Re: how to kick depression

[Guest guest]

I thought and still think I needed to since my mom did hang herself and my

father cut his wrists twice trying to. That was when I was a teenager and they

both died before I was 20. I told a social worker not long ago I wanted to see

someone and he tried to talk me out of it and proceeded to tell me of his hard

life and how he lost 2 wives and I should pretty much " grin and bare it " , so

being the so called tough guy I've always been, I let it go at that. Maybe not

such a good idea.

I'm following my dad's life, just sitting around and letting himself die. I

hated him when he died, I was 16. I'm terrified to tell you the truth.

I miss my daughter terribly who graduated college and lives 10 hrs away. I sit

in the house all day talking to no one. Jeff doesn't come home until 4 and

works 6 days a week. I wait for him and know he's tired, so I stay up all night

just to watch him sleep.

He's always on the computer, and I understand he needs his time, but I'm going

crazy sitting in this house all the time. I like it

when it's dark out at night and when it rains, which it rarely does in the Keys.

Now I'm crying my eyes out writing this. I've never felt like

committing suicide, but I know it does run in the family, in the genes. I guess

the depression mode. Just keep writing to me guys and snap me out of this

funk!! Thanks. I just cracked a smile!!

Love,

[Guest guest]

,

I know I am in the UK but I will gladly ring you, I have been there! If you

want to ring me my home telephone number is 01942 732976 - dont know what

the international code is. Mobile number is 07999 011 033.

you need to talk x

[Guest guest]

,

Please please please seek professional help immediately! Depression

isn't something that you " tough out " , and I'm alarmed that this is the

advice you are recieving. Depression is a chemical imbalance, and

there are a ton a pharmacological solutions to help you. I really

can't stress enough how strongly I feel about this. What you are

describing isn't a mild reaction to stress!!

My mother has twice been diagnoses with clinical depression.

Fortunately, she has not reached the point where she has taken her

life. She has also had breast cancer at a young age. I take my

mammograms as seriously as I take any symptoms of depression and

anxiety.

Please see a doctor. They can be so kind.

Helen

[Guest guest]

Thank You so much, Jill,

I'll do that. In the next couple of days....

in the Keys

[Guest guest]

Thanks Helen and to everyone else.

The reason I wouldn't take my life is because I know how bad I feel to this day

that my mother left me and after she did, I read all types of books about

suicide. She had lost lots of weight, got rid of her 2 dogs, was completely

sober when she hung herself, started smoking cigarettes after 20 years. I just

wish I knew about it and was there to help her. My daughter is what I live for

and would never leave her like that. It's too much to deal with for the rest of

your life. You'll see, I'll get over it. I have to. Love to all,