Guest guest Posted March 5, 2008 Report Share Posted March 5, 2008 Congratulations! Glad to have you here. That is wonderful that you have already had such progress. Keep at it and you will reach your ideal weight. Amy > > My name is Bevin, I'm 31, an IT Project Manager and mother of 3 boys. > I was delighted to find 's podcasts and really, they have > changed my life for the better already - in interesting ways. > > As far as weight goes, I was a super-skinny all through high school > until I had my first son. I'm 5'9 " and my weight went from 105-110 to > 180 post-baby...and it stuck! I would work and work and work to lose > the weight and I'd get down to a reasonable weight for my frame and > have another baby and poof, I'd be puffy again! What really started > to frighten me was well after my 3rd son was born, instead of keeping > the weight off like I had always done, I started gaining. I tried > just about every diet known to man, restricted calorie, restricted > carb, Weight Watchers, Nutrisystem, LA Weight loss...all of them. I'd > lose weight for awhile and then life would get stressful and blammo, > back on the weight would pile. I realized that if I couldn't get > control of this *now*, it was only going to continue to get worse. > > I found the podcasts quite by accident, as I was looking for > something to listen to to keep my mind occupied as I do housework (I > get bored really really really easily). I started listening to older > podcasts, and something struck me. The *same* thing that was holding > me back from losing weight had been my nemesis in a million other > ventures that I had failed at, by avoiding them because of the > possibility of failure. Essentially, all through my childhood I had > been told that I had so much " potential " . I bound my identity to it - > known for someone that had potential. But I quickly realized > subconsciously that if I tried something and failed then it would > mean that I *no longer had potential*...and would lose my security > and identity. WOW. So not only did that apply to weight loss...which > it did because my reasons for desiring weight loss were related to > some things that I had " potential for " , but it was applying to > everything in my life. > > I've read self-help books out the wazoo, I've gone through every sort > of " understand yourself " training, through counseling, everything > that I could think of to understand my tendency to self-sabotage. > , you were able to unlock that for me, and it is a lifechanging > way of thinking. > > I realized too that my tendency to self-sabotage in this way led me > to be fearful in my relationships of expressing myself or trying > something and failing (once again, losing potential and security) so > I would try so very hard to either not try and avoid, or I would get > super-paranoid that my husband would be angry with me if I failed. I > projected that on to him! Not fair! > > At any rate, I've only been listening to the podcasts for two days, > and I've already broken a weight loss plateau that I had been stuck > in (the tens are always really hard for me to break) - I'm psyched! > > Thank you all! > -Bevin > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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