Maree from Cindy

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Maree

My heart goes out to you... BUT think of the achievement you done.

You have done wonders! I would hate to think where you may have been

if you had not lost your weight... and I know one thing if that had

happened I would not have the opportunity to meet this adorable lady.

Go Maree go....

Lots of hugs

>

> Thanks everyone for tolerating my tantrum this afternoon and for

all

> the encouraging posts and feather fluffing. I am over the initial

> disappointment, I just got a shock. I never expected him to say

> that, why not, I don't know. As I said I had been told I could

> expect to loose 60% of my 'excess' weight, I was not told that was

> all I could expect to loose. To be honest, if you could read my

> posts from back then my Dr. actually said that due to my age I may

> not reach 60% as younger people with better metabolism do, so

really

> the result is great. I was so happy with the band and my progress

> and I was looking at a half full glass. When he said that I just

> thought oh no, another time I score the half empty glass. Yes, I

was

> sorry for myself, really sorry. I know I am strong in some ways, I

> would fight like a tiger if I'm upset enough, would defend my

family

> to the death. I have dealt with bikies and waywood cops, thrown

them

> out of the pub I managed and never took a backward step, but with

> food/weight and associated problems I am a floppy junket with no

> willpower, stamina or self control. It is okay for all the right

> reasons to say make sensible food choices, excercise, but if I had

> that much willpower and control I would never have had to resort

to

> the band and I would never have met you great people. That for me

> has been the unexpected bonus in all of this, meeting so many kind

> and caring friends who are also great company. I especially

> appreciated Rob's hug as I know he doesn't write too often these

> days. Kiss back to you Rob.xxxx Anyway, I won't have the band

> removed, who am I kidding, I can't afford to anyway. At this point

I

> want to confess ssssssssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, don't tell anyone

> else. A lot of my sadness had to do with bloody stinking Sam. I

> always say success is great revenge, well, I would have loved to

> have run into him somewhere down the track looking thin and

> sensational and for him to regret what he had lost. Stupid I

suppose

> but that huge disappointment regarding Sam is still a very raw

wound

> too. Maybe half the tears were restrained emotion over all that.

> See, I try to act strong but I'm really very weak. Whatever, I'm

> okay now so thanks again all of you beaut people. Maree

>