Re: Hi Everyone!

[Guest guest]

Congratulations! Glad to have you here. That is wonderful that you

have already had such progress. Keep at it and you will reach your

ideal weight.

Amy

>

> My name is Bevin, I'm 31, an IT Project Manager and mother of 3

boys.

> I was delighted to find 's podcasts and really, they have

> changed my life for the better already - in interesting ways.

>

> As far as weight goes, I was a super-skinny all through high school

> until I had my first son. I'm 5'9 " and my weight went from 105-110

to

> 180 post-baby...and it stuck! I would work and work and work to

lose

> the weight and I'd get down to a reasonable weight for my frame and

> have another baby and poof, I'd be puffy again! What really started

> to frighten me was well after my 3rd son was born, instead of

keeping

> the weight off like I had always done, I started gaining. I tried

> just about every diet known to man, restricted calorie, restricted

> carb, Weight Watchers, Nutrisystem, LA Weight loss...all of them.

I'd

> lose weight for awhile and then life would get stressful and

blammo,

> back on the weight would pile. I realized that if I couldn't get

> control of this *now*, it was only going to continue to get worse.

>

> I found the podcasts quite by accident, as I was looking for

> something to listen to to keep my mind occupied as I do housework

(I

> get bored really really really easily). I started listening to

older

> podcasts, and something struck me. The *same* thing that was

holding

> me back from losing weight had been my nemesis in a million other

> ventures that I had failed at, by avoiding them because of the

> possibility of failure. Essentially, all through my childhood I had

> been told that I had so much " potential " . I bound my identity to

it -

> known for someone that had potential. But I quickly realized

> subconsciously that if I tried something and failed then it would

> mean that I *no longer had potential*...and would lose my security

> and identity. WOW. So not only did that apply to weight

loss...which

> it did because my reasons for desiring weight loss were related to

> some things that I had " potential for " , but it was applying to

> everything in my life.

>

> I've read self-help books out the wazoo, I've gone through every

sort

> of " understand yourself " training, through counseling, everything

> that I could think of to understand my tendency to self-sabotage.

> , you were able to unlock that for me, and it is a

lifechanging

> way of thinking.

>

> I realized too that my tendency to self-sabotage in this way led me

> to be fearful in my relationships of expressing myself or trying

> something and failing (once again, losing potential and security)

so

> I would try so very hard to either not try and avoid, or I would

get

> super-paranoid that my husband would be angry with me if I failed.

I

> projected that on to him! Not fair!

>

> At any rate, I've only been listening to the podcasts for two days,

> and I've already broken a weight loss plateau that I had been stuck

> in (the tens are always really hard for me to break) - I'm psyched!

>

> Thank you all!

> -Bevin

>