I'm a newbie

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Hi everyone. I am a newbie. I thought I would sound off by introducing

myself. I am 25 years old and live in Indiana. My mother was just

recently diagnosed with BPD and I am trying to cope with it. It's been

a long year for me and my siblings. We have been through my father's

death (from Diabetes) and my mother's multiple suicide attemps (5)

total. She has been injuring herself with a razor...she has spent all

the insurance money that we recieved for my dad...BUT apparently this

is a never ending cycle. I don't know.

When I was growing up, I was never good-enough for her...everything

that I did was " bad " I was always called stupid, lazy, no good. She

would have her phases of depression and then she would stand in the

living room and have temper-tantrums...calling people everything in the

book. I feel like I have lost something...but can't lose something that

I never had in the first place...and that was a decent relationship

with my own mother.

If any of you have some insight, I would love to hear from you.

God Bless,

Kelli