Re: Feeling down - Jen

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Hi Jen, I still think we were separated at birth! ;-)

I think you are right about the 'normal weight' comment. I fall

within all the normal, healthy ranges of everything. I have always

eaten lots of fruits, veggies, lean meat, etc. so following BFL isnt

really a stretch. The biggest thing is spreading meals out to 6/day

from 4 or 5 before, so I guess it is hard to have a major

transformation if that is the only thing I've changed.

And I've been exercising some way or another for years. Even when I

didnt do weights, I was still doing bodyweight exercises, jogging,

yoga....so a big 'holy cow, what a transformation!' isnt going to

happen.

Your 'flabby, flabby, flabby' comment gave me a chuckle (and maybe a

bit of a tear too). My son who is four, likes to poke my butt,

giggle and make jokes about how big it is. Gotta love the honesty.

I've never had any real health issues. Every time I go to the dr.

for a regular check up, she tells me that I am a physicians dream.

Like you I have normal-to-low blood pressure, which is funny since

high blood pressure runs in the family (my mom has it).

On the outside I make a point of being positive with my kids

especially. Part of my neurosis is from being teased since I was

young about having a 'fat ass' (my sister, brothers, even

grandmother). This has really messed with my head. I don't want

that for either of my kids, especially my daughter.

My daughter has a stocky build, so I'm anticipating trouble when she

is a teenager, but I really hope not. Right now, she eats

incredibly healthy foods most of the time (a few treats here and

there), and is a strong & lean girl. She does gymanastics (not

competitive) during the school year, and makes up for it during the

summer with the monkey bars. She has the strongest arms of any kid I

know (with the little shoulder caps, KWIM?) and you can see her 6-

pack when she leans back. My husband is amazed with her strength.

I think I'm just worn out and tired right now, so everything came

crashing in. I'm feeling better today, but I still havent worked

out since last Thurs. I planned on it this morning, but couldnt

roll out of bed and slept in instead. At least I'm still doing my

2X2 mile walks/day so I'm not a complete slug.

I ate off plan yesterday again, but not every meal. At lunch I ended

up getting a giant salad with chicken and olives because that's the

kind of food I really enjoy. Funny how that works.

Today I woke up feeling more positive and have been sticking to

yogurt, whey, berries and nuts. Not sure how the rest of the day

will pan out, but I could be over the worst of it.

Thanks for your kind words. It really helps a lot to know I'm not

alone.

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

> Hey, your twin here, another " dimpled shapeless hopeless blob with

> back fat and an enormous ass, " to quote . Wow, I was reading

> all this and thinking...ditto...ditto...ditto...

>

> Those photos can be a real confidence killer, It's happened to me

> so many times. Last winter when I got on board BFL again I took

> my " before " photos and 12 weeks later I was squinting at

my " after "

> photos, trying to see a bit of definition or a change--ANY change--

> and finding NONE.

>

> When you start out at a normal weight, as we have, it's so hard

when

> you don't see any changes after ALL that work. I know how hard

you

> work and that you have truly tried every tweak imaginable, so I

have

> no practical advice, just a sympathetic ear.

>

> It's helped me to try positive affirmations and try to accept my

> body as it is now. But I still have my days, too. This morning I

> was sitting on the sofa between my sons, reading them a book, when

> one of them starting hitting my thigh to make it jiggle. Then the

> other one chimed in, and they started to chant, " flabby, flabby,

> flabby. " Yeah, that's what I work so hard for.

>

> I am also trying to concentrate on the health aspect. But I have

> always been health conscious, so there aren't even any health

> changes to measure, except now my blood pressure's so low I almost

> pass out when I stand up quickly.

>

> I guess what I am saying is that it's really a matter of

> comparison. I doubt you want to look like a fitness model. Some

of

> them scare me. But you want to get rid of the last 2% or so of

body

> fat that's preventing you from taking fabulous pictures and

looking

> great in a bikini.

>

> Maybe it's time to get out the affirmations again and get back on

> the wagon. You have worked so hard you deserve a few days

of " bad "

> food. But you don't deserve to wallow in it for more than a few

> days. Even if you don't have time for a lot of " me "

contemplation,

> just treating yourself well and talking to yourself kindly,

> especially when you don't feel like it, can work wonders with your

> outlook. You are always so positive; I know you'll feel better

> soon. So dust off the crumbs and put away the Cheeto's. You've

got

> friends here who can see your good qualities: you're a great

mother

> and wife, and so supportive of everyone here on the board. You

have

> got a LOT of discipline to do BFL the way you have, especially

when

> you are trying to raise a family. So many women use the family

> thing as a huge excuse and let their bodies and health go all to

> hell, but there you are, setting a great example of health and

> discipline for your children.

>

> Jen