Re: I need things - is it true?--

[Guest guest]

Dear ,

thank you! It took a while for me to get this. When I first read

your reply it was like I couldn´t take anymore in, my mind was

blocked (spared =) ). I think I understand your point now and I´m

grateful that you took your time writing to me.

Love,

> > I have a story that I need things. When I don´t get them I

> sometimes

> > discover that I didn´t need them, and sometimes I suffer. These

> are

> > the things I usually suffer when I don´t get: food and water,

> the

> > feeling that I´m not alone, love and cigarettes. I have decided

> to

> > investigate my needs.

> > I think I need food and water. Why? Well, if I don´t get any I

> will

> > eventually die. Ok, so I need food and water to live. I see that

I

> > think that I need to live. Is it true? No of course not. When

> I´m

> > dead I certainly don´t need to live. However right now I am

> alive

> > and I don´t want to die. I want to stay alive and that is true

> at

> > this moment. Maybe I don´t have to worry about staying alive.

> Whose

> > business is it? I´m not sure. In some level mine, in some level

> > God´s. I am not sure. Maybe it´s all God´s business.

> > I need to feel that I´m not alone. Is it true? No. I feel lonely

> > right now, so reality is telling me that I don´t need to feel

> I´m

> > not alone.

> > I need love. Is it true? It seems to be true. I have love. I

have

> > always felt that someone loves me. I am lying when I say that I

> > would suffer without love. The truth is that I have no idea how

> that

> > feeling would be because I have never expirienced it. I have

felt

> > love every single moment of my life.

> > I need to smoke. Is it true? Well, I am smoking at this very

minute

> > so I guess it´s true. That doesn´t mean it has to be true in

> five

> > minutes.

> > I am really afraid of emotionel pain. I do anything that I think

> > will keep it away. That´s why I smoke, take sleepingpills, eat a

> > lot, don´t see other people and don´t work. When I read this

> last

> > sentense I think to myself: this is not a healthy living. This

is

> > not the way to happiness. If someone else, for example my

> daughter,

> > would say to me that she was unhappy and suffered I would never

> > recommaned her to smoke, take a lot of sleepingpills, isolate

her

> > self in an apartment, eat junkfood and watch TV all day. I don´t

> > think I love myself very much since I have recommended it to

> myself.

> >

> >

[Guest guest]

Hi ,

I have had the same experience. It seems like my mind will do the work

" full speed ahead " for a while. Then it will wobble on its' axis, retrograde,

and

stop: shutdown for a while: No more work. Often I will backslide, at that

point, " act out my issues/stories " as it were. Sometimes I move " full speed

ahead " into my stories and act out on them with a greater intensity than before.

Having taken one step backward, I then take two steps forward and continue on my

path. I tell myself it is just as it should be: perfect.

XO

Joni

[Guest guest]

Dear ,

Take as long as you want! You get it when you get it. :-) The Work

can be so simple, but only when it is. For me - it's the precious

moments of clarity that keeps me coming back for more.

Be kind to yourself!

/

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> > > I have a story that I need things. When I don´t get them I

> > sometimes

> > > discover that I didn´t need them, and sometimes I suffer.

These

> > are

> > > the things I usually suffer when I don´t get: food and water,

> > the

> > > feeling that I´m not alone, love and cigarettes. I have decided

> > to

> > > investigate my needs.

> > > I think I need food and water. Why? Well, if I don´t get any I

> > will

> > > eventually die. Ok, so I need food and water to live. I see that

> I

> > > think that I need to live. Is it true? No of course not. When

> > I´m

> > > dead I certainly don´t need to live. However right now I am

> > alive

> > > and I don´t want to die. I want to stay alive and that is true

> > at

> > > this moment. Maybe I don´t have to worry about staying

alive.

> > Whose

> > > business is it? I´m not sure. In some level mine, in some

level

> > > God´s. I am not sure. Maybe it´s all God´s business.

> > > I need to feel that I´m not alone. Is it true? No. I feel lonely

> > > right now, so reality is telling me that I don´t need to feel

> > I´m

> > > not alone.

> > > I need love. Is it true? It seems to be true. I have love. I

> have

> > > always felt that someone loves me. I am lying when I say that

I

> > > would suffer without love. The truth is that I have no idea

how

> > that

> > > feeling would be because I have never expirienced it. I have

> felt

> > > love every single moment of my life.

> > > I need to smoke. Is it true? Well, I am smoking at this very

> minute

> > > so I guess it´s true. That doesn´t mean it has to be true in

> > five

> > > minutes.

> > > I am really afraid of emotionel pain. I do anything that I think

> > > will keep it away. That´s why I smoke, take sleepingpills, eat

a

> > > lot, don´t see other people and don´t work. When I read this

> > last

> > > sentense I think to myself: this is not a healthy living. This

> is

> > > not the way to happiness. If someone else, for example my

> > daughter,

> > > would say to me that she was unhappy and suffered I would

never

> > > recommaned her to smoke, take a lot of sleepingpills, isolate

> her

> > > self in an apartment, eat junkfood and watch TV all day. I

don´t

> > > think I love myself very much since I have recommended it to

> > myself.

