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Hey, guys, I´m back again - after some months!

Maybe some of you remember,

anyhow, I remember quite well , Tami, ,

Lovetheworkofbk, nne, Roslyn and of course others, sorry

if I don´t mention each of you ...

I wish to tell you that I ´ve had a VERY GOOD TIME all the time

throughout autumn last year, when I was reading the posts every

day.

I had a lot of fun and also I found that this group provided me

with possibilities to go inside, actually, to do the work on some

issue or the other!

At the end of 2005 I was on a journey to Africa ( which was an

amazing experience) and on coming back home I found that I

had lost somehow the connection with the group.

I found myself kind of cut off, didn´t really understand what was

going on, ... had only a slight image that there was some

discussion about moderating.

So I was almost making up my mind to quit reading the posts

and even ending my membership (as I was very much busy also

with my experiences in Africa, that I would prefer to spend more

of my time for)

But today, when I was reading the posts I felt that I would like to

stay.

Well, the discussion about moderators has come up again.

So I could make up a picture for me that is more clear .

And this is how I wish to express my feeling about it:

I like this group just the way it is!

It is wonderful, because for me it is a very practical way to really

GET ACQUINTED with what the Work actually is for (teaching us,

as far as I know, to LOVE WHAT IS !)

So for me it has become a way to experience, even bodily(!),what

this mystery of the Work could probably be!

It was like the arena for ice-skating, you know? Somebody can

tell me anything about Loving What Is, like telling me about

ice-skating, how I can learn that and how it feels good, but then I

have to go there on the arena ( if I want) and try it on the ice.

Then I no longer talk about ice-skating, I do it!

This list is giving me the chance!

For me there are no e-mails that are good and others that are

" bad " .... and, like you, , I would never be ready to shut

ANY SINGLE ONE of them out!

For me the whole discussion has got nothing to do with " unruly

children " - I´d like to refer to that one later, Lovetheworkofbk!

With this list I´ve had the opportunity to experience life AS IT IS

and not AS IT SHOULD BE !!!!

I see in this list a model of the whole community of mankind,

because in your " real " world, meaning in you everyday-life, you

also cannot choose who you would like to have around you.

As an example ... there are my colleagues.

This has been a great experience for me after so many years!

I was always struggling because I thought that I do not belong to

them and they are not matching my imagination of how to work

together ... and many other issues I dodn´t find " good " !

Now this is over!!! And it´s just amazing ...

It seems that since I am absolutely clear with that , that I do not

any longer want to change anyone of them, they seem to have

changed - or at least some of them in some respect!

In this recent discussion on this list I tended to support Tami and

I wanted to tell Lovethework why I feel that he is wrong, ...

well, another opportunity for me tp " practice " !

And I like so much your metaphor, , of the meadow and

the different flowers!

The interesting thing I want to share with you guys, is that there

was a time when I had difficulties with some of Tami´s posts ,

that was, I think, some months ago when and Tami did a

lot of " fooling around " here.

That time it was not quite easy for me to decide if I should post

and say something, or do the work or do it not ... Well, I didn´t

post ( maybe I was too shy or something that time?!)

and as I remember I also didn´t do the work on it

(because I sometimes like to do the work and sometimes I

don´t!)

but when I came back from Africa and started to read the mails

again I realized that I appreciated what Tami is doing a lot.

Tami I like your posts!

I like that you are here, I like what you say and what you are,

and I´m happy about that, because I got the feeling that you are

totally free - and that´s just great for me to observe!

What is it to be free? is a question I like to ask myself ( and

others ) ....

I think the freedom you are showing, obviously make some

people assume that you don´t care about what other people say

or don´t care about their feelings!

Yes, it sounds that you are totally free giving a damn for what they

may be thinking, o.k. you are like this - AND - at the same time

I can feel the love behind it !

This is the way I can see it in the moment, that your being totally

free and being totally yourself (which some people tend to call

selfassuredness, which I cannot agree with) is GOING ALONG

WITH LOVE - AND NOTHING BUT LOVE!

Only recently you were asked to " try another way " if you wouldn´t

wish to do the work, and you immediately replied " another way to

get where? " .... amazing!

So I concluded that you are the one who doesn´t want to do the

work and I am the one who does it " half-way " (sometimes, but

also the full version, sometimes ) - because I often don´t want to

sit down and get a paper and a pen and write ... especially

question 3 and 4 I often do not like to answer!

Instead I may walk in the street and find some statement, some

" shoulds " , and immediately I´ve got a TA and - that´s it.

I know this is not what Steve D. and other people who are " good "

workers would advise me, still it is as it is.

And I am happy , for now ....

Maybe this is one of the things I learned from you, Tami (to be

ready to be myself ) and I find that I appreciate that in my life a lot

right now !

So I want to thank you, Tami,

I want to thank you , ( I have sent you an e-mail on your

private adress, , did you get it?)

and thank you, , for moderating this list!

Love, Rosemarie