Re: work on Hope

[Guest guest]

Since hope has been a subject, I decided to do the work on hope. To see

what happens. Without hope. This is for all the times I have been

without hope, past present future.

I am depressed because my situation (whatever it is) is hopeless.

Is it true?

It seems hopeless.

Can I absolutely know it is hopeless.

It might be. It happens sometimes to people. It's possible. And I can't

know for certain.

How do I react when I believe my situation is hopeless.

I feel tired. I can't think of a way out. I try to think and keep

hitting brick walls in my head. I feel irritable and grouchy.

Depressed. Everything seems without meaning. I blame my partner for his

lacks and limitations, for not caring more about doing something to

change things. I compare myself to other people and they always come

out looking better in every way. I think about the future and it looks

bleak and hopeless. I feel depressed. I don't feel like eating. I can't

find motivation to do things unless I have to do them. I have trouble

being nice to people. I can't sleep. I can't wake up. I don't do things

that are important to me. My flow of creativity is blocked. I give up.

I think about mistakes from the past that got me where I am. I can't

relax. I can't meditate. I can't do yoga. I start listening to other

people's dire predictions about the future (which usually never bother

me) - and start thinking they are right about all the " shoulds " I

" should " have done or should do. I don't have any fun. I lose my sense

of humor. I wish for someone or something to rescue me.

Does it bring me stress or peace?

It brings me tremendous stress (see above.)

Can I see a reason to drop this thought?

Yes, many reasons.

What do I get out of this belief?

I get to feel yucky. I get to be angry. I get to stay as I am. I get to

blame others. I get to blame myself. I get to have no motivation. The

future looks senseless and hopeless, the past is too blame, and the

present sucks.

Who would I be without the thought that my situation is hopeless?

I would be doing the things I love to do, no matter what. I would be

taking good care of myself, doing my yoga regularly, eating well. I

would be disciplined and follow a schedule that matters to me. I would

feel motivated and hopeful that I have the courage and ability to

change things. I would be having fun with this thought, imagining all

the ways my situation might change, playing with many ideas. Everything

I do would have an element of hope to it, a myriad of possibilities. I

would have energy. I would be having fun in the moment, instead of

being depressed about things as they are. I would see a beautiful

vision wherever I looked, so that even the ugliness around me would

take on a certain beauty. I would be an inspiration to myself and maybe

uplifting to others. I would not depend upon someone else to rescue me.

I would not need for someone else to have hope for me, because I would

have my own. I would see my situation as perfect for me, the perfect

canvas upon which to paint the pictures God wants me to paint. I would

be having fun. I would believe in myself. I would be creative.

TA

My situation is not hopeless.

This could be true. Situations change all the time. Miracles happen.

Ordinary things happen. Life changes. It could also be true that my

situation is not hopeless at all - it just IS as it IS - there is

nothing really wrong with it -- except my thinking..........

..........My thinking is hopeless.

This is true. My hopeless thinking creates a feeling of hopelessness

inside me.

My thinking is not hopeless.

This is true also -- my thinking is not hopeless because it can change.

Even if my situation never did change, my thinking can, and then my

situation would look different.

I look forward to my situation being hopeless.

Hmm. Well, I can say I can look forward (sort of, not very) -- to the

challenge inherent in hopelessness.

Well, there's my work for the moment. I " hope " someone out there enjoys

it at some level.

Thanks........

Judy

xxxooo