Re: feeling hopeless... once again-EVERYONE

[Guest guest]

i am strengthened by all of you and your words. i have firm belief

in God, i find much consolation whenever i call out to Him. i have

no doubt he hears our cries and in fact he cries with us. He

doesn't want any of us to suffer, but he may use this experience to

make us more pure, more loving and help others like you all do

everyday for me and each other.

but the road is still extremely tough. i think i've cried everyday

for the past 3 weeks b/c of the pain and also relationships that

have been suffering b/c of it. i am single, 30 and trying to keep

up with the rigors of grad school... considering moving back home w/

my parents who have been soooooo supportive! i'm lucky in so many

senses.

i realize that i have to be more proactive about improving my

situation. just to answer some ?'s: i was explanted by dr. melmed on

june 30th. it's 2 months post-op now and the pain is still very

much present in my wrist, elbows, knees, (esp. when i bend), and

most recently my breasts. the only other symptoms i had going into

the explant was two episodes of rapid heartbeat and profuse sweating

after taking a shower at night. i thought i was going to have a

heart attack! good thing is those never came back, and also my

period has been back to its normal heavy flow. (in the past, i

didn't have it for one whole year, and it's been off and on

sometimes missing a month here or there). all blood tests results

are normal... no rheumatologic disorders clinically either. it's

just the darn prickly sharp and/or burning pain in the mentioned

areas. exercise actually makes things worse, as does any

manipulation of my body like massage. i used to be step aerobics

queen, work out 4 days/week. but now i just walk about 20

minutes/day for school. after massage or cupping i always feel like

crap the next day. (cupping is the eastern tradition of sucking

blood and supposedly the toxins found in your blood. it is a direct

form of detox through the skin, you may have seen gwyneth paltrow

with marks on her back b/c of it). so i'm staying away from both!

my sleep is very unstable. and it is all anxiety related. i'm

taking neurontin for my pain which does help a bit, it also helps me

sleep as i believe it's anxiolytic. but as with patty, i really try

to stay away from any drugs and rely on natural ways or even endure

the pain. that may be foolish i know.

some things i plan to do: incorporate more organic foods in my diet

(i already am an obsessive healthy eater - tons of fruits/veggies),

keep walking, get my sleep in order (i'm looking into psychiatrists

and psychologists right now), pray 30 minutes/day, and take weekly

epsom baths. i just took my first one now after hearing from you

all and it feels so good! i've never done any detox or fasting so

i'm a little wary, but i'll look into it. my brother is also

suggesting i check out norm shealy's institute of chronic pain

center in missouri. also there are some fibromyalgia support groups

that meet monthly.

i hope we all continue to hope and look forward to the day we will

all be delievered from this. some of my favorite words to pray

over: the serenity prayer " God grant me the serenity to accept the

things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and the

wisdom to know the difference " and also a verse from the book of

Proverbs that goes something like " Trust in the Lord in all His ways

and lean not on your own understanding... for He makes straight your

paths... " chapter 3 verse 5.

lisa

[Guest guest]

,

Have you had your thyroid checked out. Implants messed up are

thyroids with a lot of us. And that can cause joint pain too. Maybe

it could be as simple as that.

Hang in there. You will get better. It just takes awhile to put all

the puzzle pieces together.

Love Cricket

-- In , " holymary1974 "

<holymary1974@y...> wrote:

> i am strengthened by all of you and your words. i have firm

belief

> in God, i find much consolation whenever i call out to Him. i

have

> no doubt he hears our cries and in fact he cries with us. He

> doesn't want any of us to suffer, but he may use this experience

to

> make us more pure, more loving and help others like you all do

> everyday for me and each other.

>

> but the road is still extremely tough. i think i've cried

everyday

> for the past 3 weeks b/c of the pain and also relationships that

> have been suffering b/c of it. i am single, 30 and trying to keep

> up with the rigors of grad school... considering moving back home

w/

> my parents who have been soooooo supportive! i'm lucky in so many

> senses.

>

> i realize that i have to be more proactive about improving my

> situation. just to answer some ?'s: i was explanted by dr. melmed

on

> june 30th. it's 2 months post-op now and the pain is still very

> much present in my wrist, elbows, knees, (esp. when i bend), and

> most recently my breasts. the only other symptoms i had going

into

> the explant was two episodes of rapid heartbeat and profuse

sweating

> after taking a shower at night. i thought i was going to have a

> heart attack! good thing is those never came back, and also my

> period has been back to its normal heavy flow. (in the past, i

> didn't have it for one whole year, and it's been off and on

> sometimes missing a month here or there). all blood tests results

> are normal... no rheumatologic disorders clinically either. it's

> just the darn prickly sharp and/or burning pain in the mentioned

> areas. exercise actually makes things worse, as does any

> manipulation of my body like massage. i used to be step aerobics

> queen, work out 4 days/week. but now i just walk about 20

> minutes/day for school. after massage or cupping i always feel

like

> crap the next day. (cupping is the eastern tradition of sucking

> blood and supposedly the toxins found in your blood. it is a

direct

> form of detox through the skin, you may have seen gwyneth paltrow

> with marks on her back b/c of it). so i'm staying away from both!

>

> my sleep is very unstable. and it is all anxiety related. i'm

> taking neurontin for my pain which does help a bit, it also helps

me

> sleep as i believe it's anxiolytic. but as with patty, i really

try

> to stay away from any drugs and rely on natural ways or even

endure

> the pain. that may be foolish i know.

