I give up

[Guest guest]

I give up on Foo, Nada and all.

I feel so much free-er!

Sometimes I feel the familiar tugs at my guilt, sometimes I blame

myself for these " failed relationships " -- but mostly I am just

seeing life as it is -- and life as it never will be with them!

I believe that idealism has its place, believe me!

" To see things as they should (or could) be " -- that ideology has its

place I think!

But my idealism never came to fruitation -- never did, and never will.

And it's over.

I just associate dark clouds and death with them now.

That is being realistic -- that's all there is with them for me --

they refuse to " release " me from their definition of me -- they

refuse to stop using me as a scapegoat.

If I go near them -- them embrace me with their poisonous assumptions

and misbeliefs about me.

It reminds me of stories I've read in mythology, etc.!

Now I know why they had such glum fairy tales -- when people in the

past couldn't get away from their destructive foo life was a real

horror story.

Thank God I'm getting out of the horror story, one day at a time.

Barb T.