Re: Digest Number 2631

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Hi ,

I understand the whole disabled thing completly. I had 8 wees left of nursing

school when had to take a leave of absence because of a bout with phneumonia.

Then, had to wait till there was a spot for me in the finay semester to finish.

well, while waiting, I got the RSD so couldnt finish. I hd wokred in the medical

field for almost 9 years by then as an EMT. I understand your feeling as far as

the " ...go home for the rest of your life? Sit down and wait for life to pass

me by? It just means limits, at least for me. those are really hard though. But,

over the lst year I have had to learn to not push them. Dont look at it that

way, it just for me at least, makes me more depressed. Look at it as though you

just have to re-direct your energy. mind you, Im the lastone tallkm but guess im

beter at telling than doing. I think alot of us are that way. Your hubby from

what you said has always ben there for it and that makes you very lucky. Trust

me! my first 3 years didnt have that. Now,

am re married to a man that does more for me than anyshould. I know your ids

are young but still, talk to them. mine are older but still, it is important for

them to know so that when mom is having a bad day, they understand it. I think,

at least a key for me, is honesty to my family. They help me alot. My kids may

be grown and away from home but still. When thought my husband was shipping to

Iraq for temp ordrs, my son was going to transfer schools to be here with mom so

I would not be alone. Lucly they canceled the temp orders at the last minute.

But I would have never thought at 19 my son would have been willing to uproot

himself for mom. Guess I did a pretty good job with him ( know it wasnt his

father, or as I call the ex husbnd, sperm donor.) Just dont forget we are always

here for you.

Blessed Be

Deb

May There Never be the Burning Times Again!!

So Mote It Be!

Message: 2

Date: Wed, 15 Mar 2006 23:27:35 -0000

Subject: Hello all....

Well I have posted a couple of messages before about various topics

that I saw on here, but never really said hi to you all or introduced

myself:

I am , from Eaton Ohio. I am 33 years old, and have been with my

husband for 20 years now...We have two beautiful girls ages 6 1/2 and

8 (plus a 4 legged Boxer daughter named Diamond). We raise meat

rabbits, and guinea pigs...are in 4H for various things and love

living out in the country. I am an RN/Paramedic/College Professor,

well I was anyways. I was diagnosed with juvenile rheumatoid

arthritis when I was 13 and have dealt with that for all these years

now...But I, after my teenage years, have done really well. Sometime

about 19 or 20 I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia as well. I have been

on steroids for YEARS as I am intolerant to non steroidals. So

anyway, I have dealt with whatever I have had to and kept going...then

I got pregnant and got really lucky, as I went into almost total

remission. That lasted for several years ( and through 2 pregnancies)

the relief from pain was AMAZING! I was sooo thankful (and even

considered staying pregnant just for the pain relief! LOL...although I

dont think anyone is that insane...HE HE HE) Ok, so fast forward to

about a year ago...I fell off a porch on some ice and destroyed my low

back...I have 3 bulging and 1 herniated disc. I have pinched nerves

and also tendonitis and bursitis in both hips and SI joints. I am a

mess....Bad part is that they have basically told me that there in no

help out there for me... I am not a candidate for surgery...so the

only hope is meds. I have tried lots of different ones already, but

without much help at all. Ok, Im not whining...just venting and

hoping that someone will give me some advice.

So..now I went to the Dr yesterday. He wants me to start Elavil at

night, and Neurontin three times a day plus the Vicodin ES, Robaxin

and no more steroids for now....

And get this!!! " Go file for disability "

What is he telling me...go home for the rest of your life? Sit down

and wait for life to pass me by? I reallllly lost hope yesterday

after that! He kinda confirmed what I have been feeling...I am no

good to anyone now. I feel like I cant help my kids, or my hubby, I

cant work now, cause I cant take meds and teach too...

What have you all done to get through? I just needed a shoulder to

cry on right now...thank you all for listening...and for anyone who

has anyone ideas, I sooo appreciate it.

Blessings to all,

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