Re: Was 'Extremes' - thanks

May 15, 2006

BUtifulGrace, I just sent off an angry e-mail. I wish I could undo it. I had a

therapy session today and some PTSD stuff came up and I guess I'm edgy. My

venting seems too much now and it is not your fault. I better keep to my

original plan and stay off the site for awhile.

I realized today in therapy that the bad feelings about myself may not come from

nada criticism but is coming from me and is a by-product of my anger and other

negative stuff that I generate. That makes sense and is something that can be

handled. It feels liberating. Now to do the work.

Was 'Extremes' - thanks

Thank you everyone for the insight regarding your own relationships with nada.

It helped me to feel incredibly validated! It is amazing to me the similarities

I heard and how many flashbacks it spurred. Life with nada had become quite

manageable before I had my daughter six months ago, and now the rules have

changed and are causing me quite a bit of anxiety. Nada tries very hard to be

subtle these days because she fears I will take her granddaughter and run or

turn her against her, and she wants to see her as much as possible. She has

also been caking on the 'love' and appears to be trying really hard to put

effort in which causes me to question myself. With God's help and his

" BeautifulGrace!! " I will eventually move beyond this!

BGrace

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May 16, 2006

Interesting. My T told me to be careful because she wants to be me, and sees

herself in competition. He said she will continue to try to undermine my

parenting as she grows. Scarey.

BGrace

Kathleen wrote:

Be careful. The nada in my family has always wanted possession of my

children. A therapist in 2004 said she is doing it because she wants to

destroy them too. Note the " too " .