>

> some things i plan to do: incorporate more organic foods in my

diet

> (i already am an obsessive healthy eater - tons of

fruits/veggies),

> keep walking, get my sleep in order (i'm looking into

psychiatrists

> and psychologists right now), pray 30 minutes/day, and take weekly

> epsom baths. i just took my first one now after hearing from you

> all and it feels so good! i've never done any detox or fasting so

> i'm a little wary, but i'll look into it. my brother is also

> suggesting i check out norm shealy's institute of chronic pain

> center in missouri. also there are some fibromyalgia support

groups

> that meet monthly.

>

> i hope we all continue to hope and look forward to the day we will

> all be delievered from this. some of my favorite words to pray

> over: the serenity prayer " God grant me the serenity to accept the

> things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and

the

> wisdom to know the difference " and also a verse from the book of

> Proverbs that goes something like " Trust in the Lord in all His

ways

> and lean not on your own understanding... for He makes straight

your

> paths... " chapter 3 verse 5.

>

> lisa

[Guest guest]

Just wanted to tell you that right after explant I felt fantastic for

about 10 days. Then I went downhill for a while - much worse than

before I got them out. I think explant kind of stirred things up. I

was so scared and totally depressed. I almost thought I had done

something wrong by getting them out. But, everyone here encouraged

me so much - letting me know it was totally normal!

Anyway, I am now almost 9 months post-explant and I am feeling

great! I still have some flares here and there, but for the most

part I am a lot better. My daughter says I'm 70% better. She knows

how bad I was, so I trust her rating!

Last year at this time I was applying for disability, I slept 20

hours a day, cried non-stop and basically didn't want to wake up

anymore.

Now I sleep 8-9 hours, I exercise every day by riding a stationary

bike for around 20 minutes (almost 6 miles), I cook and clean, I go

shopping and take care of a bunch of kids, stuff I never thought I

could do again.

I'm not totally healed, but I thank God for this group and for all

the info I found here that lead me to get my implants out and helped

me to get better.

Hang in there! God is in control, remember that.

Pam

> > i am strengthened by all of you and your words. i have firm

> belief

> > in God, i find much consolation whenever i call out to Him. i

> have

> > no doubt he hears our cries and in fact he cries with us. He

> > doesn't want any of us to suffer, but he may use this experience

> to

> > make us more pure, more loving and help others like you all do

> > everyday for me and each other.

> >

> > but the road is still extremely tough. i think i've cried

> everyday

> > for the past 3 weeks b/c of the pain and also relationships that

> > have been suffering b/c of it. i am single, 30 and trying to

keep

> > up with the rigors of grad school... considering moving back home

> w/

> > my parents who have been soooooo supportive! i'm lucky in so

many

> > senses.

> >

> > i realize that i have to be more proactive about improving my

> > situation. just to answer some ?'s: i was explanted by dr. melmed

> on

> > june 30th. it's 2 months post-op now and the pain is still very

> > much present in my wrist, elbows, knees, (esp. when i bend), and

> > most recently my breasts. the only other symptoms i had going

> into

> > the explant was two episodes of rapid heartbeat and profuse

> sweating

> > after taking a shower at night. i thought i was going to have a

> > heart attack! good thing is those never came back, and also my

> > period has been back to its normal heavy flow. (in the past, i

> > didn't have it for one whole year, and it's been off and on

> > sometimes missing a month here or there). all blood tests

results

> > are normal... no rheumatologic disorders clinically either. it's

> > just the darn prickly sharp and/or burning pain in the mentioned

> > areas. exercise actually makes things worse, as does any

> > manipulation of my body like massage. i used to be step aerobics

> > queen, work out 4 days/week. but now i just walk about 20

> > minutes/day for school. after massage or cupping i always feel

> like

> > crap the next day. (cupping is the eastern tradition of sucking

> > blood and supposedly the toxins found in your blood. it is a

> direct

> > form of detox through the skin, you may have seen gwyneth paltrow

> > with marks on her back b/c of it). so i'm staying away from both!

> >

> > my sleep is very unstable. and it is all anxiety related. i'm

> > taking neurontin for my pain which does help a bit, it also helps

> me

> > sleep as i believe it's anxiolytic. but as with patty, i really

> try

> > to stay away from any drugs and rely on natural ways or even

> endure

> > the pain. that may be foolish i know.

> >

> > some things i plan to do: incorporate more organic foods in my

> diet

> > (i already am an obsessive healthy eater - tons of

> fruits/veggies),

> > keep walking, get my sleep in order (i'm looking into

> psychiatrists

> > and psychologists right now), pray 30 minutes/day, and take

weekly

> > epsom baths. i just took my first one now after hearing from you

> > all and it feels so good! i've never done any detox or fasting

so

> > i'm a little wary, but i'll look into it. my brother is also

> > suggesting i check out norm shealy's institute of chronic pain

> > center in missouri. also there are some fibromyalgia support

> groups

> > that meet monthly.

> >

> > i hope we all continue to hope and look forward to the day we

will

> > all be delievered from this. some of my favorite words to pray

> > over: the serenity prayer " God grant me the serenity to accept

the

> > things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and

> the

> > wisdom to know the difference " and also a verse from the book of

> > Proverbs that goes something like " Trust in the Lord in all His

> ways

> > and lean not on your own understanding... for He makes straight

> your

> > paths... " chapter 3 verse 5.

> >

> > lisa

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Hi Pam, I appreciate the forewarning of the up, then down, syndrome,

AFTER explantation. I guess I'm used to that after 17 years of

implants, but am VERY VERY tired of it all. The support here is

sooooooooooo helpful. It's nice to be able to ask ANYTHING without

fear. I thank you for the encouragement. I also appreciate the

reminder of God being in control. You are absolutely right about

that, and of the importance to remember that all times, bad AND good!

Thanks again! Ann