i'm not up to parenting today...

[Guest guest]

woke up feeling anxiety for the first time in a while and did this

work while i was taking the dog for a walk this morning (i may be the

last to have discovered this, but i'm delighted to realize, with the

demands on my day, that i can do the work just as effectively out

loud as on paper! i just have to hope i don't run across anyone else

along the way! LOL)

i'm not up to parenting today.

is it true? sigh. no. i'll get through the day.

how do i feel when i believe the thought, " i'm not up to parenting

today " ? my shoulders slump, i sigh, i feel burdened, sometimes even

overwhelmed. i disconnect emotionally from my children. they seem

like demands rather than delightful souls. i sleepwalk through my

day, waiting for it to be over instead of living it. i'm not playful

with them. i withdraw onto the internet. i don't really perceive the

colors and textures and scents around me. i feel very fuzzy and

disconnected.

can i see a stress-free reason to keep this thought? lord, no.

who would i be if i couldn't think the thought " i'm not up to

parenting today? " i'd be here. i'd wake up. i'd get my daughter

something to drink. i'd make breakfast. i'd be delighted to see my

happy, laughing son when he woke up. i'd rest if i felt tired. i'd

live a day with them. it would flow so smoothly!

TA: I am up to parenting today -- of course i am.

There is such a thing as parenting.

is it true? seems like it. i wake up with these two kids every day.

can i absolutely know it's true? no.

how do i feel when i believe the thought that there's such a thing as

parenting? hmmm. i feel like i've got a 24-hour-a-day job for the

next 16 years. i feel obligated, burdened and even overwhelmed. i

feel like i have an identity, a purpose, a meaning for my life. i

feel like i have so many decisions i have to make about taking care

of them and that's stressful, because i'm not sure i'll get them

right. i feel like i'm stuck, i can't get out of this huge obligation.

can i find a stress-free reason to hold onto this thought? well, no.

no, i can't. all the reasons i come up with are stressful.

who would i be if i couldn't think the thought " there's such a thing

as parenting? " i'd wake up and be delighted to find these fun little

people in my life again. i'd help them out when they asked me. we'd

explore the day together. i'd enjoy their company!

TA: there is no such thing as parenting -- that's just a freighted

concept.

i'm so glad it occurred to me to do that second worksheet!

[Guest guest]

Hi ,

This is lovely work...thank you

Just wanted to share a thought that came

up at the end....

> woke up feeling anxiety for the first time in a while and did this

> work while i was taking the dog for a walk this morning (i may be

the

> last to have discovered this, but i'm delighted to realize, with

the

> demands on my day, that i can do the work just as effectively out

> loud as on paper! i just have to hope i don't run across anyone

else

> along the way! LOL)

>

> i'm not up to parenting today.

>

> is it true? sigh. no. i'll get through the day.

>

> how do i feel when i believe the thought, " i'm not up to parenting

> today " ? my shoulders slump, i sigh, i feel burdened, sometimes even

> overwhelmed. i disconnect emotionally from my children. they seem

> like demands rather than delightful souls. i sleepwalk through my

> day, waiting for it to be over instead of living it. i'm not

playful

> with them. i withdraw onto the internet. i don't really perceive

the

> colors and textures and scents around me. i feel very fuzzy and

> disconnected.

>

> can i see a stress-free reason to keep this thought? lord, no.

>

> who would i be if i couldn't think the thought " i'm not up to

> parenting today? " i'd be here. i'd wake up. i'd get my daughter

> something to drink. i'd make breakfast. i'd be delighted to see my

> happy, laughing son when he woke up. i'd rest if i felt tired. i'd

> live a day with them. it would flow so smoothly!

>

> TA: I am up to parenting today -- of course i am.

>

>

> There is such a thing as parenting.

>

> is it true? seems like it. i wake up with these two kids every day.

>

> can i absolutely know it's true? no.

>

> how do i feel when i believe the thought that there's such a thing

as

> parenting? hmmm. i feel like i've got a 24-hour-a-day job for the

> next 16 years. i feel obligated, burdened and even overwhelmed. i

> feel like i have an identity, a purpose, a meaning for my life. i

> feel like i have so many decisions i have to make about taking care

> of them and that's stressful, because i'm not sure i'll get them

> right. i feel like i'm stuck, i can't get out of this huge

obligation.

>

> can i find a stress-free reason to hold onto this thought? well,

no.

