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Hi to all,

I have started my intelligence testing and it will continue for a few

more weeks. On the first batch I did well he said on some parts, but

he would have to do comparisons on others. I know on the math

problems that he gave me, some of them I was able to screen out the

information I didn't need and others I couldn't do that, nor could I

even concentrate long enough to to even remember the numbers. I was

vey embarrassed during alot of the tests and felt really stupid.

I was reading some Dr Lieberman questions and answers and one was on

hallucinations. His response was that People being treated with PD

meds and do not tolerate them resulting in hallucinations do so for

two reasons and one being they are elderly and the other being they

have an underlying dementia. this was not too encouraging to me.

Regarding faking things this I do not understand and wonder after

seeing many programs about brain damage and how it can do things such

as only allowing you to see half of something that is there if indeed

they are faking. I am not saying it doesn't happen as I believe there

are personality types who do this sort of thing and have all their

lives, but I would caution that you give them the benefit of the

doubt as it could be damage to the brain due to the disease. The mind

is such a fragile thing and can be set off balance so easyily. As for

those who are truly dealing with this my heart goes out to you as I

know how aggravating it can be for you. This disease can test and try

every emotion you have inside. It did so with me and my mother and

now it is doing so again as a patient. Keep in mind that they too are

stressed and they will handle it the way they have always handled

stress. Usually we revert back to our own childish ways.

I am sorry if I have sounded cruel or unfelling here it is not my

intention, nor is it the way I feel, but it seems now I am

experienceing both sides of the coin and that is truly confusing to

me. I want to be good and do right till the end of my days, but I

know that it is inevitable no matter how hard I try there are those I

am going to hurt. God be with you all....Hugs...Patti