Re: i'm new here but got lifelong experience with a bpd

[Guest guest]

Hi ,

When we find someone else who shares our history, it is like finding water in

a desert, isn't it. Glad you found your way here, welcome. Carol

In a message dated 4/2/04 8:40:36 PM Eastern Standard Time,

karenb7@... writes:

i'm new here and all i can say is wow. it's really nice to know i'm not the

only one who felt so sad as a kid b/c i didn't have anything resembling a

normal family. heck, something remotely close would have been nice. i always

knew

my mom sucked as a mom but didn't have any kind of label or reason. i'm

learning now why i'm so screwed up. anyway, it's already meant a lot to me to be

able

to read your stories.

[Guest guest]

Hi ,

When we find someone else who shares our history, it is like finding water in

a desert, isn't it. Glad you found your way here, welcome. Carol

In a message dated 4/2/04 8:40:36 PM Eastern Standard Time,

karenb7@... writes:

i'm new here and all i can say is wow. it's really nice to know i'm not the

only one who felt so sad as a kid b/c i didn't have anything resembling a

normal family. heck, something remotely close would have been nice. i always

knew

my mom sucked as a mom but didn't have any kind of label or reason. i'm

learning now why i'm so screwed up. anyway, it's already meant a lot to me to be

able

to read your stories.

[Guest guest]

Hi ,

When we find someone else who shares our history, it is like finding water in

a desert, isn't it. Glad you found your way here, welcome. Carol

In a message dated 4/2/04 8:40:36 PM Eastern Standard Time,

karenb7@... writes:

i'm new here and all i can say is wow. it's really nice to know i'm not the

only one who felt so sad as a kid b/c i didn't have anything resembling a

normal family. heck, something remotely close would have been nice. i always

knew

my mom sucked as a mom but didn't have any kind of label or reason. i'm

learning now why i'm so screwed up. anyway, it's already meant a lot to me to be

able

to read your stories.

[Guest guest]

hi carol,

thank you for welcoming me. i've always been invisible and worthless

in my family (and of course in the 10 yr marriage i left last summer)

so i didn't really expect anyone to notice me on here either. i've

read thru several of the posts, old and new and i swear every single

time i've been on here i've ended up crying really hard. it's a good

cry though. getting out seriously old hurts. which is weird b/c i'm

in counseling and have been for 2+ years. that's where i learned that

my mom is bpd. i've only cried once in there and that was UNUSUAL for

me. neither me or my feelings matter so why subject myself to

humiliation <-- attitude i learned growing up but i know is wrong

my mom makes me think of pulling flower petals....she loves me, she

loves me not...... what will it be today?

having learned about the swoe book, i decided to go get it yesterday.

i'm steeped in deprivation addiction so of course i wanted to find it

at a reduced price online but i told myself that by god, i was going

to go to the bookstore where i knew i'd be able to find it and have

it right away even if it meant paying full price. course i did stop

at the half price bookstore to see if they had it first .....

anyway, thanks for caring.

karen

> Hi ,

>

> When we find someone else who shares our history, it is like

finding water in

> a desert, isn't it. Glad you found your way here, welcome. Carol

>

>

>

> In a message dated 4/2/04 8:40:36 PM Eastern Standard Time,

> karenb7@s... writes:

> i'm new here and all i can say is wow. it's really nice to know i'm

not the

> only one who felt so sad as a kid b/c i didn't have anything

resembling a

> normal family. heck, something remotely close would have been nice.

i always knew

> my mom sucked as a mom but didn't have any kind of label or reason.

i'm

> learning now why i'm so screwed up. anyway, it's already meant a

lot to me to be able

> to read your stories.

>

>

>