Re: A WONDERFUL HOLIDAY/For Everyone!!

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> Would you allow a stranger to treat you the way your more

difficult

> friends and realtives act towards you? I say NO WAY!

>

I said this exact thing to my daughter right before I handed her a

suitcase. Told her I wouldn't put up with the BS from a man, or a

friend, I CERTAINLY wouldn't put up with it from my child. Things

are going ok. I can see the laziness starting in her already..but

Ive got the bull by the horns now..Just trying not to raise red

capes in the process! LOL

Washes my hands of everyone now that thinks they can run over my

feelings with a MAC truck in order to make themselves feel better.

Lets see..this week, it was my sister (this will be a long drawn out

fued Im sure because she is stubborn and I dont care if she exhists

at the moment LOL NO IM NOT PIG HEADED!) I never even told you all

about THAT battle...totally weight related. Oh well..seems my

sister, who is thin and always has been, has 'weight' issues. NOT MY

PROBLEM.

But I did cancel my engagement party for January as a result. Ive

decided that my family is screwed up lol Rather just celebrate one

on one with those that don't want to emotionally batter me. I will

probably take my fiance on a surprise trip instead for some passion.

I think we could use it at the moment!!

Kat

who is rambling

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Hey I love this point,

<<Jodi bb makes an excellent point. One important lesson we owe to

ourselves is to TEACH PEOPLE HOW TO TREAT US!>>

Well, I have an emotional hangover, just from house sitting at my

mom's house. She came home, yelled at me, about stupid stuff, like

she always does, because I had cleaned her whole house, and she has

to make sure she doesn't feel that you did anything nice for her. My

fault for knowing this and for putting any effort in, to try to

please her, or do something nice.

So, that being said, I would NEVER allow anyone to treat me the way

my mother does, NEVER.

I made a pact with my friend , to account our food to each

other, and to really stick with the program. Today, I have done

well, inspite of the emotional hangover. I am pleased to be drinking

my protein today, taking my vitamins, at work, had a salad for lunch,

and very little for breakfast. I have learned that I can do the

right thing, by me, even when others, and especially when others

don't. Today, I am proud of myself. I haven't been doing the right

thing, for awhile, when it comes to the Pouch rules, and the

lifestyle changes I agreed to make for myself, before I ever had

surgery. Today, I did. So far, and intend to keep it up. Alot has

been going on in my personal life, and I got very overwhelmed, and

lost my sobriety, first of all, and when that didn't work, as far as,

numbing the pain, I turned to the ole standby " food " . I am up 7 lbs,

after not having lost any weight since May of 2004, which was my 1

year anniversary. So I am here, trying to be open, and struggling

with the truth, the raw truth of it all, and wishing, someone would

come and fix it for me, somehow. I know to get past this point, I

have to do it. I am also wishing, Robyn, had a wls, bootcamp going

on, I could use a close wlbuddy, to help me, but really I don't know,

I just need to take one day at atime. I have jumped on to so many

different trains, and then I jumped off all of them, and the job,

seems a bit large. So that is how I am feeling and where I am at, at

the end of my holiday weekend.

Rechelle

Any comments, or insight, is very welcome.

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Rechelle,

I AM SO PROUD OF YOU!! Honestly, taking responsibility for your

actions is (IMO) the hardest part of all of this. I, personally

speaking, used food also to numb many things. When I admitted to

myself I did it, I had to then make myself accountable. Once I did

that, and practiced it daily (after all I was the only one to

benefit or lose from this found knowledge) it got easier and I

succeeded. I wish I could come over there and take you out to a

movie or something! You are a winning LOSER! Gosh Im tickled pink

for you lol

Kat

...who found out I can overeat still and gain weight! LOL EEEK! And

here I had a moment when I thought maybe I just could eat

whatever...WRONG :-)

[Guest guest]

Thanks so much Kat, I don't feel like a winner, but I need to go the

distance. That I know for sure. I need to keep trying.

Thanks for the vote of confidence, it was a difficult post to make.

Thanks again,

Rechelle

>

> Rechelle,

>

> I AM SO PROUD OF YOU!! Honestly, taking responsibility for your

> actions is (IMO) the hardest part of all of this. I, personally

> speaking, used food also to numb many things. When I admitted to

> myself I did it, I had to then make myself accountable. Once I did

> that, and practiced it daily (after all I was the only one to

> benefit or lose from this found knowledge) it got easier and I

> succeeded. I wish I could come over there and take you out to a

> movie or something! You are a winning LOSER! Gosh Im tickled pink

> for you lol

>

> Kat

> ..who found out I can overeat still and gain weight! LOL EEEK! And

> here I had a moment when I thought maybe I just could eat

> whatever...WRONG :-)