Guest guest Posted March 9, 2004 Report Share Posted March 9, 2004 Dear , Comforting to realize that I was not the only person who hurt so bad that they entertained thoughts of suicide. I kept thinking that there had to be a better life than I was living. The only thing that kept me from it was a VERY strong belief in heaven and hell. Also, did not want to put Elwyn through that, as he lost a son to suicide in 1992. I don't know if my internist sensed how desperate I was and this was why he put me on the Oxycontin or not, but this medication did LITERALLY save my life! gentle hugs, Sharon Faith...with it, miracles *CAN* and *DO* happen! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 18, 2004 Report Share Posted March 18, 2004 Sharon, I absolutely LOVE my doctor. He's the best. Even though we live in a pretty small, almost rural area, he stays very up to date on things. He even took all of the info I gave him on fluoroquinolone adverse reactions (Levaquin, Cipro, Avelox, etc.) with a lot of grace, and even read it all right in front of me. Not too many doctors take too well to being educated by their patient, but he took it in stride, and was actually grateful for the information. He's treated me all along, but has tried to send me to specialists as well. None of them have done me a bit of good, so I've always fallen back on him. I'm not sure I would even feel comfortable with another doctor now...he has me so spoiled on his caliber of care! Dr. Lee used to prescribe my A/D, til I started seeing a psychiatrist, who took over all of that when I started bipolar treatment. He still keeps up to date with it though, asks what I'm taking now, and how much, and if it's working okay for me whenever I go to see him. I haven't " technically " started using a BT med yet, but I have used my leftover Vicodin during the very rough moments. I'm thinking of asking for an increase in my Oxy dosage the next time I see him though. I don't think that 10mg is enough! Well, I'm about falling asleep writing this, so I'd better go. Take care, and I will talk to you later! All my best, Jen Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 19, 2004 Report Share Posted March 19, 2004 Sharon, As I was sitting there at work today, with horrible pain in my lower back and SI, and muscle spasms so bad I wanted to cry, all I could think about was making it til 3:30, and making it to my chiropractor's appointment, then getting home to take some relief meds....without bursting into tears or laying on the floor, no matter how nasty and dirty it is! I think my back problems are starting to progress, and so does my chiropractor. We both think it's time for another MRI, to see if the damage has gotten worse. The last one I had was in 2000 or 2001, and it showed a slightly bulging disc and SI joint dsyfunction. I'm kind of afraid of what it will show now! I was also talking with a co-worker, whose husband also has chronic back problems. She said that their doctor gave him Lidoderm patches to use, and I'm thinking of asking my doctor if I can try them, particularly while I'm at work. That seems to be where I have the most back and hip pain, and also the place where I'm not " supposed " to be taking any form of relief medication (narcotics and muscle relaxers) since I work with heavy machinery (OSHA laws). Since I can't function when I'm in that kind of pain either, I thought that maybe the Lidoderm patches might be a viable alternative. Hell, it's worth a shot! At this point, my doctor only has me taking the Oxy " as needed " , such as when I have an acute flare up, or when the pain in my back gets too bad to bear. Neither of us wants really wants me to be using it as a daily med...I'm just not ready for that yet, or the thought of a dosage increase. I'm sensitive enough to the Oxy that 10mg does ease my pain the biggest majority of the time. I still think the weather has a lot to do with my current pain levels, and my doctor agrees. It didn't seem to be as bad until winter started, and he told me that winter is an extremely rough time for Fibromites. If things aren't better by the time the weather is warmer, and definitely here to stay, and getting back into my walking routine doesn't help, he and I will probably go back to the drawing board on my treatment plan. He doesn't feel comfortable with going too high on Oxycontin dosages, so he said that if I ever needed more than 20mg, he'd switch me to another med, probably a patch or MS Contin. He wanted to go with MS Contin to begin with, but I felt uncomfortable with taking a morphine based drug. My doctor has been so great about working with me....even prescribing the Oxy to me in the first place was an incredible leap of faith for him. He hardly ever prescribes it, which shows me that 1) He knows how much pain I'm in, and 2) He has a lot of trust in me to prescribe it for long term use. I'd be heartbroken if I ever felt like I needed to change doctors, because he's the best doctor I've ever had in my life. He tends to err on the side of caution with me, but with all the things that have happened I don't mind, and never fails to go above and beyond the call of duty for me. Luckily, he's young, so I don't have to worry about him retiring on me for a long time! LOL! Jen Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 20, 2004 Report Share Posted March 20, 2004 Dear Jen, You are fortunate to have found such an understanding doctor, and a YOUNG one at that!! My internist is a little younger than me (I am 53), so I do worry about him retiring before I die! I honestly do not know what I would do without the Oxy... it has literally been a lifesaver. I was suicidal when Dr. Finn first rx'd it, not because of depression or any psychiatric disorder, but simply because of the excruciating pain that I was in and being shuffled from one doctor to another. However, the Oxy keeps the pain at a level where it can at least be tolerated. I have decided that NOTHING will EVER get me to the point that I am completely pain free, but will settle for " bearable " . I have an appointment on the 29th to see Dr. Finn and discuss my current meds with him. I am not necessarily looking for an increase in the Oxy or Lortab, but do want to know that the Lortab is there in case of emergencies, and want to discuss which meds, if any, he feels I can safely discontinue. Please pray that this visit goes well and that I do not end up in tears before it is over. hugs and prayers, Sharon - Memphis, TN Faith...with it, miracles *CAN* and *DO* happen! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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