Re: Tim from the cleanse? (April)

[Guest guest]

> I look forward to speaking to my lawyer! It is not that I think it

> shouldn't be this way but my reactions of stress bother me, I

> should be able to handle all this in one week and not feel

> stressed. I should be able to stay in the moment because I

> understand the tools. For the most part I am good, there is a

> quiver deep inside that does not believe me! LOL

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> So.... if anyone knows of Tim and his inquiry circle, I would love

> to " inquire'. I could use a school right about NOW!

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Dearest April,

You have so much courage, I can hardly imagine what it must be like

to lose all my material things. Comfort and control are painful

concepts which restrict my freedom, until they are exposed by

situations like the one you are in. As you undo the stories around

comfort and control I think you will find a peace and freedom which

is more precious than a big house and lots of money.

On the other side of all these events I see a new April filled with

peace and a freedom beyond words. Just my story, but I like it more

than one filled with despair and self-pity.

Loving what is, precious angel, and that would be you.

Neo

[Guest guest]

Neo,

I am ready to give up all the things for peace! That is not the issue

as much as that I have done something wrong and I can't fix it.

I have found that the " more things " require " more dusting " of them or

" maintenance, " I am not keen on that. I have no problem with moving I

have fear of illegal, or wrong, or that something I did caused some

wrong thing that I will never be able to figure out or fix!

Heck the stuff is just stuff. It is being sure of right and wrong and

legal. I just don't know! I do what I am told but I really do not

know! There are people that seem to think that I should know some of

this stuff and it is very foreign to me! I know what I did and what the

accountant advised but I do not know about " those others " and for some

reason there are a lot of questions coming my way! I just don't know...

that does not seem to please " them " . They ask for reports, they want

audits, they want all the bank statements for various years. I send

them. They are not satisfied. " Something is not " right " .. Geeze, I

don't know what to tell them!

I guess that I just don't " know " .

The self pity is there regarding that I " should know " . What the heck

is wrong with me? I " should know " ... that kind of thing.

What is the matter with you April, you can do a work sheet, you know how

to inquire, why are you so scared? That is where I feel shame or " self

pity " . I very much realize that I can't control things, I can't even

control my own thinking, never mind other stuff! LOL

Lovingly,

April

[Guest guest]

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> I guess that I just don't " know " .

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Dearest April,

Some reflections

I love the " I don't know " mind. Its big as a deep blue sky, it has

room for everything. Better yet it has room for an intelligence and

grace beyond words to gently offer me all the answers I need.

When " I don't know " I can sit back and relax and trust that a power

greater than me is working things out just perfectly. God is doing it

all anyway, I just tell the story of how " I " have something to do

with it. LOL, sometimes I am very confused.

Thank you for giving me the chance to remember once again that " I

need do nothing " . (Stole that one from ACIM, LOL)

Loving what is, precious angel, and that would be you.

Neo

[Guest guest]

beg your pardon , sir Neo , disorder in lesser things for the sake of

order in greater things is what is ? no ? I am all shook up as well .

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>> I guess that I just don't " know " .

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> Dearest April,

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> Some reflections

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> I love the " I don't know " mind. Its big as a deep blue sky, it has

> room for everything. Better yet it has room for an intelligence and

> grace beyond words to gently offer me all the answers I need.

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> When " I don't know " I can sit back and relax and trust that a power

> greater than me is working things out just perfectly. God is doing it

> all anyway, I just tell the story of how " I " have something to do

> with it. LOL, sometimes I am very confused.

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> Thank you for giving me the chance to remember once again that " I

> need do nothing " . (Stole that one from ACIM, LOL)

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> Loving what is, precious angel, and that would be you.

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