> > >

> > >

[Guest guest]

Love to you ! You seems like such a nice person... Glad you are

here!

Love,

> > > > I have a story that I need things. When I don´t get them I

> > > sometimes

> > > > discover that I didn´t need them, and sometimes I suffer.

> These

> > > are

> > > > the things I usually suffer when I don´t get: food and water,

> > > the

> > > > feeling that I´m not alone, love and cigarettes. I have

decided

> > > to

> > > > investigate my needs.

> > > > I think I need food and water. Why? Well, if I don´t get any

I

> > > will

> > > > eventually die. Ok, so I need food and water to live. I see

that

> > I

> > > > think that I need to live. Is it true? No of course not. When

> > > I´m

> > > > dead I certainly don´t need to live. However right now I am

> > > alive

> > > > and I don´t want to die. I want to stay alive and that is

true

> > > at

> > > > this moment. Maybe I don´t have to worry about staying

> alive.

> > > Whose

> > > > business is it? I´m not sure. In some level mine, in some

> level

> > > > God´s. I am not sure. Maybe it´s all God´s business.

> > > > I need to feel that I´m not alone. Is it true? No. I feel

lonely

> > > > right now, so reality is telling me that I don´t need to feel

> > > I´m

> > > > not alone.

> > > > I need love. Is it true? It seems to be true. I have love. I

> > have

> > > > always felt that someone loves me. I am lying when I say

that

> I

> > > > would suffer without love. The truth is that I have no idea

> how

> > > that

> > > > feeling would be because I have never expirienced it. I have

> > felt

> > > > love every single moment of my life.

> > > > I need to smoke. Is it true? Well, I am smoking at this very

> > minute

> > > > so I guess it´s true. That doesn´t mean it has to be true in

> > > five

> > > > minutes.

> > > > I am really afraid of emotionel pain. I do anything that I

think

> > > > will keep it away. That´s why I smoke, take sleepingpills,

eat

> a

> > > > lot, don´t see other people and don´t work. When I read this

> > > last

> > > > sentense I think to myself: this is not a healthy living.

This

> > is

> > > > not the way to happiness. If someone else, for example my

> > > daughter,

> > > > would say to me that she was unhappy and suffered I would

> never

> > > > recommaned her to smoke, take a lot of sleepingpills,

isolate

> > her

> > > > self in an apartment, eat junkfood and watch TV all day. I

> don´t

> > > > think I love myself very much since I have recommended it to

> > > myself.

> > > >

> > > >

[Guest guest]

And love to you!

By the way - there is a Swedish list (the_work_svenska) on yahoo if

you " want/need " to express yourself in Swedish.

/

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> > > > > I have a story that I need things. When I don´t get them

I

> > > > sometimes

> > > > > discover that I didn´t need them, and sometimes I

suffer.

> > These

> > > > are

> > > > > the things I usually suffer when I don´t get: food and

water,

> > > > the

> > > > > feeling that I´m not alone, love and cigarettes. I have

> decided

> > > > to

> > > > > investigate my needs.

> > > > > I think I need food and water. Why? Well, if I don´t get

any

> I

> > > > will

> > > > > eventually die. Ok, so I need food and water to live. I

see

> that

> > > I

> > > > > think that I need to live. Is it true? No of course not.

When

> > > > I´m

> > > > > dead I certainly don´t need to live. However right now I

am

> > > > alive

> > > > > and I don´t want to die. I want to stay alive and that is

> true

> > > > at

> > > > > this moment. Maybe I don´t have to worry about staying

> > alive.

> > > > Whose

> > > > > business is it? I´m not sure. In some level mine, in some

> > level

> > > > > God´s. I am not sure. Maybe it´s all God´s business.

> > > > > I need to feel that I´m not alone. Is it true? No. I feel

> lonely

> > > > > right now, so reality is telling me that I don´t need to

feel

> > > > I´m

> > > > > not alone.

> > > > > I need love. Is it true? It seems to be true. I have love. I

> > > have

> > > > > always felt that someone loves me. I am lying when I

say

> that

> > I

> > > > > would suffer without love. The truth is that I have no

idea

> > how

> > > > that

> > > > > feeling would be because I have never expirienced it. I

have

> > > felt

> > > > > love every single moment of my life.

> > > > > I need to smoke. Is it true? Well, I am smoking at this

very

> > > minute

> > > > > so I guess it´s true. That doesn´t mean it has to be true

in

> > > > five

> > > > > minutes.

> > > > > I am really afraid of emotionel pain. I do anything that I

> think

> > > > > will keep it away. That´s why I smoke, take sleepingpills,

> eat

> > a

> > > > > lot, don´t see other people and don´t work. When I read

this

> > > > last

> > > > > sentense I think to myself: this is not a healthy living.

> This

> > > is

> > > > > not the way to happiness. If someone else, for example

my

> > > > daughter,

> > > > > would say to me that she was unhappy and suffered I

would

> > never

> > > > > recommaned her to smoke, take a lot of sleepingpills,

> isolate

> > > her

> > > > > self in an apartment, eat junkfood and watch TV all day.

I

> > don´t

> > > > > think I love myself very much since I have recommended

it to

> > > > myself.

> > > > >

> > > > >