Re: agoraphobic - I just wanted to ask

[Guest guest]

Dear Keven,

You said:

<<Is it common, to experience agoraphobic symptoms from the use of

Psychotropic drugs?

I just had to ask. I'm not certain if agoraphobia is the correct

term, but I sure am a much different person now. >>

** Tell me what the symptom is. That way we can determine if you're

using the right word and then you and I will know what question I'm really

answering. How are you different?

Regards,

[Guest guest]

Good morning Cath,

Different, I say, in the way that I " know " I really need to shop for

items of everyday use, shoes to be exact.

Everyday this is: once I return home from a 'normal' work day, I am

SO exhausted (mentally).

The thought of running to a shopping mall is what I really want &

need to do, (I've been telling myself this for over a year & a half)

but is not that I am fearful of the mall, nor do I have extreme

anxiety about it, it seems to be that I am just lazy???.

Thus, I tried to online shop. But I get overwhelmed & overloaded by

trying to shop online. Overloaded & can't focus long enough on any

one thing I may need to purchase, because of too many items, or

something like that.

BUT, I have never been a lazy person, if anything, I was manic when

I came to doing normal chores, meaning, normal everyday house things

& general life things.

It is as if I can handle the very complex tasks involved with my

career (engineering & desing), for this almost comes as second

nature, but outside of work, it seems that it is difficult to " get-

out-there " and just plain live.

I know this may not make sense Cath, but I am trying to relay this

the best I can. It might be common during the winter months, to

feel a little shut down, so-to-speak. Ya know, less daylight, less

outdoor activity, etc. We are inside more than out of doors.

I just feel SO withdrawn, from everything. - And in the past, winter

months did not DO this to me, nor had I ingested some of GSK's

stuff, or went thru the xanax w/d.

It isn't a fear of public places, it is more of a battle to just

live. I am above the idea of flooding oneself with material items

that only provide temporary happiness. The shopping I speak of, is

becoming a requirement to survive. I'm wearing WAY worn out shoes

with holes in them. Mentally, I know I need these, but the purchase

eludes me...everyday.

Kev

Sorry so scattered.

[Guest guest]

Cath,

Forgive me, I know my last post wasn't my best work. It is very

hard to explain or descibe something that is brand new to me.

Kev

[Guest guest]

Hi Keven,

You said:

<<Everyday this is: once I return home from a 'normal' work day, I am

SO exhausted (mentally). >>

*** You've answered your own question. You are too exhausted at the end of

the day to face a trip to the mall. This is perfectly normal in the

aftermath of the drugs. It makes perfect sense. Not only are you in early

recovery, but you are also working full-time in a demanding job.

No need for any label or diagnosis here--please don't do that to yourself.

That's what the doctors do. Just understand that it makes perfect sense for

you to be exhausted.

This will gradually get better for you. In the meantime, perhaps you can

plan some time on the weekend when you can go to a quieter place than the

mall and buy yourself some shoes.

Warmly,

Kim

[Guest guest]

Thanks all,

Kim, Janet, & Cath...

LOL. I DO have similar plans this saturday, (not to shop though),

but a very good friend of mine is taking me to the mall. I have not

been there in years. Her & I are gonna go as an effort to rid myself

of the though that there is anything " wrong " with me & a mall. LOL -

I welcome this weekend. - and yeah, I AM doing this mall visit

without the drugs!!! : )

I guess I need to remember this about myself Kim...being in the

early stages of w/d.

I just know this will get better, and I am making small efforts to

fix this dang shoe problem. Janet, I did, go online this morning

and browsed as long as I could maintain. TOO much computer time

seems to make me ill. I am almost certain that working on a

computer all day has something to do with it, however, it is funny

to me, what exactly causes overstimulation now being post drug.

" things " are not only with shoes though, and this topic needn't be

discussed further, I think we've all beaten this horse half to death

(about the post-it style re-re-reminders) to do the most simple

tasks etc.

I'll keep fightin' this!

Honestly, getting to & from work everyday, just about wipes me out,

mentally. - And, once mentally spent, my body seems to just want to

shut down and crave needed rest.

In closing, I guess I can only do so much in any one given day.

Thanks again all,

Kev

> Hi Keven,

>

>

> You said:

>

>

> <<Everyday this is: once I return home from a 'normal' work day, I

am

> SO exhausted (mentally). >>

>

>

>

> *** You've answered your own question. You are too exhausted at

the end of

> the day to face a trip to the mall. This is perfectly normal in

the

> aftermath of the drugs. It makes perfect sense. Not only are you

in early

> recovery, but you are also working full-time in a demanding job.

>

>

> No need for any label or diagnosis here--please don't do that to

yourself.

> That's what the doctors do. Just understand that it makes perfect

sense for

> you to be exhausted.

>

>

> This will gradually get better for you. In the meantime, perhaps

you can

> plan some time on the weekend when you can go to a quieter place

than the

> mall and buy yourself some shoes.

>

> Warmly,

> Kim