Re: Suicidal

[Guest guest]

Bobby, I am hanging in there. Meetings everyday. 8 days sober. Can't

tell you how much this group means to me. I feel the love and

understanding. Praying for you right now Bobby. Hope your breathing

improves.

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> > > Hi all...now that I realize the consequences of the first

> > > decompensating event, I have been profoundly depressed. To go down

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> > > road with all the horrific complications, suffer for years, and

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> > die

> > > is incomprehensible to me. I have done nothing but obsess about

> > suicide.

> > > Sorry for being so self-centered.

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[Guest guest]

Bobby, No doubt in my mind I'm ESLD. I drank for 12 years since my dx

of Hep C. I'm getting my lab results in about a week, then I'll know

my MELD score. The jaundice is still there, much less than last week.

I'm eating right..lots of veggies, low low sodium diet. All I can do

is go to the ER here in Everett, Wa , see if there is a safety net and

get admitted. Then the state indigent medical care would take over. If

I had my druthers, I go to the hepatologitist, get a biopsy and a

transplant eval! I'll know more next week. I'd certainly like to

believe it was severe alcohol hepatitis instead. This is one time I'd

love to be wrong. God, Grant me the serenity to accept the things I

cannot change....Love you all.

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> > > > Hi all...now that I realize the consequences of the first

> > > > decompensating event, I have been profoundly depressed. To go

down

> > > this

> > > > road with all the horrific complications, suffer for years, and

> then

> > > die

> > > > is incomprehensible to me. I have done nothing but obsess about

> > > suicide.

> > > > Sorry for being so self-centered.

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