CAN'T STOP CRYING

[Guest guest]

HI EVERYONE,

I AM REALLY HAVING A BAD COUPLE OF DAYS AND I

DO NOT KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON WITH ME. I AM ON

INJECTIONS OF MTX FOR MONTHS, PREDNISONE, ULTRACET,

AND NEURONTIN. FOR A WEEK NOW I FEEL SO DEPRESSED AND I

AM CRYING AND CRYING LIKE I WILL NEVER STOP. I RECENTLY

RECIEVED MY DISABILITY APPROVAL AND I DON'T KNOW IF IT IS

FINALLY HITTING ME THAT I AM NOT THE SAME PERSON ANYMORE,

I CAN DO NEXT TO NOTHING AND AM NEVER OUT OF PAIN. IS THERE

SOME KIND OF SHOCK, OR GRIEVING PROCESS THAT WE GO THRU WITH

RA AND FM ? AM I ACTING NORMAL OR NUTS ? I CAN'T GET A GRIP

ON MYSELF AT ALL. PLEASE, PLEASE ANYBODY WITH INFO HELP. I

HAVE BEEN SURFING THE NET TRYING TO FIND SOMETHING ABOUT THIS

BUT I HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO.

THANKS, CINDI HEIN

[Guest guest]

Hi Cindi,

Yes, I think you are going thru a normal " grieving " process! I don't

have RA, but do have FM and Dercum's disease. I'm surprised that

your doctor has not prescribed an antidepressant, though. I fought

that for a long time, but the small dosage of Zoloft really did help

me. I don't take it any more, but find that Sam-e does the same

trick. If they haven't suggested something for you, you might ask.

If they have, then by all means, try it.

As far as " being the same person " --no, maybe physically, you're not.

But you can come to terms with that, and just do things in a

different way. Find out what you can do, and how you do things now.

I've had to deal with that recently too--thinking that only a year

ago I could work in the garden all day long and merely be tired. Now

I'm totally exhausted after a couple of hours. Well, that's the way

it is now, so I have to do things the way my body demands them now.

As a lady at church told me, it beats being UNDER the garden! (She's

80, and on chemo--spending loads of money on funny hats to cover her

bald head.)

I really do understand where you're coming from--I'm never out of

pain either, but it beats the alternative. I'm hanging on to life

with all I've got, and intend to find all the good I can in each

day. I will keep you in my prayers and hope to see that you are

having some good days soon.

Judi

[Guest guest]

Hi Cindi - so sorry you are feeling so low. My Rheumatology

Consultant put me on a dose of anti depressants to help with my FM

and also the associated depression. Even now off and on I have bad

days or even weeks.

I really do think we go through a grieving process, or a period of

denial. Just recently, after refusing a walking stick for at least

a year, I accepted one, and boy is there a difference, when trying

to get out of the car.

Also, I have had an extra stair rail and other aids around the house

fitted. All of which I could have done with long ago, but refused

to have, because of course I AM NOT DISABLED!

Just recently, I have a new GP and hang onto her words, which

are 'you have to concentrate on what you can do, not what you used

to do'. By changing my attitude, I am begining to excepted my

disability.

Hope you can find positive information on the web, or from others on

this group.

All the best Carole

^^

> HI EVERYONE,

> I AM REALLY HAVING A BAD COUPLE OF DAYS AND I

> DO NOT KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON WITH ME. I AM ON

> INJECTIONS OF MTX FOR MONTHS, PREDNISONE, ULTRACET,

> AND NEURONTIN. FOR A WEEK NOW I FEEL SO DEPRESSED AND I

> AM CRYING AND CRYING LIKE I WILL NEVER STOP. I RECENTLY

> RECIEVED MY DISABILITY APPROVAL AND I DON'T KNOW IF IT IS

> FINALLY HITTING ME THAT I AM NOT THE SAME PERSON ANYMORE,

> I CAN DO NEXT TO NOTHING AND AM NEVER OUT OF PAIN. IS THERE

> SOME KIND OF SHOCK, OR GRIEVING PROCESS THAT WE GO THRU WITH

> RA AND FM ? AM I ACTING NORMAL OR NUTS ? I CAN'T GET A GRIP

> ON MYSELF AT ALL. PLEASE, PLEASE ANYBODY WITH INFO HELP. I

> HAVE BEEN SURFING THE NET TRYING TO FIND SOMETHING ABOUT THIS

> BUT I HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO.

> THANKS, CINDI HEIN

[Guest guest]

Carol, I love your attitude. I look forward to seeing your posts. I am not even

close to needing any stuff to get around with...I have got the finger clumsiness

and achy joints, and yeah.

