Re: Maintaining a positive self-image with CMT

[Guest guest]

Hey Gretchen,

That's a topic VERY crucial to happiness which you have started here. Tell you

what, when you see yourself as beautiful, as good, the whole world becomes so.

It's then that you begin accepting people open-heartedly, you live each

moment...you know you are being your best. But...but but but...just in case you

lose that positive self-image after getting it once...its HORRIBLE.

I am oversimplifying the whole issue here...perhaps all I want to convey is that

one needs to KEEP working...KEEP working to improve. It's human to want

more...and it's good...else whats the difference b/w us and other life forms??

Whow whow...am I mentioning anything worthwhile here...? Just penned down what

came to my mind.

ROCKS!!!

Reema

[Guest guest]

I try to keep a wider perspective with CMT.

First of all, I believe that CMT has not been " good or bad " in my

life. The challenges have brought me incredible gifts that I may or

may not have discovered without CMT. My art, my creativity, my

writing, are all influenced by a childhood spent dreaming and

reading while others were out playing. I wouldn't trade those for

the world.

Secondly, I am in a place of admiration for my body rather than

disappointment. My husband works with computers. One faulty line

of program tweaks entire programs, disrupts the whole system so that

the computer becomes useless.

Here, my system has a basic programing error- a duplication of

genes, and yet, my system has overcome so much to become strong,

vital, and active. I think of all the things that I can do. I am

so grateful that my body has figured out how to adapt to this

core " glitch " on such a deep level.

I also look around and see the challenges that everyone faces on a

daily basis. We all have our unique deck of cards. It's not about

changing the cards, it's about how we play them.

I am also a eternal optimist!

Thanks Gretchen, Lenka

[Guest guest]

Hi Gretchen,

In my heart, I know I'm a good person and would do anything for anyone. What

hurts me is the fact that I learned especially from leaving my job of 18 years,

only 1 person has called to see how I'm doing. I'm not perfect myself and don't

always feel like talking to people if I'm not in the right mood or am feeling

bad.

Still am feeling guilty I can't clean the house and take too many naps, I feel

like he thinks I'm lazy. But he doesn't. I've met nicer people recently than I

did with all the backstabbers I worked

with.

Now, your question about self-image, I can't even afford to get my hair done

(but Jeff got me that for my Mother's Day present) and when I walked out of

there I felt like a million bucks. Small stuff like that. When he comes home

after a hard days work, I tend to ramble on because I'm lonely all day, so I

talk and talk. Today I'm having a good day so I " m cleaning the closet out.

I need to get off the TV and listen to more music!! My neighbors are great at

the new house and we just sit outside when the sun is

going down and shoot the shit. That's fun. We share food, cleaning stuff (I

know that sounds weird), I went to BJ's wholesale club the other day with my

neighbor and we listened to ny Cash and were just singing along, laughing,

and believe me I can't sing.

The biggest thing I have problems with is just GETTING OUT OF THE HOUSE!! Once

I'm out there, things change. When I'm in the house by myself, I tend to look

out the window and wonder what everyone is doing out there, as I watch boats go

by, the sky is cystal blue, and I do have my little garden out there.

My best time of the day is between 5p.m. and lord know till when. Last night I

BBQ-d chicken at 2 a.m. I like the night better for some reason. When Jeff

comes home after work, I'd love to NOT say what doesn't feel good today. He

listens, but it's got to get sickening after awhile.

For the first time ever, yesterday I threw up blood. I didn't tell him that

until today. I'm sure it might be an ulcer with all the crap going on. But of

course, I went online to see what symtoms cancer are!!?? I might be driving my

ownself nuts.

When I do go out, even though it might take me 2 hours to fix my hair, makeup,

etc. I make sure I look nice. Then again, people I run into say, " So are you

still working there? " And after all these years , I don't want to go into a big

story, so I leave it at, I hurt my back and will be back shortly. Which is

BS...I'm not sure how to handle all these questions and deal with the paperwork

withi Dr's. One great thing is,

I GOT MY CAR AC FIXED YESTERDAY!! Now instead of burning my but on my seat and

sweating so bad, I actually want to go out.

Another strange thing is, everyone always comes to me for advice because I

always do look for the good things, and it helps others, but why in the hell

doesn't it always work for me?

I've got one of those daily rip-off page calenders with upbeat sayings from

Olsteen, the preacher. For instance, on one side of the page it will say it so

I can understand it in plain English and the other side says what part of the

Bible it came from.

Now that I tore everyone's ear off, can someone tell me I'm not loosing my

mind!! I heard a great saying from one of the guys who won the basketball game

last night, by the way YEAH MIAMI HEAT!!!, and he got a new kidney back in

2000, lost hope, but he said last night, never give up, God is with you, and

things will work out. Well, I'm not going down easy and take each day as it

comes.

Thanks Gretchen for asking this question, of all days, I needed it. If anyone

would like to talk to me privately, please do so at

spoolie4@... and for the people that have, Thank You Very Much...

Some things I'd like to talk just one on one and make more friends, all of my

CMT people I consider family. SEE, this is one of the special things the BIG

GUY gave me, all of you!!! Everyone have a great day and hear comes a saying

from my favorite show....TAKE A LITTLE TIME AND ENJOY THE VIEW!!!

Love from

[Guest guest]

DOES ROCK!!!...

[Guest guest]

HOORAY for ! Just put one foot in front of the other and keep on going!

Debbie

[Guest guest]

Hi Everyone,

I have never really thought about Gretchen's questions before. So I will see if

any deep thoughts pop into my mind over the weekend!

One thing that strikes me though is that I like to set myself personal

challenges. I am not into competitive things, so not like challenges of the

type " come in first doing this sport " or things like that. But just personal

goals. This keeps me motivated and also I feel sense of accomplishment when I

complete the challenges. I like to do that with physical things - for example,

walk a 5k (time not an issue - just completion) and then I feel great after I am

done. I also like to do that with work - finish this deal I am doing, etc. And

even at home I like to do that - I will do two loads of laundry today and smile

while I fold it and enjoy that clean smell of fresh laundry, etc.

Maybe this sounds silly, but I do like to take pride and feel accomplishment

about everything I do - from the small to the big things. I appreciate every

moment and every task. This makes me happy and I think that when I am happy I

give off a good self image that does not rely on my clothing or haircut or

money. Don't get me wrong - I love a trip to the salon - but life for me does

not depend on material things but happiness from within.

Best wishes from London, and have a great weekend everyone! I am hoping to get

some sleep at some stage - I am running myself into the ground with work, it has

been a tough few weeks and some tough ones to come as well!

Donna from London