Guest guest Posted April 28, 2008 Report Share Posted April 28, 2008 I totally understand, I have been shuffled back and forth between mental health professionals and ENT's. They both throw up their arms and tell me that not enough people suffer from this and that no one has yet to study it. However, I do agree that we need to all be looking at ways to minimize life stress as much as possible. I find that it is impossible to be relaxed and anxious/mad at the same time. I think sometimes that we forget that we live our choices and that we actually have choices in our lives that we can intentionally make so that we activly minimize stress. Different individuals respond to different kinds of relaxation. Some may need medication, some can use deep breathing and meditation, some need to play basketball and kick some ass..etc., etc.!! It is different for each of us and finding the right combo for ourselves. I find that going to a therapist is helpful, just to release some of the steam that runs in my pipes. I may not be curing my hearing issues, but I am lowering my stress and not dumping stress on my husband or family, they get enough! I do my best to be kind to myself and listen to what my body is telling me. If I am feeling overwhelmed then I will stay in an take it easy, I know that a night where I feel like going out is around the corner. My husband and I live in one of the most expensive places to live in the US (just happens to be where we were both born and raised) and through the years have become a single income family. The less I worked the better my quality of life got, so much to the point where my husband said: 'There is no way I can see you tortuing yourself anylonger, you are so much happier and more like the woman that I fell in love with. I'd rather be happy than have a house or fancy cars. I will do the best I can to provide for us financially and you will stretch each dollar as best you can, stay home.. please. " I am lucky, I have not worked since and my life just continues to get better and better. I cannot remember one job my entire life that did not make me feel trapped in hell and after stewing in that for 8 hours a day I was dreadful to deal with. My life consisted of work, tv, sleep and crying, dreading the next day, over and over. We live in such an inflated costing area, starter homes start at about $8-900,000,000! My husband and I both have Master's degree's and we live in a one bedroom apartment, drive clunkers, and shop discount. I know that if I worked full time that we would have a chance at qualifying for a crappy condo but it is just not worth it. I am learning that my sanity and freedom are the most cherished things and without them life sucks. Inner peace is what I seek and it is a real challenge. I guess that I have super human hearig or something because after my hearing test my ENT asked me if I could tolerate the sound of her voice? I said, yes. She asked " Could you tolerate the sound if I had a crying baby on my lap? I said, 'no, I'd have to cover my ears somehow'. The ENT said that I have hearing that in beyond the norm in frequency and volume which basically means that I hear things that others with normal hearing would not hear and that I hear things almost ten percent louder, which means that if a person with normal/good hearing is standing next to me and there is a sound, I will perceive or hear it significantly louder. " What a gift God has given you!! The ENT kept repeating. How lucky I am to be given this gift. I found this statement offensive and with tears running down my face I said that it was not a gift, it is torture. I felt so misunderstood and hopeless that anyone would ever understand. Well I have a husband who understands and now a group of all of you who understand..... better and better! > > We went to an ENT and he just basically said he didn't know why we were > there because there wasn't anything he could do for us. Plus, I spoke with > another ENT who was very nice and said she had heard of it before, but that > there was nothing she could do for us either. > > It is crazy!! > > hearing > > > Well, I finally went and had my hearing checked. Just wanted to pass > along the results to you guys and gals. They said my hearing is very > very good and pretty much the same for every range of frequency. > Then I went to a psych counselor who referred me to a psychologist > who will most likely medicate me. I'm going to go as nothing else > I've tried works. I've already done the gamut of things already, > including removing caffeine, taking mag and calc, stopped taking > ibuprofen and was taking extra B12 plus adrenaline supps. > > BTW, the counselor didn't seem to have a very high opinion of > audiologists, yet the audiologist who saw me thought, without making > an actual diagnosis, that it was quite possible that the extra > sensitivity to noise is related to cilia loss in the inner ear. She > said at age 40 and on, you naturally lose that hair and it makes your > hearing tolerance go down. That's quite possible. She also seemed > very interested in learning more about 4S. She had never heard of it > before. I told her all I knew. She was very knowledgeable about the > ear and its maladies. But she said getting some sedatives couldn't > hurt if the stress level is that bad. > > The counselor said that since my symptoms seem to all be related to > the hearing, I should go to an ENT doc to check out the ears better > though. But... I figure, what else could an ENT doc do that has not > already been done? The audiologist said the ear drums were not > inflamed or punctured, etc. So what will an ENT be able to further > do to diagnose me? Jesus, I don't want yet one more doc visit. This > is getting ridiculous! > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 29, 2008 Report Share Posted April 29, 2008 "What a gift God has given you!" If a doctor said that to me, I'd punch him in the face. Be a better friend, newshound, and know-it-all with Yahoo! Mobile. Try it now. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 29, 2008 Report Share Posted April 29, 2008 ** Low Priority ** I have this joker who is openly gay which is no problem for me. He has been in the office for one year now and when he first started I commented on what a pleasant speaking voice he had. I suppose after he got comfortable with us, he has come all out with the valley girl type speaking and over stating his s's and t's which is driving me nuts. He wants to sit all through the day talking to this lady in the next cubicle from me non stop. He can control this gay sound of his, he has proven that much and I am ready to pitch something up his sweet ass. What can I do-please help me. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 1, 2008 Report Share Posted May 1, 2008 I really do think the Lex. reduces my anxiety and perhaps the sensitivity as well. It definitely makes me more tolerant. I only take 20mgs b/c it was prescribed for migraine management - but even at that low dose I notice if I haven't taken it!!! > > Do you think that the Lexapro makes you less sensitive to the sounds? > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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