Thank you

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Thank you all so much, just the thought of knowing that you're all out there, brings comfort. Yes, I actually do take the words in and process all of them. So know that everything you say is being heard....Today has been a little bit better but there is always room for improvement. I know that all of us must experience pain in order to know and appreciate the true meaning of joy. Think about that one for a moment...I just wish all of this didn't have to happen at once. It makes me feel like my judgement is clouded. I'm the type A that always wants to do things right. I want to do this, I want to do that, etc. But right now I have no idea if any of it is right. I know in the end I'll be fine, but it's the thought of not knowing when or how. I feel so alone in a lot of ways. Ga is not my homestate. There is no family here, but there isn't any family anyway. I had pretty much given up on anything social when we moved here. I do have a dear friend here but she herself is so busy and overburdened that I don't really tell her too much. , I understand what you're saying about the infection. Correct me if I'm wrong, but you're thinking that the implants are causing the sickness and the infection, but the problem is, no doctor in their right mind will take an infected body into the OR to remove them. Yes, I'm fearful of the same thing. In essence I can't get them out until I'm better BUT I wont get better until I get them out. It sucks but the first thing I need to do is find out which bacteria I'm dealing with. The megadoses of abx (Sis...abx = antibiotics hehehe) I'm on helped the first few days, but now I'm back to feeling like yuck again. Fever, nausea, general malaise. Evidently, the abx needs to be changed....So I'm hanging in there. I'm reading your posts and appreciate every word! It's nice to know that there are some of you that had their world cave in all at the same time too! My first order of business is to get these dumb things out and start the road to recovery and getting my health back.I'm truly blessed to have happened upon such a wonderful group of ladies. Thank you. Thank you for everything.Christene