Re: Depresion

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Welynda, I wish I could be there to give you a big hug and shoulder to cry on.

Sometimes we just need to let it all out. I know I just break down sobbing

sometimes. It is so hard to live in constant pain....but then I think there

must be a reason for this. I don't know what it is, but God chose us to bear

this pain. Perhaps only to save someone else from it. I don't mean to get

preachy...but I have to find meaning in this. I've had bouts of depression and

boy do I know what you mean about the anti-depressants. They don't completely

take it away, but it would be horrible without them. Hang in there girl,

remember you'll feel better tomorrow. I wish you could get some sleep...that

always helps my outlook. There's plenty more life to be lived.

in TX

Depresion

I hate to come on this site and be so " bummed Out " but I am. I get so

depressed. I've been diagnosed now for 5 1/2 years. My Stills has definitely

improved but it's still raging. And, financially it has been devastating. I

can't just talk with my friends all the time, they must get tired of hearing it.

You guys are the ones who truly understand the depth of this illness and the

pain. Sometimes I get so depressed I have even thought about suicide and just

ending it all. I've done pretty much everything I've wanted to do, traveled to

the places I have wanted to go, made some good choices and some bad ones. I have

no family(no husband or children) so I think what harm would it do if I just

eneded it all. Everyone on this site seem to be such valiant warriors and remain

so positive. Generally I am a fighter and keep positive. But sometimes it just

overwhelms me; I want it all to end and I can thihnk of only one way. This is

part of the reason I

want to come to the conferencee. I really need to meet some other people who

can intimately identify with this illness. I know I won't commit suicide, but I

flirt with the idea. Sorry for being so negative tonight, but this is the only

place I can turn to right now for support. And I need support to know that I can

keep on surviving and do so in a more positive way. I have trouble sleeping,

usually stay up all night one or two nights a week. Think it's the depression. I

do take anti-depressants and they're working, but I still have the depression.

Where would I be without the anti-depressants. Well, I'm really sorry be so

depressed here; I good about helping others to feel more positive, but

sometimews just can't do so for myself. Thanks for listening. All my love to you

all, Welynda