Re: Nada Just Called After The Surgery - Episode 1,354 on General Hospital

[Guest guest]

Thank you so much, Lizzy. Big Hug. Greg.

lizzyboo81 wrote: Greg I know that voice. I can

understand. I am so proud of you for

staying strong. You are going to go places in life. Love Lizzy

>

> Hey Everyone,

>

> Oh, Lord, I could hear the seething rage through her clenched

teeth. Shana, you were right about letting it go to voice mail. I

didn't b/c I wanted to test myself. She couldn't stop stressing how

much everyone else was soooooo helpful and cared sooo much, and then

she said, and you just go on with your life and whatever friends you

can find... " haha and how sad. I had just finished that post to

when she called. The more I realize what you all have posted

due to what you have been through and how it boils down to a very

cruel mental illness, I have never felt so strongly, without guilt,

that I won't have that evil monster in my life. I am going on with

building my life. That tone and talking through her teeth in a

sickening sweet voice (other people were around) is a trigger. As a

child, that meant as soon as they left, various tortures would take

place. Well, not any more.

>

> Thank you all for being so supportive.

>

> All my best,

>

> Greg.

>

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[Guest guest]

Greg,

Its amazing how far you've come! You know all this stuff and yet I

think it is important to fall back and pick up the phone and realized

again why it is we say we need no contact with these people. Distance

creates wonders in healing though of course we've got to do some work

too. But I mean more like emotional distance like you're doing. I

think geographical distance helps enormously.

It took me several years after finding out about bpd before I could

go NC. Almost like a process of wean the mean out of my life if that

makes sense. I was so use to her treating me like crap that I just

thought that was better than nothing and its really not now that I've

got nothing from her, ya know?

Its weird but the last few times she's called and I didn't pick up, I

could just feel it was her and so I wouldn't answer the upstairs

phone by the pc that doesn't have caller ID on it just b/c I didn't

want to take the risk of making contact. Sad, but that's what she's

created for our relationship. I don't own it. I own my reaction and

my reaction is to not engage anymore. Been down that road too many

times and its always the same- dead ends and donuts on the lawn.

Best wishes to you.

Kerrie

>

> Hey Everyone,

>

> Oh, Lord, I could hear the seething rage through her clenched

teeth. Shana, you were right about letting it go to voice mail. I

didn't b/c I wanted to test myself. She couldn't stop stressing how

much everyone else was soooooo helpful and cared sooo much, and then

she said, and you just go on with your life and whatever friends you

can find... " haha and how sad. I had just finished that post to

when she called. The more I realize what you all have posted

due to what you have been through and how it boils down to a very

cruel mental illness, I have never felt so strongly, without guilt,

that I won't have that evil monster in my life. I am going on with

building my life. That tone and talking through her teeth in a

sickening sweet voice (other people were around) is a trigger. As a

child, that meant as soon as they left, various tortures would take

place. Well, not any more.

>

> Thank you all for being so supportive.

>

> All my best,

>

> Greg.

>

>

> ---------------------------------

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call rates.

>

>

[Guest guest]

The Queen has lost her thrown and she doesn't even realize it. She is

sitting there stripped of all her power trying to summon you to do her

bidding. She doesn't realize that all the symbols of her imaginary

Queen-dom that she used to flaunt have fallen away and she is

completely exposed for all to see in nothing but her underwear (which

doesn't even match). Even her stately voice can not summon her

servants anymore.

Congratulations Greg! No more torture - not ever. Keep repeating that

" No more torture - not ever. " and you can even add " Not from anyone,

not even myself. " if the FOG comes around. It took me a long time to

realize that I will never in my life suffer the way I did as a child.

Sad and heartbreaking for the child that I was, but quite a freeing

revelation for me now. It will never be that bad again for me, and it

won't for you either.

Fresabird

> Hey Everyone,

>

> Oh, Lord, I could hear the seething rage through her clenched teeth.

> Shana, you were right about letting it go to voice mail. I didn't b/c

> I wanted to test myself. She couldn't stop stressing how much everyone

> else was soooooo helpful and cared sooo much, and then she said, and

> you just go on with your life and whatever friends you can find... "

> haha and how sad. I had just finished that post to when she

> called. The more I realize what you all have posted due to what you

> have been through and how it boils down to a very cruel mental

> illness, I have never felt so strongly, without guilt, that I won't

> have that evil monster in my life. I am going on with building my

> life. That tone and talking through her teeth in a sickening sweet

> voice (other people were around) is a trigger. As a child, that meant

> as soon as they left, various tortures would take place. Well, not any

> more.

>

> Thank you all for being so supportive.

>

> All my best,

>

> Greg.

>

>

> ---------------------------------

> How low will we go? Check out Yahoo! Messenger’s low PC-to-Phone call

> rates.

>

>

[Guest guest]

I hear ya, Fresabird. And your timing is perfect, as the FOG is trying to come

back. So I will barrow your mantra, especially the part " not even from myself! "

Hugs,

Greg.

fresabird@... wrote:

The Queen has lost her thrown and she doesn't even realize it. She is

sitting there stripped of all her power trying to summon you to do her

bidding. She doesn't realize that all the symbols of her imaginary

Queen-dom that she used to flaunt have fallen away and she is

completely exposed for all to see in nothing but her underwear (which

doesn't even match). Even her stately voice can not summon her

servants anymore.

Congratulations Greg! No more torture - not ever. Keep repeating that

" No more torture - not ever. " and you can even add " Not from anyone,

not even myself. " if the FOG comes around. It took me a long time to

realize that I will never in my life suffer the way I did as a child.

Sad and heartbreaking for the child that I was, but quite a freeing

revelation for me now. It will never be that bad again for me, and it

won't for you either.

Fresabird

> Hey Everyone,

>

> Oh, Lord, I could hear the seething rage through her clenched teeth.

> Shana, you were right about letting it go to voice mail. I didn't b/c

> I wanted to test myself. She couldn't stop stressing how much everyone

> else was soooooo helpful and cared sooo much, and then she said, and

> you just go on with your life and whatever friends you can find... "

> haha and how sad. I had just finished that post to when she

> called. The more I realize what you all have posted due to what you

> have been through and how it boils down to a very cruel mental

> illness, I have never felt so strongly, without guilt, that I won't

> have that evil monster in my life. I am going on with building my

> life. That tone and talking through her teeth in a sickening sweet

> voice (other people were around) is a trigger. As a child, that meant

> as soon as they left, various tortures would take place. Well, not any

> more.

>

> Thank you all for being so supportive.

>

> All my best,

>

> Greg.

>

>

> ---------------------------------

> How low will we go? Check out Yahoo! Messenger’s low PC-to-Phone call

> rates.

>

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