Another suicide

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Hi guys. I found out Friday that one of my friends killed themselves

on April 10th. I'm a bit sad about it and just having a difficult

time processing two suicides in one months time period. She was not

borderline or related. Her dad was an alcoholic and I think that

really screwed her up- she's was super codependant and such. But

she's had a lot of problems these past few years and I think her

physical pain took a major toll on her outlook for life. I really and

truly believe she was not in her right state of mind and she said as

much in a few emails. I wish I could've picked up the warning

signals. It seems clear in retrospect, but I also think people who

are genuinely going to do it don't give off as many as say a

hystrionic bp whose saying suicidal things just for effect.

I'm sad. If you're a prayerful person, please pray for me. It just

sucks seeing two people throw their lives away in a month's time

period. One thing this has taught me is that childhood trauma

definitely can carry over long into adulthood and that everyone is

responsible for getting the help they need- therapy, etc- and trying

to get over these demons from the past. That in the end, life is a

gift, but we have to open that gift- not settle on the pretty

wrapping on the outside- to truly delve into the soul and try to heal

the wounds and see the real beauty beneath. I am sad though and I

think I'm fighting depression now. I really need to get back to my T

soon.

Kerrie