Hello all....

[Guest guest]

Well I have posted a couple of messages before about various topics

that I saw on here, but never really said hi to you all or introduced

myself:

I am , from Eaton Ohio. I am 33 years old, and have been with my

husband for 20 years now...We have two beautiful girls ages 6 1/2 and

8 (plus a 4 legged Boxer daughter named Diamond). We raise meat

rabbits, and guinea pigs...are in 4H for various things and love

living out in the country. I am an RN/Paramedic/College Professor,

well I was anyways. I was diagnosed with juvenile rheumatoid

arthritis when I was 13 and have dealt with that for all these years

now...But I, after my teenage years, have done really well. Sometime

about 19 or 20 I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia as well. I have been

on steroids for YEARS as I am intolerant to non steroidals. So

anyway, I have dealt with whatever I have had to and kept going...then

I got pregnant and got really lucky, as I went into almost total

remission. That lasted for several years ( and through 2 pregnancies)

the relief from pain was AMAZING! I was sooo thankful (and even

considered staying pregnant just for the pain relief! LOL...although I

dont think anyone is that insane...HE HE HE) Ok, so fast forward to

about a year ago...I fell off a porch on some ice and destroyed my low

back...I have 3 bulging and 1 herniated disc. I have pinched nerves

and also tendonitis and bursitis in both hips and SI joints. I am a

mess....Bad part is that they have basically told me that there in no

help out there for me... I am not a candidate for surgery...so the

only hope is meds. I have tried lots of different ones already, but

without much help at all. Ok, Im not whining...just venting and

hoping that someone will give me some advice.

So..now I went to the Dr yesterday. He wants me to start Elavil at

night, and Neurontin three times a day plus the Vicodin ES, Robaxin

and no more steroids for now....

And get this!!! " Go file for disability "

What is he telling me...go home for the rest of your life? Sit down

and wait for life to pass me by? I reallllly lost hope yesterday

after that! He kinda confirmed what I have been feeling...I am no

good to anyone now. I feel like I cant help my kids, or my hubby, I

cant work now, cause I cant take meds and teach too...

What have you all done to get through? I just needed a shoulder to

cry on right now...thank you all for listening...and for anyone who

has anyone ideas, I sooo appreciate it.

Blessings to all,