Guest guest Posted January 24, 2006 Report Share Posted January 24, 2006 Thank you for the thank you and thanks for your help Your work is mine. Only your a much better writer. . I like you too love, roslyn > > > > > > > > > yes, the thing about the past is that it's over. > > > > > > it's very strange and disturbing to me that that only seems to apply > > to the > > > things i consider good (at least when i'm in these 'funks' of mine). > > for > > > instance, all the times Renata and i were the two most in-love > > people on the > > > planet...that's in the past, it no longer seems to count very much > > in the > > > present. where as times she said or did something that hurt me, > > those things are > > > also in the past, yet they're so much more pervasive and hold onto > > me so much > > > longer. they define me and shape me so much more, and how i look > > at things > > > in the present. > > > well, that's how it looks/feels from where i'm standing right now > > anyway. > > > i'd love to flip that perception around 180 degrees. now... > > > > > > 3 reasons why having my deepest love and trust betrayed, rejected > > and thrown > > > away like an old toy in the past is the best thing that ever > > happened to me? > > > ooooo-kay... > > > > > > 1. the Absolutely crushing bewilderment/agony of it is a direct > > contributor > > > to my search for this mysterious and elusive " Love of Self " i hear > > so much > > > about. i hear it's worth the effort to find. > > > > > > 2. the last time it happened, i took nearly 3 years off from any > > romantic > > > relationships. after moving through the very long and painful > > phase of > > > " Jayme-withdrawl " , i really found myself in a peaceful, confident > > state for a long > > > time. standing just fine on my own two feet. this really was great, > > and i > > > was actually grateful because i knew i would never have gotten > > " there " w/out > > > those particular circumstances. the flipside of that was that i > > was truly > > > avoiding relationships because deep down i knew that i couldn't > > have that > > > confident and solid sense of myself, AND a relationship at the same > > time, at least > > > not for long. i lose myself every time. i really don't know how > > Renata > > > snagged me. she's very persuasive. ; ) > > > > > > 3. ummmmm... > > > ummmmmmmmm... > > > hm. let's see...three reasons...damn. oh, i know! i didn't > > kill > > > myself at the age of 18 even though for a whole year i really > > really really > > > really really wanted to because my beloved girlfriend fucked my > > best friend at my > > > birthday party! yaaayyy!!! > > > > > > i've heard i have a somewhat morbid sense of humor. i don't really > > see > > > where they get that though. > > > > > > i'm drawing a blank on #3, although i'm sure i'm just overlooking > > something. > > > the first two are pretty legit though. thanks for having me look > > at that. > > > > > > > > > love, > > > jeremy > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > In a message dated 1/21/2006 5:08:00 P.M. Eastern Standard Time, > > > sandraharris@c... writes: > > > > > > As for your history and the cheating stuff... as Kt says... the > > > wonderful thing about the past is that it's OVER! Unless we keep it > > > alive and fuel it. What ever happened, happened. Now who's > cheating on > > > you? Perhaps... you? Isn't it cheating on you to keep thoughts about > > > past experiences alive as though they apply now... and today? Don't > > > you cheat yourself out of joy and possibility when you use your past > > > as a measure for your present? Find 3 reasons why being cheated > on in > > > the past is the best thing that ever happened. > > > > > > Think any thought long enough and it will take flight. So... choose > > > your thoughts carefully and make sure they serve your greater good. > > > For now... a beer and a few buddies sounds like a wonderful way to > > > spend some time investing in yourself. Take a break my friend... > > > you've worked hard and earned it. Thank you for sharing The Work. > ) > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > [Non-text portions of this message have been removed] > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Yahoo! Groups Links > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > [Non-text portions of this message have been removed] > > > > > > > > > > Yahoo! Groups Links > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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