Scared - TARA

[Guest guest]

Hey,

I emailed you last night directly and then this morning reading some

of the responses and after thinking about you over night and what

could else could I say I see that all the advise comes from a

rational point of view...I think that rationally you KNOW that 127

lbs does not make you huge and gross...I think that rationally you

KNOW that the path taken before is not a good one for

you....rationally you KNOW that you are not going to be like the

rest of your family 300+ pounds by eating clean and healthy and

working out...you KNOW all the rational things that is just water

weight, that it will go away...the problem is not what you KNOW

RATIONALLY....but the talk inside your head that is EMOTIONAL...

Have you been to counseling to talk to someone who will listen to

you so when you say it out loud all that negative EMOTIONAL talk you

hear it, out loud and you cannot believe that those words are coming

out of your mouth...you'll start to realize that there are root

causes to all your feelings having nothing to do with the size of

your body...is EMOTIONAL...no one can help you there; except

yourself..trying to figure out what happened that makes you be

unahppy with yourself...is about EMOTIONAL control...you can control

what you put in your mouth, but what is it that you coudn't control

in the past or in your present...what else do you want to change

that you are not in control?

Having a counselor to talk to you will help you to talk without

feeling like someone is judging you or maybe thinking: Quit whinnig

you are skinny...what else you want? Your fears are NOT about your

BODY SIZE because RATIONALLY you know there is nothing wrong with

your body size; except that you might still be tiny...the issue is

EMOTIONALLY...that is why people who don't know you tell you to quit

getting on the scale...is not the scale is your head...

I am thinking about you...you are strong already because you are

asking for help...

Take care,