What I am trying to say, is that I am gonna need support when it gets worse. I

am alone, and get into fear about if and when it gets so bad I cannot work. My

friend has two artificial knees, hips and shoulders. She sure is determined and

gets around as well as possible.

Thanks for sharing.

[ ] Re: CAN'T STOP CRYING

Hi Cindi - so sorry you are feeling so low. My Rheumatology

Consultant put me on a dose of anti depressants to help with my FM

and also the associated depression. Even now off and on I have bad

days or even weeks.

I really do think we go through a grieving process, or a period of

denial. Just recently, after refusing a walking stick for at least

a year, I accepted one, and boy is there a difference, when trying

to get out of the car.

Also, I have had an extra stair rail and other aids around the house

fitted. All of which I could have done with long ago, but refused

to have, because of course I AM NOT DISABLED!

Just recently, I have a new GP and hang onto her words, which

are 'you have to concentrate on what you can do, not what you used

to do'. By changing my attitude, I am begining to excepted my

disability.

Hope you can find positive information on the web, or from others on

this group.

All the best Carole

^^

> HI EVERYONE,

> I AM REALLY HAVING A BAD COUPLE OF DAYS AND I

> DO NOT KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON WITH ME. I AM ON

> INJECTIONS OF MTX FOR MONTHS, PREDNISONE, ULTRACET,

> AND NEURONTIN. FOR A WEEK NOW I FEEL SO DEPRESSED AND I

> AM CRYING AND CRYING LIKE I WILL NEVER STOP. I RECENTLY

> RECIEVED MY DISABILITY APPROVAL AND I DON'T KNOW IF IT IS

> FINALLY HITTING ME THAT I AM NOT THE SAME PERSON ANYMORE,

> I CAN DO NEXT TO NOTHING AND AM NEVER OUT OF PAIN. IS THERE

> SOME KIND OF SHOCK, OR GRIEVING PROCESS THAT WE GO THRU WITH

> RA AND FM ? AM I ACTING NORMAL OR NUTS ? I CAN'T GET A GRIP

> ON MYSELF AT ALL. PLEASE, PLEASE ANYBODY WITH INFO HELP. I

> HAVE BEEN SURFING THE NET TRYING TO FIND SOMETHING ABOUT THIS

> BUT I HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO.

> THANKS, CINDI HEIN

[Guest guest]

>

> Hi Cindi - so sorry you are feeling so low. My Rheumatology

> Consultant put me on a dose of anti depressants to help with my

FM

> and also the associated depression. Even now off and on I have

bad

> days or even weeks.

>

> I really do think we go through a grieving process, or a period

of

> denial. Just recently, after refusing a walking stick for at

least

> a year, I accepted one, and boy is there a difference, when

trying

> to get out of the car.

>

> Also, I have had an extra stair rail and other aids around the

house

> fitted. All of which I could have done with long ago, but

refused

> to have, because of course I AM NOT DISABLED!

>

> Just recently, I have a new GP and hang onto her words, which

> are 'you have to concentrate on what you can do, not what you

used

> to do'. By changing my attitude, I am begining to excepted my

> disability.

>

> Hope you can find positive information on the web, or from

others on

> this group.

>

> All the best Carole

> ^^

>

>

>

> > HI EVERYONE,

> > I AM REALLY HAVING A BAD COUPLE OF DAYS AND I

> > DO NOT KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON WITH ME. I AM ON

> > INJECTIONS OF MTX FOR MONTHS, PREDNISONE, ULTRACET,

> > AND NEURONTIN. FOR A WEEK NOW I FEEL SO DEPRESSED AND I

> > AM CRYING AND CRYING LIKE I WILL NEVER STOP. I RECENTLY

> > RECIEVED MY DISABILITY APPROVAL AND I DON'T KNOW IF IT IS

> > FINALLY HITTING ME THAT I AM NOT THE SAME PERSON ANYMORE,

> > I CAN DO NEXT TO NOTHING AND AM NEVER OUT OF PAIN. IS THERE

> > SOME KIND OF SHOCK, OR GRIEVING PROCESS THAT WE GO THRU WITH

> > RA AND FM ? AM I ACTING NORMAL OR NUTS ? I CAN'T GET A GRIP

> > ON MYSELF AT ALL. PLEASE, PLEASE ANYBODY WITH INFO HELP. I

> > HAVE BEEN SURFING THE NET TRYING TO FIND SOMETHING ABOUT THIS

> > BUT I HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO.

> > THANKS, CINDI HEIN

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