PosSoul: An Introduction...

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Hi Everyone! I know people deal with things in different ways. I for one, am still trying to find out how I am actually "handling" things and I think "baby-steps" is a rather accurate description! Nonetheless, I am moving forward instead of digging after hitting rock bottom! ) I was recently diagnosed positive and I am having a hard time with it sometimes. Though I have had enough time and breathing-space to acknowledge and deal, sometimes my breathing turns into a Lamaze form out of panic! When I started looking for information on-line, I found the typical sites: The Body, Poz.com,HIV-Meds - but they were in many ways more sterile and frightening than actually supportive and helpful. My present situation: I am presently on Sustiva and Truvada and my body is already resistant though I just started on meds but my Doc does

not know which one I am resisting. He told me he was going to take me off them and give me something else, after questioning the logic he decided to keep me on one and start something else - this did not make me trust him very much. I know it's a hit or miss with meds, but I would hope it takes longer than a 2 minute interval and 3 questions before making a decision to change meds!! So I am still taking the same meds despite my Doc's suggestion to see if the internal switch goes ON and they start working. I have been on them since April 06 - my VL stopped increasging and my CD4 went up 30 points. Oh also, because my CD4 is 285 I feel I have time on my hands to be hopeful. How I am dealing: I am trying to work through things by writing and turning my situation into a helpful resource for others that find themselves wondering if they are actually going to be able to make

through to see day 2. I want to let people know that it is hard for everyone, but there is tomorrow and the day after. What I am hoping for: I have added myself to this group for information and to slowly (key-word) come out of my shell and introduce myself to a new society. Though I just started the new endeavor of my blog, please feel free to visit it and give me your comments and ideas of what you went through so we can help others. Like I was telling the moderator, sometimes all we can do is sugar-coat harsh reality with human warmth and a smile. Thanks for your time in reading this and I look forward to making some life-altering friendships!! Positive soul pozsoul@... Site:http://360.yahoo.com/pozsoul

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