> no, i can't. all the reasons i come up with are stressful.

>

> who would i be if i couldn't think the thought " there's such a

thing

> as parenting? " i'd wake up and be delighted to find these fun

little

> people in my life again. i'd help them out when they asked me. we'd

> explore the day together. i'd enjoy their company!

>

> TA: there is no such thing as parenting -- that's just a freighted

> concept.

>

> i'm so glad it occurred to me to do that second worksheet!>>

There's no such thing as parenting.....is it true?

I ask this because I had noticed during a certain

inquiry, saying

'there's no such thing as " _____ " , and when

I took it further, came up with

" there is no such thing as no such thing "

but, I'm letting that one go as well, to float away

and dissolve back into the cloudless sky

from whence it came.....

bye, bye pretty balloon.....

:-))

C-K

[Guest guest]

, THANK YOU! It so wonderful to see The Work on the message

board again. To see it grounded.

I love how you would be without the thought of such a thing as

parenting:

> " i'd wake up and be delighted to find these fun little

people in my life again. i'd help them out when they asked me. we'd

explore the day together. i'd enjoy their company! "

I can learn from this, and so can others.

Chris

> woke up feeling anxiety for the first time in a while and did this

> work while i was taking the dog for a walk this morning (i may be

the

> last to have discovered this, but i'm delighted to realize, with

the

> demands on my day, that i can do the work just as effectively out

> loud as on paper! i just have to hope i don't run across anyone

else

> along the way! LOL)

>

> i'm not up to parenting today.

>

> is it true? sigh. no. i'll get through the day.

>

> how do i feel when i believe the thought, " i'm not up to parenting

> today " ? my shoulders slump, i sigh, i feel burdened, sometimes even

> overwhelmed. i disconnect emotionally from my children. they seem

> like demands rather than delightful souls. i sleepwalk through my

> day, waiting for it to be over instead of living it. i'm not

playful

> with them. i withdraw onto the internet. i don't really perceive

the

> colors and textures and scents around me. i feel very fuzzy and

> disconnected.

>

> can i see a stress-free reason to keep this thought? lord, no.

>

> who would i be if i couldn't think the thought " i'm not up to

> parenting today? " i'd be here. i'd wake up. i'd get my daughter

> something to drink. i'd make breakfast. i'd be delighted to see my

> happy, laughing son when he woke up. i'd rest if i felt tired. i'd

> live a day with them. it would flow so smoothly!

>

> TA: I am up to parenting today -- of course i am.

>

>

> There is such a thing as parenting.

>

> is it true? seems like it. i wake up with these two kids every day.

>

> can i absolutely know it's true? no.

>

> how do i feel when i believe the thought that there's such a thing

as

> parenting? hmmm. i feel like i've got a 24-hour-a-day job for the

> next 16 years. i feel obligated, burdened and even overwhelmed. i

> feel like i have an identity, a purpose, a meaning for my life. i

> feel like i have so many decisions i have to make about taking care

> of them and that's stressful, because i'm not sure i'll get them

> right. i feel like i'm stuck, i can't get out of this huge

obligation.

>

> can i find a stress-free reason to hold onto this thought? well,

no.

> no, i can't. all the reasons i come up with are stressful.

>

> who would i be if i couldn't think the thought " there's such a

thing

> as parenting? " i'd wake up and be delighted to find these fun

little

> people in my life again. i'd help them out when they asked me. we'd

> explore the day together. i'd enjoy their company!

>

> TA: there is no such thing as parenting -- that's just a freighted

> concept.

>

> i'm so glad it occurred to me to do that second worksheet!

[Guest guest]

Dear Heartsong (C-K) and ,

" Bye, bye pretty balloon... "

Love your poetic conclusion to what could have become a vicious cycle

inquiry. When inquiry is no longer grounded in the lives we actually

live on this planet, we need a way to let them go. Letting them

float up and disappear in the stratosphere works for me.

Thanks for this perspective.

Chris

>

> There's no such thing as parenting.....is it true?

>

> I ask this because I had noticed during a certain

> inquiry, saying

> 'there's no such thing as " _____ " , and when

> I took it further, came up with

>

> " there is no such thing as no such thing "

>

> but, I'm letting that one go as well, to float away

> and dissolve back into the cloudless sky

> from whence it came.....

>

> bye, bye pretty balloon.....

>

> :-))

>

> C-K