill right now, so I may just put sunglasses on and wait for the housekeeper fairy to magically fix it all for me. wearing my shades and hugs to you, Norah Norah Bleazard - Burlington, Ontario Canada www.bleazard.net ~ www.janorlites.com E-MAIL= norah.fibroyahoo@... CHAT= MSN = black_dak_98@... Yahoo = drazaelbn AIM = black98dak ICQ = 105346330 Site Moderator for: fibromyalgia_support_group Site Owner for: Fibromites_Fighting_Weight: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Fibromites_Fighting_Weight http://fibromites.ath.cx kayley555@... wrote: > >Ok I dont know who you are,, or where the camera is.... But how the heck do >you know what the heck i am going through and what my house looks like Tooo > weird ... wish i had the dinner yummers > >Huggles, Sophia > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 25, 2004 Report Share Posted October 25, 2004 Way to go Margaret... but I beg to differ... lol. I think I got the last really great man :-) He's 15 years my junior but I couldn't see life without him. This is my second marriage and the first was horrid and abusive... so I can honestly say that I've seen the worst and am now experience the absolute best. There isn't anything this man wouldn't do for me... all I'd have to do is ask. That kind've makes me nervous as he'd go bankrupt if I verbalize my wishes. He's loyal, helpful, kind, generous, considerate, loving, etc. I'm just happy that I found him before anyone else did :-) I guess it pays to rob the cradle so to speak :-) He is my soul mate and absolute very best friend. Now if everyone married their best friend... marriages would be a lot smoother. My motto... if you wouldn't pick him as a close friend... why would you marry him? This only learned from bad experiences. I adore my husband more than life itself. He is my world, my love, my everything and I'm never truly happy until he walks through our door... home safe and sound and in my arms. I wish I could clone him for everyone :-) gentle loving hugs, Norah Norah Bleazard - Burlington, Ontario Canada www.bleazard.net ~ www.janorlites.com E-MAIL= norah.fibroyahoo@... CHAT= MSN = black_dak_98@... Yahoo = drazaelbn AIM = black98dak ICQ = 105346330 Site Moderator for: fibromyalgia_support_group Site Owner for: Fibromites_Fighting_Weight: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Fibromites_Fighting_Weight http://fibromites.ath.cx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 26, 2004 Report Share Posted October 26, 2004 At my age and with my history of miscarriage, I just don't want to go through this again. :-( Hi Kay, I think that's your name. Any way this exerpt of your post reminds me of me. I was 39 years old when I went to the doctor to finally have the surgery to have my tubes tied. I had had 9 pregnancies and 2 children from those. I just couldn't go thru another miscarriage. My husband and I had tried for years to have a child together. The 2 children are by my first marriage. We tried hormones and everything short of artificial insemination. I showed up to the appointment on our way to a motorcycle rally, so you can imagine how I was dressed. Low and behold the doctor tells me I'm pregnant. I didn't know a person could experience such immense joy and fear all at the same time! The pregnancy was touch and go for a while and she had to be delivered early because of my spine but she's here! We call her our miracle baby. Also my Fibro went into remission while I was pregnant. Just a little story. I know the fear you feel tho. Blessings, Kathleen in NC Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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